All during my life, I was strong, confident, assertive. Now we call it toxic masculinity, but then it was just being brash, loud and sometimes obnoxious.
My girlfriend and my best friend broke me of it the night she sucked his cock and worshiped it in front of me. Ever since that night, I live a lie and pretend to be that same guy, but I know I’m not really an Alpha. I don’t mind it, either.
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Todd and I were in school together and knew each other a little from high school. He was quiet, a little shyer than me and was always like my younger brother even though we were only a few weeks apart in our ages. Todd was shorter and less confident with girls, but we spent all our time chasing them. The difference was that I had no trouble getting girls and I was, I admit it, a total asshole about getting laid before him. He’d simmer and be passive aggressive and we’d keep hanging out.
We were going to different schools for undergrad and I didn’t see Todd as much. When I did, though, I noticed I wasn’t doing as well with girls around him. This girl I rejected pretty harshly was suddenly chasing him and she told everyone about the way she was fucking him. It was a little bit of a blow to the ego that she forgot I existed, but whatever. There were still other girls and who cared if the guy finally got some?
What I didn’t count on was how motivated Todd was, even in college, to really improve himself. While I was partying and chasing girls, Todd was eating right and living at the gym. I didn’t know any of that until our friend group all went to a house party and he was much fitter and the girls were all over him. I tried to talk to one of the girls around him and she told me she was talking to my friend and to go away. The first time I ever ran into that was that night. Todd saw it and teased me pretty hard, but I laughed it off. He did seem to really enjoy it, though…
I didn’t see him for nearly two years. I was always chasing a new girl and one weekend he called out of the blue to say he was in town and that I should come to the party at one of his dad’s rental houses that was empty. I brought Amber, the girl I was seeing at the time, and I wasn’t expecting how different he looked. Todd was jacked, with big arms and a seriously fit physique. Amber was surprised, she told me later, that I had such a buff friend. After a lot of shots, Todd took his shirt off and all the girls took notice. I was very slow to get into the hot tub later since he was twice my size and I felt a little intimidated by him.
In a whisper, Amber asked me if I had ever seen Todd’s dick.
I blushed, and said no, of course not! She smirked and told me, kind of loudly, that she could see the outline of it in his underwear and she was sure it was big.
Todd heard that and smirked. He spent the rest of the night flirting with Amber and teasing me about how I used to be like the little brother between us, and Amber loved it. She kept stroking his chest and touching his arms when he made her laugh. Amber said she was going to hit pause with us and see where the night took her. That meant that she stayed with Todd and I went home and masturbated myself to sleep.
The Amber thing fucked with me and so did the fact that every time Todd came into town, he’d hook up with some girl I liked. He got with these girls with no effort and even if they liked me, they’d start throwing it at Todd as soon as they met him. This happened at least six times over a few more years.
The story comes to a close with Dawn, who was a hot Romanian girl with a perfect ass and perfect legs. She was a runner and could fuck me for hours. We dated for nearly a year before Todd came back for good. By now he was over twice my size – he had the time and money to get really strong and he definitely intimidated me now. His sport-fucking every girl I ever liked seemed calculated and very passive-aggressive. I didn’t feel confident around him when I was fine with anything else.
Dawn was really excited to meet Todd and was teasing me about how muscular he was as soon as she met him. Even with a good system at the gym, Todd was much fitter than me and he knew it. Dawn smoked a lot of weed that night and kept flashing everyone there. She showed her perfect body off and kept touching my dick and told me to take her upstairs.
The party was at another house Todd’s family owned and wasn’t using. It had this really spacious guest room we used. Dawn stripped down in a hurry and started kissing me like she was almost angry with me. She had my dick out of my pants and was stroking it before I could do anything to her.
Todd used a key and opened the door a few minutes later when my dick was in Dawn’s mouth. Dawn was furiously sucking me and I barely noticed at first until I saw him out of the corner of my eye. I was surprised and pissed and Dawn looked like she had won a prize.
“Hey, everything going OK in here?” He asked.
Dawn was totally naked and slowly walked over to him with a shy smile on her face. Right in front of me, she kissed him and started to run her hands over him. She looked like she was in heat when she wordlessly ran her hands down his stomach to his dick and gripped it through his pants with both hands.
Todd made eye contact with me as I was watching in horror and embarrassment and kind of chuckled. He brushed her hands away and took out an absolutely enormous cock. I measure around 7 inches and have a good thickness but he was longer and thicker than me. I knew what he was using on these girls as he crushed my ego.
Dawn licked Todd’s balls and pumped him with both hands. She turned her head over her shoulder and said in a very matter-of-fact voice that she was going to “Stuff this big fat cock” inside her and that I had to watch.
After feeling very emasculated, She turned around and sat me down in a chair as Todd stripped. Dawn sucked me like she was comparing our cocks and smiled as though she were proving a theory. Todd was naked and behind her, kissing her neck, her shoulders, and Dawn whispered that she’d put on a show.
It was horrifying and sexy. Todd mounted her and she groaned at each inch of his cock pushing into her. Dawn kissed him really passionately and leaned over to tell me what a beautiful cock Todd had.
“I really do, man,” He laughed. They teased me and fucked for at least 20 minutes. By the end Dawn was muttering something in her language I couldn’t understand and Todd was grunting at each thrust. He started screaming that he was going to cum and pulled out. Dawn opened her mouth and he drenched her. I was almost afraid that they’d notice I was stroking my cock and about to cum.
After they finished, Todd started getting dressed and Dawn lay there like she had been hit by a truck. His cum and hand marks were all over her. Todd winked and told me I should go in for sloppy seconds as he left to go back to the party. I hated him and admired him so much at the same time.
I slowly walked over after Todd left and Dawn was still panting. I tried to touch her and she pushed my hand away.
“Did you SEE how hard he just fucked me? Give me a minute.” We both passed out in that cum-covered bed in a room that smelled like very hot sex.
Todd left early on business the next morning and we left for breakfast. Dawn hummed music on the radio and smiled to herself as we left. All that day and the next day, she wanted to talk about Todd. Sometimes she’d make a remark about how successful he seemed or how strong he was as she giggled.
One time I walked in on her masturbating to his Facebook photos. And she’d tease me during sex about my cock being average to her now. Ever since then, I have a healthy appetite for female domination and supremacy and it gets more pronounced each year.
Dawn and I dated for a while after that, but she never wanted to be submissive to me again. She’d tease me about fucking my stallion of a friend and have me do chores and clean for her while she’d tell her friends about that night.
I’m not always openly submissive and a lot of the time, I exude confidence and success in my career and in relationships.
But I don’t introduce girls to Todd anymore.
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TL;DR: Best friend I teased becomes an alpha male and embarrasses me with girls, eventually fucking my gf in front of me. The experience makes me open to strong, assertive women dominating me.
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/dv5kll/embracing_femdom_and_a_beta_lifestyle_fm_long
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