This is the true story of the strangest relationship I ever had. It is fairly long and not chock full of gratuitous sex, but I think you might enjoy it.
During the summer between my sophomore and junior years of college, I lived with three other guys in a house located within walking distance of the campus as well as several dive bars that catered to the university crowd.
I was trying to sleep off a massive hangover one afternoon when I heard the doorbell ringing at the front of the house. I pulled a pillow over my head and tried to drown out the noise, but whoever was at the door was persistent and they kept on buzzing.
I pulled on a shirt and stumbled down the hall to the front door, snatching it open with a sharp pull.
Standing before me were two visions of loveliness. One was an extremely attractive brunette with long curly hair and the other a knockout blonde with a straight golden mane. They were both tanned to perfection and their white t-shirts accented their bronzed skin, while their painted-on denim shorts did little to cover the long shapely legs that seemed to go on forever.
I was eventually able to break from my hormone-induced stupor and tried to pick my jaw up off the floor.
When my bloodshot eyes finally made their way back up to regions above the neck, I focused on the brunette’s face and realized that she looked familiar.
Just as I remembered where I knew her from she said, “is that you Mike?”
Well, it was me, Mike, and I remembered that her name was Tanya and that my dorm roommate freshman year had spent an entire semester trying to get in her pants, to no avail.
I hadn’t seen her in over a year but she was looking fine as ever.
I replied, “hey Tanya, ain’t seen you in a long time, what’s up?”
Tanya explained that she was looking for my housemate Greg who was a bartender and who had promised Tanya some free drink coupons for the bar.
But as she droned on as to why she had wound up on my doorstep all I could do was stare at the blonde goddess standing next to her. I mean this girl was as perfect as they come. She was tall, just a smidge under six foot, and had a beautiful face with a slim nose and full lips, all framed by long golden hair. She had really big breasts too. They just could not hide under the thin tee, and I kept staring at them longingly. And her tiny waist and toned legs just completed the perfect picture. She was the quintessential California beach babe stuck in the dreary Northeast.
But what really had me mesmerized, well, besides her tits, where her blue/grey eyes. Her eyes were truly seductive and just sparkled in the sunlight.
After what seemed like an eternity of Tanya carrying on about how Greg had hooked them up at the bar the previous weekend and how he had promised to get them the drink coupons they could use when he wasn’t on-duty, she finally introduced me to her friend Heidi.
Greg wasn’t home, but I found the coupons in his room and gave them to the girls who invited me to join them for drinks at a local pub. Who was I to refuse two lovely ladies? Hair of the dog seemed like good medicine to me.
So we’re sitting at high-top table in the pub and I am doing my best to chat up Heidi while not ignoring Tanya. Hey, a man’s got to keep his options open. We were having a great time talking about God knows what and putting away several strong cocktails. Heidi was no slouch in the drinking department and was matching me drink for drink.
Then out of nowhere Heidi takes my face in her hands, looks into my eyes and says, “you know, our kids would be just gorgeous.” Then she plants a smacker right on my lips and announces that she is heading to the bar to get us some shots.
Shit, I just about fell off my stool. I turned to Tanya and asked her, “what the fuck was that?”
“Oh, that’s just Heidi,” she said. “Heidi is a huge flirt who loves to get a guy’s engine running. But don’t get any ideas Mike. She has a boyfriend and the two of them have been dating since they were freshmen in high school, and she doesn’t sleep around.”
Needless to say I was disappointed to hear that Heidi had a serious boyfriend, but I was getting drunk and enjoying the company, so my mood remained pretty upbeat. Over the next couple hours I got to know a bit more about Heidi and she continued to flirt with me unabashedly.
We said our goodbyes that evening and I stumbled off towards home thinking that maybe I would run into Heidi again in the bars some night. Little did I know that our next encounter would be so soon.
When I came home from work the following evening I found Heidi sitting in my living room enjoying the rapt attention of two of my housemates who looked about as awestruck as I had upon our first meeting.
I asked her what was up and she told me that she had come over to get me so we could go out and pound some beers. Well, you don’t have to ask me twice. I showered and changed clothes and out the door we went.
And so began a six-month whirlwind friendship, or some shit like that.
For the next six months Heidi and I were virtually inseparable during waking hours. When I wasn’t at school or working and she was off from work we would hang out together. Often times we went to bars and put back tall frosty ones. But sometimes she just came over to my house and we watched TV or a movie, with her often falling asleep in my arms on the couch.
But we were not “dating” and I was not getting any good loving from Heidi. She went home to her boyfriend every night, and was definitely not giving up the buns to me.
But the relationship wasn’t purely platonic either. Whenever we were out together she would hold my hand or put her head on my shoulder. She was constantly stroking my thigh when we sat together, and it wasn’t uncommon for her to plant a big one on me, tongue and all, in public for the world to see. But it all seemed to be just part of her party girl persona and nothing serious.
I was confused, as were the people around me. My housemates used to ride me mercilessly, taking me to task for spending so much time with a girl who wasn’t, and never would be my girlfriend.
