[FM] I (f34) cheated with my colleauge (m20)

Okay so I know I am a morally corrupt human being, and what I’ve done is wrong. I am not trying to justify it, but I also don’t regret it. I love this sub so I’ve decided to share with you because I am looking for sexual validation atm, when you read this you know why. But I warn you tis going to be a bit of a read, hopefully it will be worth it. I will mark the sexual stuff if you want dont want the backstory.

So who am I? Well for this story’s sake I’ll be Emily. I am a 34 year old woman, mother of 4 (last two are twins) and married. Back then I was what to be considered a very attractive woman, a genetic lottery winner. I was (still am supposed) very photogenic, I was also an athlete and even was a semi-professional, which gave me a very tight and fit body. A body I was very proud of and worked hard to achieve. My chest has always been on the larger side, but they were always pointy and firm.

When I was 24 me and my husband had our first child, a beautiful baby daughter, my body started to decline one could say. I got stretch marks, breastfeeding paid its due and when I had our last two children I felt like I was completely ruined. My body was so out of shape, twin pregnancies are also brutal. I had stretch marks everywhere, my skin was loose, my boobs got very soggy. I managed to lose all my pregnancy weight but my body was far from what it once was, it was no longer as tight or smooth as it once was and it took a big toll (still does) on me.

Yeah I know, it’s amazing what the body can do and be proud over your stripes yada yada, it’s one thing to say another thing to actually think about it, it’s much harder especially since women get judged by their looks every single day, everywhere. Even in professional settings, looks matter sadly.

I have always been a very sexual person, with a high sexdrive. Sex has always been something I enjoy, it gives me energy, self esteem and just general pleasure. Me and my husband used to have regular sex, 3-4 times a week. Its something we prioritsed and it helps me alot, go to long with out sex and I get frustrated. When the twins where younger we dropped sex to like 1-2 times a week and it was brutal.

So a couple of weeks ago when I was out shopping, a cashier looking to be in his early 20’s clearly looked me up and even asked me for my number. I showed him my wedding ring but I was really flattered. I felt a good feeling in my stomach and felt gitterish all day, until I came home. When I did come home we sort the kids and me and my husband went to bed and had sex. As we were done I told him about my encounter with the cashier and how I still got it in me. His reaction was not what I expected.

He laughed at me and said “well, yeah he saw your face. If he saw you naked with those marks and boobs he’d be singing a different tune”. I don’t think he meant to be mean but it was worse than a bitch slap to my face. I got cold and suddenly I felt more naked and exposed than I’ve ever felt with my husband.

I didn’t say anything in reply, I just went quiet and turned around and fell asleep quickly. The morning after I felt sick to my stomach. Everytime I looked at my husband I felt like a knife in my guts. I could not concentrate at work, my entire world had literally fallen apart by that comment. I knew my husband was not big on words of confirmation, but I never in a world would have guessed that’s what he truly felt and thought about me. I barley spoke to him that evening and then when I for the first time in forever told him I didnt want to have sex he asked me why. I told him about his comment yesterday and how it made me feel, and that I could not have sex with him when I knew he was disghusted with me. He tried to say that he was just being honest and that all women’s prime was before the age of 30, it’s just a natural progression. It shocked me even more, I didn’t know my husband had such misogynistic views.

We started a fight right there and then, it ended with him sleeping on the couch. I was truly devastated, I didn’t know what to think or do.

Now I suppose what happened would not have happened if it wasn’t for my husband’s comment, but it is what it is. Two days after what happened I was going away overnight to a conference with a colleague, but the day before she fell and broke her bone, which means she could not come. My boss told me if I could not bring “Jeff” with me as a replacement.

Let me tell you about Jeff. He is a fairly new recruit in my office, he started in March and he is 20 years old. My boss thought this would be a good way for him to get some work experience. Now Jeff is very young, he is a nice kid but very much a young buck who has a habit of putting his foot in his mouth. Often it’s harmless but sometimes annoying, to his credit he has always apologized, and he is always very helpful. He always shares about his sexual experiences with everyone, and in a way that you can tell most of it if not lies then romanticed truths.

