Reconciling with [m]y cute little heterochromatic girl[f]riend after breaking up

I never expected my [first story](https://www.reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/d21s6j/fucking_and_falling_in_love_with_the_cute_little) to get as popular as it was. I apologize for the many spelling and grammatical errors, I should have definitely proofread it and I definitely rushed it out. Thanks for the support and praise, hope you enjoy this as much as you did the first.

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July 2019,

By this point Kai and I have been dating for approximately four months. Kai has been such a sweet friend and lover and I cherish every second spent with her. Our first four months spent together were some of the best times of my life. We both were deeply in love with each other, spending plenty of time together. We never had any big disagreements or arguments even back when we were friends and it was like that for a while. Unfortunately, relationships are always unpredictable.

It seemed like things started to slowly deteriorate after Independence Day. It was almost as if our love for each other was slowly turning off. We both became distant over a period of two weeks and it was mostly spurred by my depression acting up again. I would talk it over would Kai given how sweet and supportive she is but I still didn’t want to burden her with my problems though. I didn’t want to weigh her down or put her under any sort of stress because of me. Because of this I had inadvertently put immense stress on our relationship as a whole. I was basically self sabotaging myself because life felt too good to be real and I wasn’t ready for it. I wasn’t ready to accept that my life was finally changing for the better after years and years of trauma and unrest. I felt like Brooks from Shawshank Redemption, I didn’t know how to live life after everything. I don’t want to get into too much detail of my past traumas but let’s just say it still effects me to this very day.

One day I’m secluded myself in my apartment laying on my couch when I get a text from Kai. “We need to talk, now.” It read.

I reluctantly reply back with, “okay” and wait for her to come up. I know what’s going to happen and my stomach was in knots.

My heart beats heavy as I wait for her to knock at my door, I knew it was coming yet it still startled me. I take a deep breath in before I bring myself to anwser the door. I open it to her cross armed looking both worried, frustrated, and emotionally exhausted. “Can I come it?” Kai says as I motion her inside.

We sit down on the couch besides each other. “OP…”

“Yeah?”

“I don’t think this is working out.”

I suck my tears back in my eyes and anwser her. “I know, I’ve failed you.”

There was a silence between us until Kai says, “Don’t say it like that.”

“Well how else am I supposed to word it then?” I say as I hang my head in my own shame.

“I don’t know.”

“What is it then?”

“You’ve just been absent so much lately.”

“I know.”

“Why is it?”

I sit there in silence as I start to crumble inside. “I feel like I don’t deserve you that’s all.”

“OP…” Kai says with a more saddened tone.

“You’re too good for me that’s all. I don’t know what the fuck you saw in me okay.”

Kai starts to tear up. “Babe, I know you’re struggling with your past but why are you letting seep into your life now?

“I don’t know. I was years ago but feels like yesterday.” I say as tears pool in my eyes.

“Do you feel like you’re not mentally there for a relationship right now?”

I start to water up too as I see a tear streak down her cheek. “I don’t know Kai… I don’t know.”

Kai wipes away tears from her eyes before she can form a response. “So this is the end?”

The silence between her question and my answer felt like hours. “Yes… I guess this is it…”

We sit there looking at each other with tears rolling down our faces before Kai gets up and walks out without saying another word. I sit there in solitude and quietness for the rest of the day. I didn’t do anything for the rest if the day. The last half of that day I spent laying in bed softly crying to myself about how much I fucked up this picture perfect relationship I had with Kai. She became my other half and I would never hurt her intentionally, but I feel like I ripped her to shreds these last few weeks. I felt like I messed it all up with the only woman I ever allowed myself to truly love and I squandered it all because of my own stupid bullshit.

I stayed hidden in my apartment for the next three or four days barely coming out only to snag my grubhub order. I finally ventured out to get my mail on the ground level one day when I happened upon Kai’s roommate Elli getting her mail too. She looks up at me with a half disgust half disappointed look on her face, I knew Kai made me out into a villian and I deserved it. “Hey.” I say in a hesitant groan.