One night, while out at a bar with Heidi, I ran into a girl I knew from class and she asked me straight out if Heidi and I were dating. Then, as I am explaining to her that Heidi and I were just friends, Heidi runs up, throws her arms around my neck and sticks her tongue down my throat.
So much for just friends.
I realized that this “relationship” was abnormal to say the least, but I was still having a good time hanging out with a super hot fun girl. But it wasn’t enough.
Although Tanya would hang out with us from time to time, I didn’t see her all that often. So I guess she was a little surprised when I called her and asked to get together to talk.
We met at a coffee shop near my house and I explained that I needed to know what the hell was really going on with Heidi and if there was any chance for a relationship between us, or had I been friend zoned with no chance for escape.
Tanya explained again that Heidi had this serious boyfriend, Dan, from her childhood and that they had some kind of karmic connection and were destined to be together, despite the fact that he was a complete pot-head, high school drop-out loser.
Tanya told me that Dan had convinced Heidi to drop out of community college so that she could work more hours and pay more of the bills at home. As for himself, Dan worked nights at some factory as a custodian, didn’t make shit for wages, and spent most of his money on weed and beer.
I had met Dan a few times when he had the night off from work and came out to the bars with Heidi. She had introduced me as a friend of Tanya’s, and we spoke briefly. He wasn’t a very social person and seemed quite the prick to me.
Well, after talking with Tanya, I understood why Dan had been so standoffish the couple of times that we had met. Apparently, Dan was well aware of who I was and what “role” I was playing in his girlfriend’s life. According to Tanya, Heidi had made it clear to Dan in no uncertain terms that she already had one foot out the door, and that if he did not clean up his act she was going to move in with me. As far as Dan knew, Heidi and I had been hitting the sheets together for months and I was surprised that he hadn’t punched me in the mouth the first time we met. I certainly would have had I been in his shoes.
This was of course news to me, and I cannot say that I was real thrilled to hear that I was being used as a tool to straighten out Heidi’s love life, and told Tanya as much. Hell, I could have overlooked some of this bullshit if I had actually been getting laid. But now I was pissed and embarrassed, and decided that I needed to end our bizarre relationship before things got any more complicated.
I called Heidi and asked her if we could get together at nine o’clock that evening at one of our favorite watering holes and she happily agreed. Well, old Mike showed up and started putting back beers, but Heidi was a no show. I half figured that Tanya had told her about our conversation and my poor reaction and that Heidi was scared to meet me and hear what I had to say.
So, I waited until about eleven and then took off for home where I went to sleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.
The next thing I heard is loud yelling, and I open my eyes to a blinding light in my bedroom. Heidi and Tanya are there jumping around and on my bed screaming at me to get up and dressed so that we could go out and party.
Going out to party was the last thing I wanted to do at that point and told them as much. But they wouldn’t let it go and kept telling me to get up and dressed. It was only after I raised my voice and told them to get the hell out of my room that they realized I wasn’t playing around. Heidi said something to Tanya and Tanya left the room, closing the door behind her.
Heidi flicked the light switch off then came over and sat down on my bed. She started rubbing my thigh through the blanket and encouraging me to get up and go out with them.
I told her that I had already been out and had waited for her for two hours with no show and no call. I told her that I was done being jerked around and wanted to go back to sleep.
Heidi lay on the bed next to my blanket covered body and snuggled her nose in where my neck and shoulder meet. She started to lick my neck and stroke my thigh up higher, closer to my junk.
She kept saying, “I’m sorry for being late. Just come out tonight and things will be ok.”
But I was a rock, and rock hard, and I told her that I wasn’t interested in going out and that she should leave.
Heidi then rolled on top of me and pressed her sizeable chest into mine and with her lips just centimeters from mine said, “You know that I love you. Just come out with me and I will make it worth your while.”
Man, I wanted her so badly, but I had no confidence that she meant what she was saying. Heidi needed me to continue to be her crutch. If I got up and dressed and went out with her, our dysfunctional relationship would continue, her having gained more power and me looking ever more pathetic.
So I turned my head towards the door and told her, “just go.”
But she didn’t get off the bed, and she did not leave. Heidi pulled back my blanket and sheet, got under the covers and lay next to me again, with her mouth at my neck and her leg thrown across my crotch, right on top of my hard-on.
I had to make my stand once and for all and I told her, “Heidi, you can jump on my bed, you can lay on my bed, hell, you can crawl under my bed for all I care, and I won’t do a thing. But I am telling you now, and I am only going to tell you once. If you get in my bed, under the covers with me, you are getting fucked, and there ain’t no way around it. So, either get the hell up and out of my bed, or prepare to get fucked in my bed.”
Before I knew what was happening Heidi was kissing me hard and had her tongue in my mouth. I wrapped my arms around her tight and pulled her body close to mine.
I managed to peel off her sweatshirt and quickly unhooked her bra, freeing her full perfect breasts, which I gently caressed, lightly pinching her nipples.
Heidi moaned into my mouth and ground her pussy into my leg, her breathing getting more rapid by the second.