In our office we have a small toilet next to our cofferoom, it’s literally wall to wall and you can hear pretty much anything being said in the cofferoom. I was sitting on the toilet doing toilet stuff and sorting my makeup, since I’ve been crying due to my situation with my husband when I heard Jeff and another co-work talk by our coffee machine.

“So you’re going to the conference with Emily” said the other co-worker and Jeff’s response kinda shocked me as well, because he didn’t hesitate or kept his voice down as he said “Hell yeah good opportunity and I’d be going with the hottest piece of ass in the office”! He said it in a genuinely excited voice. Normally I would just roll my eyes and maybe tell him that the walls are thin. But this time I felt excitement, and due to the situation I actually found myself smiling.

The rest of the day I kept glancing over at Jeff, thinking he was pretty cute after all. Still very young but I felt skittish like a schoolgirl. The situation at home didn’t not improve and when the taxi came to pick me up in the morning I didn’t even wake my husband up to say goodbye I literally just went out in the dark. I met Jeff at the airport and the conference went smoothly. We both learned and exchanged ideas. I asked Jeff if he wanted to have some food and a glass of wine before we went to bed, and he agreed. So we decided to meet up at our hotel bar.

We both had a good time. Jeff, despite his age, was a good conversationalist. He was funny and eager to learn from my work experience. After maybe two glasses of wine he said he was ready to hit the bed, but I stopped him before he went and asked if I could ask him something. He nodded and I told him I overheard him the other day and I asked if it was true. His face became a pure tomato. He started to say sorry and that he didnt mean for me to hear it etc. I just calmed him down, told him I was not angry, I just wanted to know if it was true.

He nodded and said yeah he thinks I am pretty hot, still apologizing. I don’t know why but I told him it did mean alot to me due to personal stuff, and then I spilled the beans about my husband and the situation at home. I kinda just ended it with something like “so yeah at least I am hot in your mind”. I could just see him shaking his head and he said that “your husband is an idiot, you are a top tier MILF, there is nothing hotter than a real woman”.

Agian his language kinda shocked me, and yeah normally I would have not botherd but the wine and situation just told to fuck it. “Well if you wanna find out how hot I am, join me for a glass of wine in my room” I told him. I could see his eyes go wide and he asked me if I was joking? I just shook my head and said my room number, and that if he wanted to come over he could. I could see him sitting there a bit confunded not knowing what to do.

I got into my elevator, wondering if I had overstepped, but I was horny and I wanted to feel desired, the way I thought my husband desired me. I made it to my room and sat down on my bed, I didn’t know what to do and I was just about to give up hope as I heard a knock on the door. My heart was racing as I went up and opened the door. He stood there a bit sheepish, and asked if he could come in. I didn’t say anything, just opened the door and let him in. I grabbed his hand and took him to my bed.

“Anything that happens here stays here okay? No bragging and no telling at the office or I swear I’ll end your career before its started okay” I said in a stern voice he just nodded and said “of course I swear”, I smiled at him then and said “good” as I leaned in and gave him a kiss. We were both sitting on the edge of my bed. He was a good kisser, just enough tongue and he tasted amazing. I put my hands around his neck and pulled him a bit closer as I felt his hand move towards my chest.

His hand gently unbuttoned my shirt and I could feel it slip in, underneath my bra grazing my nipple as we continued to kiss. I felt shivers down my spine as he groped my boob. I moved my hand down over his jeans and started feeling his crotch and I could feel his hard on. It made my feelings rush, I wanted to feel his dick so bad! I broke the kiss and finished unbutton my shirt and took off my bra. This was it as I took it off it looked like I plucked down the moon, the look of pure desire radiated from him, I could not help but smile at him as we started to kiss again.

