[FM] My experience shooting porn as (mostly) an amateur looking to scratch an exhibitionist itch

I wrote this immediately after shooting the video, but it was before I had actually seen the footage, so this writing is as best as I remembered it at the time, it is not a “novelization”. Meaning, all the events are all true, but I am sure I mixed up the order of events at some points.

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**Preface**

Last year I saw an ad for a website that connects porn producers and performers. I had never done anything on film, or done anything ‘professionally’, but having a strong exhibitionist streak, I decided to check it out. One ad especially caught my eye, a local producer looking to shoot happy ending massage videos, which happen to be one of my favorite categories of porn. I love the moment the massage turns sexual, and the reveal of a hard cock. I also love porn where one person’s pleasure is the center of attention, I love the clinicalness, the transactionality. After watching a few of his videos and liking what I saw (good lighting, great cock), I worked up the courage to email him. It was a bit of a surreal experience, like writing a cover letter to give a handjob. I bragged about my abilities. I have been told I am quite skilled, and even quoted a friend who called me the “handjob queen”.

I ended up shooting three videos with him, two where I was the masseuse, one where I was the recipient. The first video I was a nervous wreck, but as long as you focused on my hands it wasn’t too obvious! The two videos that followed were much more relaxed, and much more erotic. My husband loved the videos, and I loved how much sexual energy they injected into our lives. A while went by, and I reached back out to the producer to see if he wanted to shoot again. This time, we agreed to a trade arrangement. We would both have rights to the videos, and I would be able to direct the scenes a bit more. We planned to shoot two videos in one afternoon, one where I was fucked by my fucking machine, and an erotic massage that would be much more intimate than any of the previous ones.

I had not been able to orgasm in the one previous video I did as a recipient, and my husband really wanted me to cross that threshold for these upcoming videos. So, under lock and key I went. I have a pretty high sex drive, and I usually have sex and masturbate every day. To keep me pent up, he put me in chastity a few days before the event. Not only would I be prevented from masturbating, but the belt usually draws all my attention to this fact, so I am thinking about it constantly. To frustrate me even more, I was still expected to get him off with handjobs and blowjobs during my period of chastity. I was a mess!

**Day of the shoot**

By the time I arrived at the studio, I was already pretty excited. I put together the fucking machine while he set up the lights and camera. As we set up, we discussed exactly how the first scene would go down. I detailed how I wanted things framed, he would kneel behind me while I was on my back. He would be controlling the fucking machine, slowly bringing it up to full power (which I can’t always handle, so this would be a challenge!). At some point I would grab for his crotch, I emphasized I should be the one to initiate. We realized it would be easier for him to be the one to actually unzip his pants and remove his cock, as I would be a little preoccupied! He asked if he should be touching me as part of this scene, to which I gave my enthusiastic consent. I added that he was more than welcome to put his hands around my neck.

The setup had two cameras. The first camera, which was somewhat overhead, was pointed at my whole body and would capture my face. The second camera was lower and pointed right between my legs, getting a closeup of the penetration. I got the fucking machine angled correctly and warmed myself up with a toy for a few minutes, making sure I’d be able to take the full length. The toy went in without any issues, I was very much ready for it!

**First video**

He started the cameras and then stepped over me to get into position. I scooted myself into place, impaling myself on the purple phallus. Once I was ready, he turned on the machine and it started to slowly push in and out of me. I was instantly moaning, I was so hungry for it. His hands roamed over my body, stroking my bare arms and grabbing my thighs. The speed increased and my moans and whimpering became louder. A hand snaked its way under the cup of my lingerie and gently squeezed my breast. My first orgasm waved its way through my body (much sooner than I expected!), my loud moaning suddenly silenced while my body tensed up around the cock forcing its way in and out of me. The fucking was intense, but I could tell we still had many levels of intensity to build up to.

I placed one of my hands against his side, brushing down to his crotch, until I was grabbing at his hard cock through his pants. I let my hand wander and explore around his thighs and crotch, until he began unbuttoning and zipping his jeans. He pulled down his underwear and his hard cock popped out, bouncing above my stomach, and my hand was instantly on it. My fist didn’t even cover half his length. He increased the speed of the fucking machine, until I was nearly overwhelmed with sexual intensity. I pulled back his foreskin so the bulbous head of his cock was fully exposed, and I began slowly stroking his thick shaft. After a few strokes, I spit into my free hand and began fondling the swollen head of his cock, my hands now working together. We seemed to be at full intensity now, the fucking machine forcing another orgasm out of me as his hands continued to grab at me.