I sat up and flipped Heidi over onto her back and planted tiny kisses all over her breasts, paying particular attention to her stiff nipples, tonguing them back and forth with quick flicks.
At the same time I unbuttoned her jeans and with a little assistance shimmied them over her hips and down her legs until they were finally deposited in a ball on the floor.
I kissed my way down her belly, peppering her with kisses all around her perfect belly button.
I continued down to her silk panties where I covered her pussy with my mouth and breathed hot air in to her silky folds. Heidi squirmed in ecstasy, raising her hips up off the bed to meet my mouth.
I eventually pulled off her panties and went to work on her with my tongue. I sucked and flicked her love button bringing her to the brink of orgasm before letting her come back down to Earth once again.
When I felt that she could take no more, I raised up on my knees and elbows and placed the tip of my cock against her slick pussy and slowly pushed my way into her inch by inch. When I was fully inside I lay on top of her, chest-to-chest, and just stared into her eyes. She held my gaze and told me again that she loved me and I told her that I loved her too.
I began a slow rhythm in and out and made love to Heidi gently, but with intense passion.
I was able to hold back my impending orgasm to coincide with hers and we came together. It was incredible.
We lay together in each other’s arms, our bodies entwined, kissing each other and rubbing noses for a long time until I broke the silence.
“Leave him Heidi,” I said. “Come and live here with me.”
When I tried to speak again, Heidi put her fingers to my lips and looked directly into my eyes. “I love you Michael,” she said. “And at this very moment, in your arms, in your bed, I would do anything that you asked of me, except this. This is the one thing that I cannot do. I know that you don’t understand, and I cannot explain, but please, don’t ask me to do this, because I must refuse. Just love me and know that I love you.”
Heidi lay her head on my chest and I could tell by her change in breathing that she fell asleep a short time later. As for me, I laid there for hours, unable to sleep and unable to stop thinking about what would come next.
At some point in the morning before the sun came up I was able to drift off to sleep. But not for long.
I was awakened by the sensation of lips on my cock, and when I looked down I could see that Heidi had me balls deep in her mouth between those luscious lips. She sensed that I was awake and looked up into my eyes and I could see a smile appear on her lips and in her eyes.
Heidi drained every drop from me with her mouth and swallowed it all down. She then got dressed and left me with another sensuous kiss before she was out the door.
I wasn’t sure what to expect after our incredible night together and with classes and work all day I did not have any contact with Heidi. I was exhausted and went to sleep early that evening not sure where our relationship stood or what the future would hold.
I woke the following morning to a warm bodied Heidi joining me in bed and we spent several hours pleasuring each other and expressing our passions with our bodies. It was heaven.
I did not bring up Dan or their home situation again and we fell into our old routine of hanging out whenever we had free time, with the added benefit of fucking like rabbits once or twice a day.
Things went on like this for a few months, but Heidi never again stayed overnight at my house. She always left me with a smile on my face and sadness in my heart, returning home to Dan every night.
I guess I hoped that eventually Heidi would see that life with me alone was what she wanted, but alas, it was not to be.
One evening after our session of lovemaking, Heidi told me that Dan had found a job in Florida and that they were moving there in a couple of weeks.
I was destroyed and asked her not to leave. But she told me that she did not have a choice. She needed to leave.
And after a couple more weeks of passion together, leave she did.
About two months passed since Heidi moved to Florida and we had had no contact with each other. I arrived home from work one evening to find Tanya parked in my driveway. She told me to hop in her car because she wanted to talk, and we drove off to a pub where Heidi and I had spent so many wonderful evenings.
After we had settled down at a table with our drinks Tanya relayed that Heidi had asked her to talk to me and explain her situation once and for all.
Tanya went on to explain that as a freshman in high school Dan had gotten Heidi pregnant and that being young and poor and without much support at home, she had agreed to let Dan’s parents adopt their baby daughter. Heidi was in love with her baby girl and promised herself that she would never leave her side. Heidi was forever linked to Dan and his parents if she wanted to remain an active part of her daughter’s life. Heidi agonized over her decision and her life with Dan for years, but she could not leave her daughter to live her own preferred life. Dan’s parents had retired to Florida and Dan went with them. Heidi went too.
Tanya ensured me that Heidi did truly love me and that she wanted to tell me the truth about her past, but was afraid that she would lose me once I knew the truth. So she let me go and went away to make the best with her life that she could.
Well, this certainly explained a lot, but it did not ease the heartbreak that I felt inside. I kept in contact with Tonya and she would update me now and then on how Heidi was doing, but I never had any further direct contact with Heidi.
A few years later, I received a Facebook friend request from Heidi and we chatted online several times. She and Dan had another child together, a boy. But Dan, being the piece of shit that he was, never married Heidi and eventually left her and their son and move off to God knows where. Heidi stayed close to Dan’s parents so that she could continue to be a part of her daughter’s life, and was finally making a life of her own.
Eventually we stopped writing to each other and I haven’t had contact with her for years. But I still think back on our time together with both happiness and sadness over what could have been with my friend turned lover.