[F] the only way I made friends in school was by giving Hjs

I was lonely girl with below average looks, so most of the time I just spent my days with the nerd/geek group which wasn’t my vibe but I didn’t wanna be alone , specially that my personality and looks didn’t attract others ..

Until one day one of the guys I was trying to open a conversation with , took me to a corner and told me to jerk him off while talking otherwise he will lose attention… I felt so weird and bad but I did it cause I really liked him and wanted him to like me back .. so I did until he came in my hands .. and it became our normal meeting . We talk with his dick in my hands and stop once he cums …

It went on for a while, until he started telling other boys that would just come and ask for the same.

They would fake interest in me , so I jerk them off , which once I did they ignored me after and just thought of other girls while I did it

I didn’t like doing it, I knew they were just using me to cum and never cared about me even a little but a part of me liked having some attention from those attractive guys.. and like it was either that or just sit with nerds.. so I did it and it gave me the reputation of the dumb unattractive girl that would jerk off guys for attention because she was desperate.

Which I was, and I was ashamed of it lol but I did it idk why. But it was the only sexual activity I got for a long while , and I would end up home imagining I was making love with the ones I crush on and masturbate and then feel shame for being pathetic

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/xpe8dz/f_the_only_way_i_made_friends_in_school_was_by