I felt both his hands grabbing my boobs and squeezing them and I returned to feeling his crotch, but I was eager I wanted the real thing so I started unbuttoning his jeans, he helped me, and I could finally slip my hand in and feel his cock. It was so hard as I gently squeezed it, he gave away a moan. Again I broke the kiss and started pulling his pants down. He did not wait to help and he pulled both his jeans and boxers down in one.

He had a moderately sized cock, not the biggest nor the smallest. It looked just perfect as I got down on my knees in front of him. I grabbed it and pulled the foreskin down, it was dripping with precum and I could not wait so I gave it a lick from the bottom of the shaft up to the tip as I put it in my mouth. I could hear a “oh yesssss” from him as I started blowing him, I played with my tongue on the tip and I took him as deep as I could. Then I felt his hand grab my hair and gently push me down. He was not rough but firm, it was so hot I let it happen. He did made me gag a bit but not to much, he pushed just enough.

I lifted my head and asked him if he could come twice, and he just said “with those tits in front of me there is no limit” I giggled like a schoolgirl and then went back to his dick. I tried to go deeper and again I felt his hand push me and not too long I could hear a growl from him and a firm push as he came down my throat. I coughed a bit and then looked upon him with a smile. “Felt good” I asked him and he just nodded as he pulled me up and started kissing me again.

The make out started again passionately, we laid down across the bed. This time his hand moved down between my legs and he unbuttoned my pants and quite quickly moved his hand down to my pussy. I was so wet it was unreal, I wish I could tell you he was amazing with his fingers but not really, he was decent but he did manage to make me feel good at least. I lifted my butt and pulled down my trousers and panties. I am glad I decided to shave the other day so I was completely smooth.

As he was fingering me, making out I started to grab his half hard dick gently jerking up and hard-on, and it didn’t take much. At this point I just moaned in his mout “fuck me now”! He looked at me and asked about a condom, I just smirked and said I had my tubes tied, but it always hot when a guy asks for a condom. He stood up and positioned himself between my legs.

I was now lying down on my back across the bed and he was standing on the flood, I could see him eye me up and down, almost with fire in his eyes and he said “god dam you are so fucking hot”, and it almost made me blush. Then I felt his dick go up and down my slit untill he finally pushed into me, I moaned as I felt it filling me up it felt so good! He grabed my ankles and pushed them back as he started fucking me.

He started slow but he picked up speed and soon he was fucking me quite fast and deep, I moved my hand and started rubbing my clit, and he fucked me just the perfect pace as I felt my own orgasm build up and I came, so fucking hard it unreal I screamed and my leggs were shaking, “thats my good girl” he said, it sounds silly but at the moment it sounded so fucking hot!

When my orgasm subsided, he was panting and asked me if I wanted to go on top, which is my favorite position so I said sure, and we switched around him laying on his back as I straddled him. Then he said the most erotic thing I ever heard anyone say: “if only you could se your self as I see you now” as he grabbed my tits. Honestly at that moment I would have done anything for him. I started to ride him slowly now, more gently and slowly as he played with my tits smiling.

We did that for a while until his hands moved over to my bum cheeks, he pulled them apart and squeezed them. I wish I could tell you they are as firm as they once were but alas, Jeff seemed to like them. Then he did something unexpected. He moved his hand to my mouth and pushed in two fingers. I started sucking on them. He then pulled them out and moved back to my bum.

I could feel his fingers slide down my asscrack and gently push against my anus, I am no stranger to anal. Not a massive fan but I have it on occasion with my husband because he likes it. But now it thought it was really hot as I giggled and said “where are those fingers going”, he said he was sorry and pulled them out but I said “no no put it back in ” and I could feel his finger again being pushed into my ass. We found a rhythm he pushed in as I slid down on his dick, it was so hot, I leaned down and kissed him as we did this.

After a short while I asked him if he was into anal, his eyes agian went wide and he said he never tried it, so I asked if he wanted to. He nodded and just said “yeah I love to”. So I stood up and grabbed my back and took out a bottle of lube, I squirted a lot on his dick and made it really slippery, then I took a lot of lubed and smeared it all over my asshole. Then I went back and straddled him.

