How I [F]20 lost my virginity a month ago <3

Hey Reddit (: I’ve been trying to post this for a while, I hope it works now lol

Why was I a virgin? Years and years of depression (… and more) and a whole lot of insecurities. The last time I had had a libido was when I was 14 but I started Lexapro last November and it’s definitely no coincidence this has been the best year of my life ☺️. And this event just added to it… <3 + I didn’t wanna push it either? Like, I wanted to have it with the right person. Which… Might sound a bit weird in this context cause this guy I’m talking about I only met for the first time that very day HAHAH. The thing is… He looks like a more handsome version of my crush from school, even my sister said so without me asking or anything. He was genuinely the only reason I went to school back then so I was quite surprised to say the least HAHAH. We were meeting up pretty spontaneously and met on Hinge just a day before (I hate texting for too long or anything like that). But I digged his vibe and I did irl, too. Hehe.

Despite being a virgin, I’m pretty kinky. I’m super into dp, outdoors fucking, cnc, being tied up, anal etc etc. Oh, also exhibitionism which is why I like sharing this story, lol. I genuinely just wanna be a sex toy to my boyfriend when I comes to that part of a relationship and I want him to appreciate and praise me for being his little doll in return. When I’m horny, you can tell and I’ll do anything to satisfy you.
I’ve sucked two dicks before, both times I regretted it cause I really just did it for the sake of not being a sexual loser🤷🏻‍♀️. I don’t recommend it.

I’m not ugly either, pretty much the opposite without sounding arrogant. And my antidepressant has helped me realised that, too☺️. I dress alternatively in a chique goth style and wear dark make-up. My hair’s dyed black and my eyes are blue. I’m 5’2 at 105lbs with a nice little booty and slight abs (; .

Anyways….. (: Here’s the message I sent to my friends:

Ok where do I start lemme think hahaha
Well while we were watching the movie he was already being cuddly but like not in a way that makes me uncomfortable, it was just really chill and cozy which was such a good sign☺️:3

Soo when we went to bed and watched some interrogation video to fall asleep to (btw it kept running for like 80% of the whole thing HAHAH) I genuinely couldn’t fall asleep before I’d kissed him like the urge was so strong HAHAH so I didd (he’s a good kisser btw) and he was into it right away. At first he was being gentle and shit but then he started stroking my body and grabbing my tits and I was like “idk if this is a good idea” but I then again it felt right and good so I touched his dick out of pure curiosity while it was still in his pants (like underwear) and I was like oh shit😭 like it being so huge turned me on big time and he was like “you can’t tease me like this come on (;” (I love being a tease) and so he got it out and I took my shirt of and sat on his lap grinding my pussy against his dick (I was wearing my pajama leggings still). All this while he was sucking, grabbing and kissing my tits.

Then I started giving him a BJ and like it was real hard at first cause his dick is so big like I really had to pay attention to my teeth HAHAH n that was also when I asked him what his body count was to which he replied 5 wbu and I was like uhh 0 and he said “Wait for real? You’re a virgin?” And you could tell it turned him on so much even moreeee ugh and then he even said “well you’re pretty good at this for a virgin” LMAO
Anyways, it was so hot seeing him enjoying it (closing and rolling his eyes, moaning a bit and shittt). Needless to say, he also held my head and fucked it here and there 💅🏻

Literally his body is so hot too, he’s 6’1 and semi-muscular/semi-skinny like EXACTLY the body type I’m attracted tooo

He then asked if I wanted head too and I was like I’m not sure I’m feeling it plus I’m not shaved, I prefer fingering to which he replied idc about you being shaved but either way it’s fine so he started rubbing my pussy and clit while I was still wearing my pants and they were like soaking wet at this point😩. After a couple minutes I took them off and he fingered me but like actually going in instead of concentrating on my clit and that definitely was really intense and hot but I said just focus on my clit for now pls haha and he wasn’t as experienced with that but I lead his hand and fingers and it was really hot

But after a while I said I’m gonna do it myself (which was hard enough since we were so excited) so while I did, he paid attention to my tits again but like justttt right, grabbing them hard and sucking/carefully biting them and my nips the way I love
Before that, I said: “You wanna see something?” and got my butt plug and put it in real slow and asked him if he was into anal to which he replied sure, he just hadn’t tried it yet (has the chance to now that we’re kinda dating (; )
I was fingering myself while we were making out and he kept moving the butt plug/sliding it in-and out of my ass
And each time he noticed me ~ lubricate ~ he spat on my pussy to help which was really hot too oof and obviously it took a while for me to cum but when I did it was so hot and I even squirted (which I usually do after I cum for the second or so time)😻. He thought it was soo hot, especially since I moan quite a bit too yk

After that I gave him head again but he literally just couldn’t cum and he said you’ve done enough (xxvsgshsa) chill for a bit and I’ll finish myself off. But then I told him I wanted him to tower above me and cum on my tits while I was laying on my back, like, I’m just really into that.
He grabbed me and placed me underneath him with ease😩 (like I said, he’s 6’1 whereas I’m almost a whole foot shorter at 5’2). Every couple minutes I went back to sucking his dick but he still wasn’t able to cum so we went back to making out for a bit and while he was kissing my neck he was like “I wanna fuck you so hard right now” like HOW do i resist thattt so I was just like yk what fuck it.

When he tried putting it in, I was too tight/tense I guess (keep in mind it had been a while since I came so I was less wet than before I did) but then he fingered me again for a bit and it loosened me up. Then he put it in reaaaal slow but he kept having to spit in my pussy again so it would feel good for me. With my cnc king, I still enjoyed this moment and the pain cause he’s this tall dude trying to fuck me, a virgin, with his huge cock and I couldn’t do nothing but express my pain and ughhh the eye contact during those moment dudee… I did push him back a couple times but after a couple slow strokes he was like “This should be fine now (;” and just started stroking me harder which was soo hot fuck like I enjoyed the pain during all that fr and it was soo intense, like, I could feel his dick in my whole body I swearrrr😩. We were kissing each others necks still (I have the most godless hickey from that💀) and I was moaning from the intensity and painnn. That part only lasted like 8min or something, he really just needed to fuck me to cum hehe, and then he came on my chest (the following time, I made him cum inside me😤).

All that together probably lasted 1½hours and I really enjoyed it and then we fell asleep cuddling (neither of us could sleep tho hahah).

The end✨

Ps. We’re officially dating now <3

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/10p61x5/how_i_f20_lost_my_virginity_a_month_ago_3