First time getting cucked, wife is still out of town.
I’ve been considering cuckolding for so long. Mainly took a while to convince my wife. We used to be super sexual together. Anyway one day she got pregnant and eventually had a miscarriage. It through off her hormones or something and sex was never the same after that. Kinda causes distance. And she always claimed she just wasn’t into sex anymore. On top of that it became painful for her. My penis is large (7.5 inches and very thick in girth.) it was never an issue for are first few years together. In fact it was great she loved it. Often times left her sore. But we still had sex 3-5 times in one day when we were dating. But now she never wants sex almost ever. Dont want to extend this so not gonna get into to much detail over that. She’s always needed a vibrator to cum. Can’t cum any other way with another person so far. So obviously we always used one. In fact after the miscarriage we had to or sex would be always be painful for her. Pain wasn’t from lack of lube btw. We always used a lot.
Anyway now she went out of town. In California rn on a personal vacation. But I brought up the idea of her cucking me while away. She initially turned it down. But as soon as she landed she told me she made dating profiles. I was taken back and surprised but also really turned on. Bc that’s not like her. She then said she didn’t plan on doing anything. Just that the guys were cute and she thought it be fun to message.
The next morning I woke up to her telling me she got dick. I was insanely turned on asked questions but she was still asleep so I had to wait for her to wake up. Took about 2 hours. In that time I masterbated 5-6 times. It gave me this jealousy feeling in my heart. It hurt. But also gave me a rock hard erection. Post nut clarity, I still felt fine with it. So she told me he was a European and that they really do it better in bed. Said his dick was smaller, uncircumcised and that he worked it better than I do. She never came. But they fucked three times. She never felt any pain. And she said he was better than me in every way. I didn’t know how to feel. I was shocked. She always cums with me. 2-3 times normally, because of the vibrator. Idk how to feel. She wants to keep cucking me. In fact she’s with another man right now. I’m not there and she’s not wanting to talk. This was supposed to be a shared experience. But I feel like she’s not including me. She’s kinda becoming dick crazy. And it hurts because she never wanted sex with me. And when I always tried to convince her to cuck me. Pointing out that it might be me she doesn’t enjoy, she would always assure me that she just doesn’t enjoy sex at all, no matter with who. But now we see that’s not true. Idk how to feel and needed to put this out there.
She doesn’t want to talk. Is kinda tying mad at me for being “spammy” and asking to many questions. I told her I wanted to be involved. To like take pictures for me. And she said she will if she remembers. Ultimately I don’t feel like it’s a good cuckold experience. Not how I imagined. Feels more to me as she sees this as a pass. Or that we on a break. And she’s just doing her own thing. She said she never thought of me. I’m hoping it gets better when we talk in person. But idk. She gets back soon. In a couple of days she’ll be back. Tonight will probably be the last guy she fucks while gone. There was 2. The first and the guy she’s doing right now. I’m hoping she’ll actually send pics. I just want like a selfie of her. Not much. Asks for pics of her before she cleans herself up.
I just want some help. Advice. See what others think.
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/w7j7os/my_wife_cycled_me_mf