I put his dick towards my asshole and slowly started to lower myself. I hate that feeling of your o’ring widening but once that’s over it usually feels okay. As I slowly pushed his dick inside he just said “omg its so fucking tight, its so fucking thight” over and over again. When I had reached my limit about half his dick I was panting smiling at him. Then I started riding him again. Even more slowly this time but he seem to like it.

The sitatuion was more exciting than the anal, it felt okay but not that pleasurable but it was hot as fuck to see Jeff play with my boobs and experience anal for the first time, I took him even deeper in my ass as I got more used to it, untill he told me he was gonna cum. “Cum in my ass” I told him as I started to pick up the pace abit, and when I felt him twitch I pushed down as deep as I could, I could feel him come in my ass as he gave a big moan.

Leaning forward and giving him a kiss as I felt his dick slip out of my asshole, and I could feel the cum dripping down my asscrack. “thank you that was hot as fuck” he said, and I just smiled at him and told him to meet me in the shower. He was right behind me and we did spend a good time in the shower making out, and I gave him another blowjob. As he was close to cumming again I opened my mouth and stuck my tongue out and let him cum all over my face and in my mouth. It was not a massive load considering he had been cumming twice that night already. But he seemed to enjoy it nonetheless.

We went to bed together and he was the big spoon and it felt so good feeling his dick pushed against my ass while he squeezed my tits.. In the morning I could feel his morning wood, and asked him if he wanted to fuck me from behind before leaving, something he very much liked to do. I did however regret doing anal the day beore because when he pushed his thumb in my ass I felt it being a tad sore.

So the last couple of days since we came back we have been giving each other looks in the office but nothing else has happened. Things are still bad with my husband and I don’t know what to do about it. But yeah regardless this is my story. If you have questions or anything I am happy to answer them.

//Em

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/xca7ln/fm_i_f34_cheated_with_my_colleauge_m20

77 comments

  4. I’m sure you’re stunning, start an onlyfans and get your confidence back! Your husband forgot what he has and doesn’t deserve you to himself.

  8. That was a pretty nasty vindictive thing of your husband to say. You should probably have sex with a few more twenty something year olds to make sure you’re fully recovered. Self-care is essential for being a good mother X

  11. This was an incredible story. I’m with Jeff, real women are the best! I’m sure you are absolutely sexy. Jeff is a smart guy, definitely keep him around.

  12. 20 yrs ago, after several nights of making love to my wife and she consistently responded with little to no interest or care. Immediately after pleasuring her, I asked her what she was thinking of when we made love. Her immediate reply, “A bigger dick!”. I’ve had little to no confidence ever since.

    Now at 68, our children are on there own, I’ve always helped others, parents have been cared for and have now all passed, I’m retired and the issues that cause all the marriage stress and problems should be gone. Life hasn’t gotten any better with the wife and I realize what a fool I’ve been the biggest part of 46 years. She loves me, but she’s not in love with me. What hurts is, I’m still in love with her, but it’s fading. Unlike you, I didn’t test the water and I’m still lacking self confidence. You know you’re OK and still desirable. If you can be “in love” with each other, consider to try to make it with the stupid husband. If not, you at least know your still desirabe and changes can be made. Love and take care of your self.

    My plan is to care for myself, love myself, reverse some aging, and try to enjoy living.

  13. Husband is an ass.

    My wife is a bitch of the highest level (soon to be ex) but I’d never say something like that.

    Go fuck the toy boy and watch hubby squirm with his blue balls each night

  14. Thank you for sharing your story, for being vulnerable and for explaining the difficult dynamic that you’ve had to struggle with. You have our support in navigating out of it and getting back that confidence that you have been missing out on because of your husband’s truly insensitive behaviour.

    You write very well and it was titillating to read your inner thoughts and feelings throughout the night. It was intimate, heartfelt, and (ignoring morality for this subreddit’s context) well deserved. You seem like a passionate person that’s looking to be desired and pursued.

