Hello my name is Blake(not really). This will probably be a long one so Grab a drink and popcorn. Any and all advice is appreciated, this is a wild time in my life that could lead to things I’ve never expected in my sexual life ever. Enjoy your stay:)
Backstory
I believe myself to be a straight male. True and true love women and are extremely attracted to most women. I’d say 99% of men are not attractive to me, while 99% of women are attractive to me idk if it’s like that for most straight men or what but just how I feel. Not many ugly women on this globe. I am a ,very for lack of a better term, an extremely horny male. I almost adapt to whatever my partner is into because it works for her and I might just be a pleaser. Or maybe I can try anything once. A couple exes ago I proposed for me to do anal to her and she responded only if she can back to me. Me being me I said sounds like a deal. Her being stunned couldn’t wait to try it. Which was probably the healthiest bedroom experience and most pleased I’ve been. Never did anything crazy besides a butt plug or some finger play during sex. Never pegged or anything close to. This experience is the root of this whole story. Since then I have been somewhat addicted to butt play to the point where I have multiple toys including prostate massagers, butt plugs and within the last couple months my favorite toy a dildo. Way more than most straight males have especially since I’ve never bothered with getting a flesh light or any stroking assistance.
Long time friend from long ago, his name is Tony(also not really). We worked together for a bit then faded away. Dated one of his female best friends then once that relationship faded his did as well. Well Tony happens to be super mega gay. Like the kinda gay that looks at a straight man and try’s to find the gay inside him. Knowing he’s straight. Well he’s always semi flirted with me. I never really cared just more of a confidence boost than an option to ever be considered. And by compliments like I’m talking complimenting my body ,my looks, my personality. Nothing against females but I tend to rarely get those compliments from women especially ones I haven’t started a sexual relationship with. (Guys need more compliments ladies we beg)
Juice
Over the last couple months I’ve been thinking of messaging him just to reach out for no “real reason.” Then I get a text from him. Anthony reached out. We start catching up and then he tries flirting for the first and most aggressive time in a couple years. First he admits I’ve been his crush for years which I’ve semi known for a good amount of time through the ex telling me. I kinda play into it if I’m being honest. He said I had a “a nice personality and a big cock.” I ask if he’s seen it? He says no just heard good stories and his imagination gets the best of him sometimes. He playfully asks for a nude from me. This is a point of the conversation where it can go a lot of different ways. Before here I have still maintained my straightness. But after the compliments, the couple years of anal play, the thoughts in my head since receiving the dildo if the real thing would be better. I tell him I’m fs not sending any nudes (lol) but I admit that I’m not against where this conversation is going. Believe my exact words were “I may be a little bi curious if we’re being 100% honest.” Like a tiger he bounces on that and attacks my straightness immediately. He pretty much begs for me to send my cock or accept a picture of his. Me not being comfortable with either happening tries to keep this conversation to words not pictures.
Quick interruption for backstory on Anthony. He lives about 5 hours away now and next opportunity to come home is for Christmas. So this convo will stay over the phone until he can get to me or I can get to him.
He asks me what bi curious means and why I’ve been considering this and I tell him. Being worked up from where the conversation has gone I tell him what I told you guys. The root of why he even got a text back from me being honest. I tell him my obsession with anal play pretty much the same way I described earlier. Which get him going crazy. I really do think I’m this guys biggest crush. He really has been trying at me for YEARS and seems crazy for me. We continue semi flirting just asking eachother questions me about his experience and my lack of. He asks what I want out of this.
I say truthfully “I’d like to continue talking with you like this and come Christmas we’ll see what happens.”
He tries to push it. Saying it’s easier if I were to start getting used to seeing his cock to get comfortable. I really am a little stunned by this even though I am turned on at the same time. I try to take it slow with the little control I have left. I ask him to hold his pictures due to me being so new to all of this and not wanting to be to committed to all of this in case feelings change overnight. If you can’t tell I’m mad nervous at this point. Then we start asking more questions. I ask him
“Hey so are tops and bottoms a real thing or does everyone just switch in and out. And if so which one do you lean towards.”
He tells me he’s a dominant bottom.
He asks me if that upsets me. If I’d like to experience both. And when he said that I realized I needed to. I wanted to try anything and everything. Going back to trying everything once.
The questions continue and we continue to learn more about eachother in a new world we’ve never breached before this day. He tells me he’d love to suck my cock while using a dildo on me. He then finally shoots a dick pic off which didn’t really do anything for me. He got a decent one I think mines a little bigger but good lil dick i guess.
Conversation from then on drifts off(think he came and I came back to reality(okay okay I came too you got me)) and we both realized how crazy this convo was. He had no clue I was 1% gay prior to talking to me today and I had no intentions of admitting that information to anyone. My ego and straightness has kept me from texting him again. Plus we got a couple months to figure out how I’m feeling about all this.Taking it slow. Not really sure what to do with all this but I can’t lie and say I’m not a bit excited for the future.
Final statements and questions
I guess the point of me posting this at all is to hear from you guys on where I should go from here. Also am I doing this right? I think I’m just trying to experiment as a late 20 year old. Because truly, when I think of it, or look at the picture he sent, I don’t get any arousal from a homosexual man. As a super horny male, I get aroused(hard) just picking up a toy to do anal play with. Or hearing one attractive statement from a female will do the same. I really do believe I’m not gay and could never be in a relationship with a man for anything more than sex. So advice on letting him know that? Dont want to hurt him he’s just a slutty gay man trying to find happiness.
If you made it this far I really want to thank you. I do plan on giving updates there will be breaks but I will return with more Juice soon. Any comments/questions I will be reading and answering. Also any advice might get tried out. Thanks! ;)
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/yi285s/mm_bicurious_texts_lead_to