[F] Quarantine Masturbation Log (Entry 1)

**(Accidentally deleted this, reposting)**

Since we can’t be together physically during this quarantine, this is the first entry in my log to record each time I masturbate using the toys you sent me.

I wake up to some thoughtful, non-sexual Whatsapp messages from you that put a smile on my face. When I look up from my phone, the first thing I see is my unfinished glass of wine from last night and [the butt plugs on my bedside table](https://imgur.com/NvmtGfW), where you instructed me to put them. They look like decorations but serve as a reminder before bed and in the mornings to train me for the next time we meet. Your morning text and the various pink plugs on my nightstand contribute to the throbbing feeling between my legs.

Normally, I need to get ready for University at this hour. But due to the quarantine I can attend my recorded lectures when I want. I decide to allow myself a later start getting out of bed today. I need the extra time adding your decorative gifts into my routine before cumming. As you said, I need to train my association between the feeling of the buttplug and an orgasm.

I am hoping that my five other college housemates are busy with their meetings and work to pay no mind if they hear me. After all, I’m in no rush to get to classes anytime soon.

The other day you shared with me an erotic story you liked. It was about a girl wearing a short miniskirt on public transportation, blindly seduced by a strange man behind her. Little did you know that that has been a longstanding fantasy of my own. That night you made me call you and we read it to one another, taking turns masturbating while the other tried to read it quietly. After all, we didn’t want to wake the others in our house. That night I came twice. 

But now I’m alone without your help. Preferably I would have had more selected by you. I make a mental note to ask for more or find some myself to share in return. In lieu I go to pornhub and look through the still frames to see what gives me the rush. There are a few I like but I consider which fantasy I want to indulge with first. [The one I decide on embarrasses me](https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph5ca9da2e66d9e), but I decide to share it with you anyway. 

The still-frame is a cock deeply penetrating up the ass of a woman with her skirt pulled up, legs together. Except she’s sleeping the entire time. This one gets me aching to start with the toys. I’m really hot about the idea of a man taking advantage of me. 

I’m always wet when I wake up, so the idea of someone having their way while I’m unconscious (but physically ready) makes me wild. I like the idea of unconsented consent. I get the clitoral stimulator you bought me from my drawer and decide to move up a size from my previous buttplug as you instructed me to do. 

I think back to the day my housemate accepted the delivery. She had no idea she was accepting toys I’d be using for pleasure on the second floor directly above her.

I grab the lube you bought in preparation from my bottom drawer for the plug, even though I’m wet enough to cover it in my own pre-cum. But I like the idea that you got me it, it feels like you’re part of the process. The plug itself is readily propped on top of my night table and IO’m excited to start bringing everything into my bed. 

I then realize there’s already a wet spot on my sheets from while I was sleeping. Normally this problem being wet all the time embarrasses me outside the house but at home during quarantine I can easily deal with it later.

I lift my hips up and slide my underwear down my legs. They’re wet and I throw them over to my laundry bin to deal with later. I lift my pyjama top off over my head and drop it beside my bed. I lay on my back and start inserting the vibrator first inch by inch. It’s a bit difficult first thing in the morning but my wetness helps. The feeling of it penetrating me slowly could almost make me cum in the act itself. 

It’s in and feels so amazing. I turn it on because I can hardly wait. I start watching the video and wish it was me still asleep, being woken with someone behind me between my legs. At 2 minutes in, I notice the woman in the video  has the same toy as me and laugh at her good taste in toys. I have both the vibration and the clit suction on this time so I can try and match the sensations where she’s being touched. 

The part where he’s inserting his fingers into her and stroking the back of her legs goes on a bit too long. I zone out a bit and focus on the feeling of the toy. It feels so good to have it in me and I switch to Whatsapp where the photo of your cock you sent me is. I’m so happy I have that photo because I wanted it badly when I asked for it days before you finally sent it. 

At that moment I start tensing around the toy almost as if I’m about to cum but luckily it’s just excitement. I start imagining it’s your warm cock growing deep inside me, feeling me tense up around you instead. The idea alone electrifies me at that moment and I realize I’m closer to cumming than I expected. I don’t want to miss my chance to use the plug in my ass like I did before, so I look for it in the sheets and quickly grab it. I take the toy out of my pussy to make sure I don’t cum. I don’t trust myself. 

While I’m rubbing lube all over the shaft of the pink anal plug, I think about how crazy I am to train my holes to prepare for you. The thought makes me realize I’m submitting to someone for the first time in my life. It’s embarrassing that I’m controlled mentally already and even worse that I enjoy it. Shaking the thought, I relax onto my back again.

Looking at the photo of your cock on my phone in my left hand and the lubed pink plug on the right, I wonder how I’ll ever fit you into me. But I want to please you and to be filled by you the next time we see each other, so I compliantly follow your rules. 

I start to slowly slip the pink plug into my ass. It’s taking a bit longer than the last time but it also feels much better. [I’ve taken it fully in](https://imgur.com/0HzWTss) and immediately feel proud I’m progressing. [I take a video](https://imgur.com/OAfORDO) to eagerly send you as proof. I’m super wet at this stage and then slide the toy back in. Again, pushing it in feels good and so much better with the plug inside me. 

At this stage everything is stimulated, my ass feels erotic and filled deeper than I’ve experienced ever before. The toy is gripped in me, though I wish it were your cock. I turn the suction over the clit on and oh my god – I’m so ready to finish. I go back to the pornhub video. 

[I start it at 4:26](https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph5ca9da2e66d9e&t=266) when he’s ready to finally fill the girl in the video like I’m filled. She’s laying face down on the bed, skirt pulled up, grey stocking and fully out of it. He’s riding her and I’m aching to have the same. I turn the toy’s vibration on and I almost cum right away. I wasn’t expecting the plug deep inside my ass to vibrate as well. I turned it off fast. It was a crazy and amazing high I wasn’t prepared for. I sit there for a second to prepare again. 

I turn it back on and my eyes close. I’m biting my lip at this point to shut myself up from any high pitch moans. 

I start watching the video again, there’s not a lot of variation happening. However the idea that she’s still not conscious makes me pulsate, all the while embarrassed of my own fantasy to experience the same. To experience someone’s need to fuck me so bad they’ve lost moral control. 

I start pushing the toy with my free hand into me deeper, thrusting my pelvis against the suction. I focus on how full my ass feels and the vibration it’s getting. My silence from the pleasure is still being forced and I feel myself start to edge. The plug is in like it’s meant to be this time. I think about the fact I’ve successfully followed your instructions and I let myself cum. I feel myself tighten around the vibratior and the butt plug. My other hand let’s go of the fist of sheets and covers my mouth. I was an idiot and started moaning too loudly, certain my roommates heard. 

The cumming lasts a couple seconds before I’m able to breath. I lie there while I wait for my head to stop spinning and for my breathing to slow down. Before letting myself cum again and again as I normally do, I decide to hold off and wait for the next time you can join me, and decide to add my experience to this sex journal instead. 

I look at the time and realize I’m late to get ready for an online lecture. I leave the plug in but I jump out of the bed to take a shower. I decide to wait until after the conference call to put fresh sheets on. Instead, I allow my classmates and professor to witness my messy bed scene behind me where I orgasmed shortly before. I sit like the honours student that I am at my desk, with the butt plug still inside me.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/g3pf0y/f_quarantine_masturbation_log_entry_1