    It’s tough to share a story like yours but the silver lining is that it may mean you start to make moves to find personal balance. This isn’t an advice sub – but please consider posting to one to find some ways forward to more happiness for you and to limit the damage to all parties.

    Thank you again for sharing with us and for an intimate look into your experience. Wishing you the best ahead and looking forward to more of your writing!

  16. Lucky guy! I’m sure your body is perfectly curvy and very sexy. Would love to see you post a pic or two. We will all tell you how fine you are!

  20. I remember reading the bit with the husband a couple of weeks ago on another subreddit. That kinda escalated lol. I hope you felt a bit better though.

  21. I really feel for the difficult situation you’re going through. Hopefully you can stay with your husband and work things out…for the kids. Fights and divorce can really affect kids and they don’t deserve it

  22. First things first. I’m sorry for the comments your husband made. That sucks. There is no two-ways around it. Things like that are inexcusable. It also sucks that he didn’t realize how badly he hurt you. Hurt like that will only fester. I know this from experience.

    You didn’t ask for advice, but I’ll offer it unsolicited anyway. Don’t do anything further with Jeff until you’ve counted the cost. Not passing moral judgments or anything like that, but if you have a professional career, which you indicated, you could be putting that on the line along with your family. A further relationship with Jeff likely won’t result in a long-term relationship, which means the short-term relationship will end (duh, I know). You, being his superior at the office, could be put in a really really really tough spot if the fling ends badly. Most companies won’t hesitate to throw their employees under the bus to save themselves in any form of sexual harassment allegation. Again, no one at this point suggests Jeff would be anything but grateful to have experienced the hottest sex of his life with you, but this is where you have to think longer term and make sure you are ok with the ramifications if it goes side-ways.

    Finally, I’m sorry for the stuff your husband said. I know I led with this, but you need to hear it again. That sucked and you didn’t deserve it. You have given of yourself for your family, and you should never have been told that. Also, what your husband said wasn’t even true. Judging by Jeff’s response, you are hot as hell. Still, people say stupid shit and I’m sorry you bore the brunt of that.

    Hang in there. I hate what you’re going through. I know only to well how rejection from a spouse feels. I hope that your situation gets better sooner rather than later!

  23. Do you think it will become a regular thing with him? If he can be discreet, could be a useful and fun arrangement?

  24. sent you a very important DM. national security might be at stake.

    ok not really but read it when you can. my cock is ridiculously hard

  25. (Probably get downvoted for this)

    I think I saw your story on relationship advice

    so your husband is acting like a trashy person and you decided to do the same and be unfaithful to him… it seems that you deserve each other

    With that said start preparing for a divorce, and get some IC

  26. Listen, I am an honest man but I am not a moron who would hurt someone’s feelings especially the mother of my children. I find women that have experienced motherhood and so on more attractive because of those things she has been a provider for our children carried them with risk to her body to me thats fucking sexy. Maybe he is just an idiot who doesn’t know how to express that maybe not.

    However I am not gonna get into the cheating bit that’s on you and you have to deal with it. If you are willing to make it work then do it but have a serious discussion about how he made you feel whether he meant it that way or not your feelings are your feelings and he should respect them. I hope you get what you need!

    Also when is the next conference im looking at switching careers.

  27. Great story. I don’t totally believe you went on your work trip expecting or not wanting anything to happen if you brought lube, but either way your husband is a grade A asshole. I’m not a believer in shitting where you eat when it comes to affair partners, and I don’t know what type of work you do for a 20 year old intern to be traveling for a high project but you definitely deserve more than what your husband is giving you. Words matter and they can hurt, hopefully you all can figure it out. If not, then be honest with each other and move on.

  30. I do understand why you did it, the feeling of being wanted after those disgusting comments from your husband. But this thing with Jeff can’t go any further. I don’t know about him, but if I were 20 years old, I’d be dying to tell someone not for bragging but it’s so big and good (no pun intended) that it’ll eat me alive. You (and him) knew your career is on the line, so be careful.

