Dear diary,
I have a size kink. Actually, I have several kinks—degradation, dumbification, a sprinkle of painplay here and an ounce of petplay there—and the list can go on. However, despite my long list of turn-ons, I’ve never actually explored them in real life. I’ve had my fair share of online exhibitionism, but I just know that sexting and fucking myself on my 5-inch dildo is never going to be as good as actually getting…fucked. In real life.
And the thing is, I’m a decently pretty girl ^w^ Face of an angel, and the body of a demon. By that I mean I have pretty brown eyes, long lashes, doll lips—plus—a large bust, wide hips, and a cute ass! All of that packaged in around 150.5 centimeters, and yes, the 0.5 matters a lot to me. Anyone could take a glance at me and think, *well, isn’t she just the perfect little princess?* One of my first ambitions (among many, because I like to set goals like that), was to become a bit of a slut by the time I’m in university. Then, the pandemic hit, several other things hit—and life just doesn’t open up that opportunity for me. It isn’t my first priority to be a whore, even if I would have liked it to be, haha. Of course I’ve tried Tinder…and I don’t know, it just wasn’t for me. Maybe I should try it again.
I suppose my issue is that I’m not just looking for just *anyone*, though. I’m looking for the right one, as cheesy as that sounds. Of course, whoever I want my first time to be with has to be someone I trust. Someone who I can have compelling conversation with, someone who can arouse my mind just as much as they arouse my body. While I know first-times aren’t meant to be perfect, I would still like to enjoy it. Come to think of it, I’ve never imagined a “first-time,” I kind of just go straight to thinking of being used like someone’s daily fuckdoll. God, just writing that is making the saliva build up in my mouth…I want to be someone’s good girl so badly. I want to be a good pet…I want to be treated like a slut and a pretty princess at the same time. Submitting, for me personally, is a vulnerability that I will offer only to anyone who is worthy of being submitted to. But then again…maybe I just want a cock inside me, filling me up until my cervix because even my dildo feels like too much for me when I’m fucking myself with it until I’m sobbing and drooling out the corner of my mouth. I promise I’d be such a good girl, I promise I’d be such a pretty girl when you fuck me, I promise I get wet enough to cream and cream and cream around your hot cock.
And please, I can be good. I will be so good that I’ll do anything you want, use my body and break my mind until I’m nothing more than yours to use—but please call me pretty, please? Please just always call me pretty, and I’ll be good for you. Make me go all dumb when you bully your mean cock into me until the only sounds I can make are gurgles of pleasure and stupidity. I wanna try to write with your cock inside me and then not be able to come up with words anymore because all I can think of is your cock inside me I need your cock inside me I n3ed your cock inside me fuck me fuck me fuck me please please please please fuck me fuck me fuck me please please just fuck and then cum inside me and then fill me to the brim with your cum then fuck it back inside me. Fuck me again. *Please.*
Woah. Sorry, I kinda just blacked out there. Anyways, maybe that’s all for today, diary. See you next time.
Source: reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/wb5hly/dear_diary_f18form18_size_kink_breeding_mdomfsub
What a good girl!