“Hi…”

I open up my mailbox as she turns away from me before turning back around. “Can I ask you something OP?”

“What?”

Elli is trying to find the right words to say to me and I could tell on her face. “Do you still love Kai?”

That question hit me like a truck. I started thinking off all the fantastic memories I made with her since she came into my life that I’ve been trying to block out over the last few days. I remembered how much we loved each other, how much we treasured each other, how we both cherished ever second spent with her and how she made my heart sing like no else one could. Everything good she made me feel hit me like a cinder block tsunami and I couldn’t be in more regret at how things ended between us. I tear seeps out of one of me eyes and my knees start to weaken a bit. “Elli you have no idea.” I say as I get my mail and scamper off before I start to bawl.

I run back up to my apartment and lock the door behind me shutting myself in for most of the day again. I wanted to call Kai and make up but I don’t think she wants to hear from me. I finally showered for once and plopped myself back down on my couch. I pull up YouTube on my PS4 and start watching a couple videos when I hear my phone ringing. I look down to see the caller ID to see it was Kai. I was going to delete her contact but I wasn’t ready to let her go just yet. I take a deep breath in and anwser. “Hello?”

I hear a sniffle on the other end of the phone. “OP?”

“Yeah.”

“Can I ask you something OP?”

“Sure.”

“Do…… do you still love me?”

I start to tear up as I tried to say yes but it was as if something was stifling me. I had a mouth but I couldn’t scream. “You still there?” Kai said to me.

“I still love you Kai.”

I hear Kai sniffling more on the other end. “I know… I still love you too.”

More tears flow from my eyes at this point and I knew I had to lay it all out for her. “I’m sorry for pushing you away baby, I’m so sorry.” I windshield wiper away the tears from my eyes. “I couldn’t accept life was better and I’m stupid for trying to push you away Kai. I didn’t want to hurt you but I wound up doing so and I’m so sorry for that.”

“I understand OP, I always understood. I’m sorry for leaving you like this.”

“Don’t be, I felt like I was burdening you with my depression.”

“You were never a burden OP.”

“I’m sorry for not communicating this better Kai.”

“Stop saying you’re sorry, I understand.”

I’m practically a sobbing mess trying to spit out words at this point until Kai pipes up and says in her most loving tone, “Don’t cry anymore babe, please don’t.”

“I can’t help myself, you mean so much to me and I couldn’t let you go like this.”

“Me neither.”

“I love you OP.”

“I love you too Kai.”

“Can I come up to your place right now?”

“Please!”

We both hang up and I hastily tidy my place up so it doesn’t seem like such a depressing shitbox. I put on a newer pair of pants just as there was a knock at my door. Without hesitation I open it to be greeted by Kai wearing a tight white tshirt and dark navy blue denim shorts. I stare deeply into her unforgettable eyes that were almost as colorful as her overall being. Time halts for a bit as we stare into each others souls before we embrace each other kissing one another wildly. I close the door and swing us both onto the couch, our hands running along our bodies. I squeeze her close to me and pull away for a second to say, “I love you Kai”

“I love you too”

We kiss some more before Kai straddles my lap as I slip my hands under her shirt. I hold her close to me as I place a series if soft kisses on her neck, each kiss driving Kai further and further up the wall. Kai slowly lifts up her shirt revealing her gorgeous pair of tits held back by a light blue bra. I practically tore off her bra as I started sucking on her nipples which was something I knew Kai absolutely loved. It thrills me to see it when she melts under the pleasure, I just loved making her happy like this. “I missed your kisses so much.” Kai seductively huffs out.

I give her tit a light nibble before looking back up at her mesmerizing eyes and give her a deep kiss on lips. I hold her tight to me as she starts trying to slip off her shorts. Kai bucks off me and strips off what little clothing she had left as I undo my pants as well. I kick off my shorts as Kai pins me back against the couch grinding on my growing erection as I kiss her repeatedly. Kai starts to jerk me off as I get harder and harder as she readies herself for the dicking of a life time. She guides the head of my shaft inside her as we lock eyes again as I slip my arms around her as slam her down on my cock. Kai yelps as my cock is forced inside her. I lift her back up and slam her down on me in a slow rhythmic fashion as Kai gets more heated. “Fuck me as hard you as can baby.” She says in the softest and sexiest way possible.

