[MF] Degraded and in love

It’s all my fault and I know it. I am a 19F, chubby, big boobs, I keep myself attractive and I trim or shave below. I have been with Ken now for 2 months, he is a 23M and I let him do anything sexually he wants. I will do it if he wants it. I even let him, very painfully, give me anal sex. He does that a lot now. He is beautiful, rugged, muscled, 6ft. 2in, with a perfect body, and a very big cock. This weekend at his place, I was naked the whole time, he would dress during the day, but he didn’t let me dress. He tied me to the bed, and used me, it was exciting in a way, I didn’t mind. He came many many times during the weekend, in and on me everywhere.

He wrote things on me, things that were showing all weekend with me naked all the time. Even though he would go out he wanted me naked and “available” to him whenever he wanted. I was liking it. I was doing whatever he wanted. I was there for him, and him only. I consented to his writing on me, asking if that was what he really thought of me and he assured me it wasn’t, it was just exciting for him. To be honest, I liked it too at the time.

He wrote: “Dirty, fat fuck pig whore” on my chest, and down my belly he wrote “Ken’s slut”. He wrote “cumdump cunt” above my pussy lips, and on my ass wrote “three hole whore, fuck me here” with an arrow to my butthole. He outlined my areola on my boobs in black, and used red to color them and my nipples. All writing was in sharpie markers. I let him use me for his pleasure, and kept telling him that I loved him and that this was what I want, to please him, to use my body to give him pleasure.

I came back home, and immediately was afraid that someone, my sister or my mother, or dad would see the writing. I looked in the mirror naked with the door locked and I feel so bad. I feel that I was so desperate that I let a guy do this to me. I encouraged a guy to use my body to pleasure himself. I was literally just a place for him to cum. My mouth, my ass, my pussy, my boobs, my face, my buttcheeks, even my feet were all just for him to please himself. I am so disgusted with myself now. I see the writing and after two showers it’s still not gone.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/12hue94/mf_degraded_and_in_love