    As for your family, I sincerely hope your husband’s attitude improves not just for you but for the dynamics of your children. Keep in mind that if you come forward with this, he might also cheat on you with another woman, if he hasn’t already done so. This is just pure speculation from his comments towards you, which is beyond disrespectful.

  43. Holy shit, how can one say something so disrespectful, hurtful, ignorant and unempathetic to one’s loved one? I would be deeply ashamed about myself if I even dared to think something so awful.

  55. Loved the story. Was on the same side as you with my wife (now ex-wife). Feels amazing to be wanted and desired. Amazing story. Thanks for sharing. Hope you are getting treated like you should be, regardless of the source

  57. Bet you are stunning and you definitely don’t deserve to be treated like that by the man you love!

    Would love to see pictures of you on her. I bet you are amazing!

  58. Well, damn, fuck your husband. Or, you know, don’t. <.<

    Fuck Jeff. :P

    The fact that he DOUBLED-DOWN, especially, just… Ugh. “I was just telling the truth.” Fuck.

    What an asshole.

  59. Your husband’s attitude is a stone cold atrocity. I’ve never engaged in cheating when she has kids with her partner, but I feel like you didn’t make a bad choice here and I don’t think you should regret it either.

  60. What’s that old saying, “Show me the most beautiful woman in the world and I’ll show you a guy that’s tired of fucking her.”

  61. I would kill to see these tits you mentioned several times. Sounds like you still got it and would love to see that body.

  63. One of the hottest things about my wife is the fact that she is the mother of my son. Her body turns me on so much. I don’t care what gravity is doing. I wish she would believe me when I tell her this!! I’m sorry you’re going through this with your husband. Hopefully, he comes to his senses!

  70. I felt like communicating more with your husband would’ve been the better choice and explaining to him more how what he said was insensitive etc… Now, he was definitely wrong for saying that, it was unnecessary. But cheating is worse

  71. I think considering the rube comments you husband gave you…… you deserved the sex you got. Would I do it again??? You have to ask yourself if divorce is what you want because your husband is not going to go without for very long. The ball is in your court

  72. Very insensitive husband. My wife is a mother of 2 – 17 and 26. She has drooping tits. Still has the baby fat stomach but I still find her incredibly sexy! If I had my own way I’d fuck her every day.

  74. Whether or not he meant to be mean, the fact is that he was. Intentions don’t change poor actions. “What you want is irrelevant, what you’ve chosen is at hand.” Captain Spock, Star Trek VI the Undiscovered Country

    I’ve put my foot in my mouth before, I told her I could tell she was a cyclist, referring to her muscular legs. I learned that was an insecurity, and had to dig out of a hole. It was a poor way to compliment, and I had to learn some sensitivity.

    But your husband cut you down with his words, and there is no grey area in my mind. This is “sleeping in the doghouse” or “I’m staying with my sister this weekend” kind of stuff. I think you need some time and maybe reflection with a close friend to find the words you need to say to express how you felt about that.

    The affair happened, and you have owned up to it. That is an offence against him that you may choose to face, but he will also need to own up to his part in driving you away to seek support, intimacy and sexual fulfillment somewhere else.

    EDIT: Just wanted to say after reading more you can probably guess where I stopped to make this comment. Your further reactions and his poor attempt to answer for his words … man’s gotta smarten up.

    EDIT 2: I just wanted to add; “to have and to hold, to love and to cherish, for better or for worse, in sickness and in health” is a two way street. When he said those words to you he violated his vows. His words were the opposite of loving and cherishing, having and holding. And he wasn’t willing to do that in his definition of “worse” or “and in health.” And the vows don’t end in “as long as we both shall remain as hot an sexy as in our 20’s.”

    Not to say that this justifies cheating, but his words actually undermined the very foundation of your marriage, and it shows that he did not take his vows seriously. I see marriage counselling as a must have to save the marriage. To me, love is to love a person, not a body. That’s lust.

  77. Fuck, that was hot. Any chance you would be willing to post some pictures of yourself? (Blurred face of course.)

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