I tighten my arms around her and start to fuck as hard as I humanly could. She started to slosh against me and she was getting wetter and wilder as time passed on. She’s gleefully being bounced up and down off my cock like a ‘test your strength’ carnival game as her moans get louder and louder. I lift her off me and carry her over to my bed with ease. I lay Kai down gently as we start to passionately kiss one another while I fingered her clit. I used my index finger to fiddle around with her joyspot to really send her over the edge. “Right there baby! *gasps* holySHITholySHITSHITshiiiit” she said through clinched teeth.

I insert my fingers in her and start vigorously pumping her pussy as I stare deep into her eyes. “Squirt for me baby, come on baby you can do this.” I grunt to Kai who is awash with pleasure.

She starts to splash against my fingers as I pump harder and harder extracting every last drop from her, I didn’t care about the soaked sheets one bit. Kai looks back up at me as I finish up. She grabs my hands and pulls it towards her as she licks my fingers clean. “Like the taste?” I ask.

“I do”

I pull Kai by her legs towards myself and shove my raging hard cock back inside her saturated slit. I fuck her as hard as I could effortlessly bouncing her 5′ frame off myself over and over again. Kai arches her back and buries my sheets over her face to muffle her sweet sexy noises. Kai pants more and more before she says, “Let me suck your fucking cock OP, PLEASE let me suck your cock!”

I pull out of her and lay down in the bed and straddles me once more. She takes my cock and puts on the performance of a lifetime. I grab the back if her head as she continues to work me good as she tries to take the entirety of my member down her throat. She worked me for few more minutes before I motion for her to let off and hop back on my cock. She decides to ride me reverse cowgirl as she gets into position. Kai slams down onto my cock with her moaning and screaming filling the room. I wanted to make this fuck session last for as long as possible for her. She started to leak a bit of fluid onto my shaft so I buck her off me and position her on her back. I kneel beside her and fingerfuck her some more causing more of her sweet juices to gush from her once more. Kai starts to wank my shaft trying to get me to cum on her tits but I take her hands off it. “Not yet babe, not yet.” I hush to her as I slip my soaked fingers out of her.

I flip Kai on her stomach and prop her plump little ass up to fuck her from behind. I insert myself inside her and grab onto her asscheeks for support as I begin to muster every ounce of energy I have to give her the ride of a lifetime. With Kai’s face buried in the sheets she continues to wail and moan as my shaft pounds deep inside her. After a few minutes I flip her back over on her back as I can feel myself getting ready to cum.

I slowly and rhythmically thrust inside her as my face looms over Kai’s. We’re dead locked in each other’s eyes. “I love you OP.” Kai whimpers out.

“I love you Kai.” I respond with before we engaging in some passionate french kisses I slowly cum inside her.

I pull out and lay with Kai in a spooning position on the bed. I plant a little peck on her cheek before I tighten my grip around her waist whispering to her over and over how much I loved her. After a good ten minutes we clean ourselves off and go get some food. Kai decided the spend the night with me where we had another long deep talk about our relationship and how we could better it from this point forward. We fell asleep on the couch that night and woke up the next morning happier then ever that we had fallen in love all over again. Before Kai left to go do some homework for summer classes I gave her a big hug and a kiss before she walked out my front door.

That week was the worst and best one of my life. I’m still a touch angry at myself for how I hurt Kai with what I did but we’ve renewed our relationship since and love each othe now more than ever. It’s been 6 months since my original story took place where we first started dating and now we look back upon that July hiccup with great self-reflection. We’ve learned to trust each more and we’ve benefited from it. In an odd way, us breaking up strengthened our love for each other in the long run.

I love Kai now more than ever, I almost lost her once and I’m sure as hell not going to do it again.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/d8b30w/reconciling_with_my_cute_little_heterochromatic