Much sooner than I expected, he pulled up the waistband of his underwear and put his cock back inside. I found myself protesting with little hungry, desperate sounds as my pleading eyes moved between his crotch and face. The fucking continued at a high level of intensity and his hands moved across my body and gently squeezed my neck. I moaned and squirmed with a mixture of utter delight and desperate frustration. My eyes once again darted between his face and crotch, where the outline of his hard cock was clearly visible. The fucking machine began to slow, and I wondered if he was simply giving me a chance to catch my breath. After a gradual tapering down, it was clear the scene was wrapping up. He got up to turn off the cameras and I was a puddle of giggles on the floor. I was floating sky high, but my body ached for more.

**Second video**

I spent some time sitting on the floor gathering myself and sipping on water while he moved the lights to a large bed for the second scene. We again discussed how this was going to go. I was going to get massaged for a while, and then it would turn into mutual touches as we both tried to get the other off. Once again I said I wanted to be grabbing at his crotch and signaling to him to take it out. As he finalized the position of the lights, he explained that he had also been denying himself the last couple days, and I would need to start slowly and gently with him otherwise he would be cumming in the first few seconds of me touching him. He changed out of his street clothes into a white robe, and then we got onto the bed and tested some of the positions.

Setup for this shot was a lot easier, and soon we were ready to film. I began on my stomach, with him kneeling at my side, similar to the previous video. He got a small amount of oil on his hands (which conveniently had been placed in full blast of the nearby heater) and I was instantly moaning when the warm oil touched my skin. His hand started to gently, lightly glide across my body as he distributed the oil. His hand became more firm and grabbed at me here and there. Having been so worked up by the previous scene my body was starving for more. Eventually he threw one leg over me and straddled me, continuing to massage me. The weight of his body gently resting on my back felt heavenly and so sexy. He scooted down slightly as he finished my upper back and worked his way down. The hem of his robe brushed against me between my ass cheeks and the light, unintentional sensation sent electricity up through my body. His hands on my ass felt so good, much more like being grabbed by a hungry, aroused lover than being treated by a professional massage therapist.

He continued to work his way down, and turned his focus to my thighs. He was stroking my inner thighs, starting slightly above my knee and moving up, each time his hands would get just a little close to my pussy, but not quite making contact. I pushed my hips up and wiggled my ass, trying to signal that I wanted more, but he continued to tease me. After a bit of this, the side of his knuckle just barely grazed past my left labia, and the brief, gentle sensation had me overwhelmingly, desperately horny. There was some more teasing until he finally began stroking and fondling my pussy, as I moaned in delight. I was so worked up. He leaned forward, one hand grabbing the back of my neck and in this new position he was in I could feel his hard bulge pressing against my back. Fuck.

After he had been touching me for a little while, he gently tapped my ass to signal I should flip over, and I did. Things get a little fuzzy from here, as I was lost in the experience. He grabbed and squeezed my breasts before moving back down between my legs. Soon he was straddling me, and I grabbed at his crotch through the robe, rubbing the hard bulge. Desperate moans escaped my lips. He opened his robe, pulled down his underwear and once again his huge cock was set free. He dribbled a line of massage oil down the length of his cock and I quickly had both of my hands on him. He was roughly above my belly button, so in this position I was able to stroke his cock, while he had one hand either gently choking me or grabbing my breasts while his other hand reached behind him and played with my clit. I squirmed under him with excitement.

I was stroking him as gently as I could, wanting to drag this out. One hand glided up and down his length while the other circled his head. He moved lower down my body and soon began spreading my legs with a knee; the move delighted me. He was then between my thighs, forcing my knees apart. His cock loomed over me, just inches from my pussy. The visual of his long, thick cock primed and ready between my thighs had excitement rushing through me. I continued to stroke him, still very gently but gradually increasing the intensity. My eyes moved between his cock and his face, looking for any signal that he was getting close. His face changed and I became more and more electrified. He continued pleasuring me as my arousal began to build into an orgasm. The peak hit me and I’m sure he could tell I was cumming.

His mouth opened, his brow raised, and he let out something between and moan and a sigh. I took the cue and began stroking him with more intensity, focusing my efforts on his thick shaft. Soon the cum was dribbling out of him. I continued to stroke through his orgasm as cum formed a small puddle between my belly button and breasts. My hands slowed to the lightest of touches as my pounding heart settled.

“And scene!”

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/1063izk/fm_my_experience_shooting_porn_as_mostly_an