I [M] have been getting unsolicited snapchats of an anonymous girl’s tits for a year

I’ve had this alternate reddit account for about a year, but it’s certainly not my first. I’ve been through the classic cycle of make a throwaway and delete it. It’s a tale as old as time, of guilt and shame, etc. I’ve come to just accept that I need a separate space to indulge in porn, so I’ve kept this account. Who cares anymore if anyone finds out that this exists?

I’ve also had a throwaway snapchat account, from which I’d usually snap people I met on /r/dirtysnapchat. I’d go through the same cycles with that, use and then delete the account, but snapchat has a thing where if you log in again after 30 days of deletion your account is activated again. I haven’t been able to wait that long ever lol. So it’s been around for awhile, and like I said, I’ve gotten used to the fact that I need to indulge every once in a while, so it continues to exist and I log on every once in a while.
Sometimes when I’m bored I’ll just start adding people with girl bitmojis or girl names. I haven’t done it in awhile, but it’s usually when I don’t get any adds from the subreddit. It’s a desperate game, being a guy in an X-rated snapchat world. I don’t expect to be added back, and even when I do, I’m not really good at a cold open so I usually just leave it alone. I know, it’s odd.
Once I added a girl named “Katharine”. She added me back, but I never struck up a conversation.

Sometime later, I was working the opening shift at my campus gym. No one is around usually except my coworker. And sometimes I have to walk through the building to make sure nothing strange is going on. That morning I was doing a walk through, and decided I’ll check my throwaway snapchat. I was following a couple at the time that often posted some really hot stories, and I figured I’d see if they posted anything. No one was around, and I’m a college guy. Well, when I opened the account I saw that I was sent a photo snap a couple of hours ago from that girl Katharine. My heart dropped, or my adrenaline started pumping, or I got a quick dopamine hit. I was so excited. I opened the snap, and it was just a picture of her huge tits with pierced nipples.

At the time I was near a bathroom that was way out of the way, so I ran in there, replayed the snap, and immediately started jerking off. I didn’t even think twice about it. I came, staring at her tits, and cleaned myself up. I’m not sure if I messaged her back with a compliment or sent her a picture of myself, but I had to get back to the desk where I worked soon.

And that’s how it started. Every 4 days or so I would get a new snap from Katharine of her tits or just a message saying hey. I would jack off, sometimes send videos of myself doing it back to her (which she seemed to like), and then go about my daily life. We were obviously from different time zones, so we rarely talked.
One time, again when I was opening the gym, I got a snap message from her just saying “hey”. I sent a message back, and luckily got a response. I told her I was at work, but would be getting off in a couple of hours if she’d still be up for it. She asked if I’d really be up for waiting another week to see her tits. I promptly went to the bathroom and jacked off again to a picture she sent.
Most of the time though I’d look before I went to bed or when I needed a study break, but I was always excited to receive them.

This went on for quite some time. It really helped me actually. I sometimes used (and still use) /r/dirtysnapchat as a crutch for attention, for a dopamine hit, for an adrenaline rush, for a way to get off with someone else for a night when I can’t have sex for whatever reason (often when I’m back at home). But having the possibility that Katharine would be in my inbox stopped me from doing that. It gave me all the dopamine hits I would need, and always gave me hope. I never felt shame. In fact, I don’t think we ever really had a full conversation or exchanged our real names. It all just happened so organically, as if with an unspoken agreement. It was my little secret with very little tying me down. I think that’s important for me.

I’m posting this for many reasons, but primarily two. The first is because Katharine has stopped sending me snapchats. I’m guessing she might have gotten bored or have gotten a boyfriend. Both are totally understandable. So, I guess this is a thank you note and a means of grieving what I had. The second is to just finally tell a story of what good has happened in my sex life. It was nothing but good and fun and exciting. And I’m lucky to have had that.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/gnpvsl/i_m_have_been_getting_unsolicited_snapchats_of_an