I came out of the fetish closet [FM]

To start, I’ve been with my partner for just over 9 years, married for 6. We’ve known each other for 14 years total, and we always liked each other before we got together. Both of us were constantly in relationships with other people before we landed on each other 9 years ago. I was 22(f), and he was 23(m).

Anywho, we’ve always had fairly basic sex. Good sex, but pretty vanilla still. I had never experienced an orgasm with ANY partner, (20 different people before my spouse) and I didn’t have an orgasm with my husband until about 3 years ago. So 6 years into our relationship. At the time, we shyly purchased a bullet vibrator together to use during sex, after never using any sex toy before (like I said, vanilla) and put it to use that night. I came so hard and so fast during sex using the bullet. We still use the same vibrator to this day 3 years later, and it still makes me cum hard 99% of our sessions. That 1 thing changed our sex so much. Since purchasing that sex toy, we have bought 6 more sex toys.

On to the kinky part~ about a month ago, my hubby and I were having alcoholic beverages together at home. Once I was kinda drunk, and we were fooling around, we started talking about fetishes. Specifically about the foot fetish, since we were tossing around the idea of selling feet pics for cash at the time. He says something along the lines of “we’ve been together so long, it would be crazy if one of us had a fetish! I think I would know by now if you had one.” …I just quietly say, “but I do though”. His eyes got so big. “What? What is it? Have we talked about it before?” I shake my head. “Not officially.” I say. The topic has come up non-sexually, but I always say nothing, for fear of being judged. I have a great deal of anxiety, so I overthink. My husband is such a nice guy… the last thing I wanted to do was totally blindside him with something that he might consider ~weird~. I didn’t want our relationship to feel awkward, at all, so I just chose to not tell him about my fetish for like 9 years. Don’t do this. Don’t be me.

So, I get all embarrassed, because I’m pretty much putting my dirty little secret out in the open. To clarify, I’ve always had this same fetish. It is an intense need, and I cant help it. This is not new. He asks me what it is. I freeze, I can’t say it. “Try to guess?” I’m such a pussy lmao. He obliges (he’s so patient with me, I’m grateful). “Getting tied up? Bdsm? Choking?” Those all sound hot, but no. I say, “it’s not that common”. He looks puzzled. He cycles through a few more he can think of. I’m cringing from the anticipation. Will he guess it? Will he think it’s gross? Will he think it’s hot? I was reeling a little. Lost in my thoughts, I hear him say “…is it pee?” I scan his face to see if he’s horrified, but he looks SO curious. “Yes” I say shyly. His face lights up. “That’s fucking hot. You want to pee on me? Do you want me to pee on you? How does this work?” I have a little more of the liquid courage. “I want to piss on you in the shower” I say, finally with confidence. We both practically jump out of our skin to head over to the shower.

It’s a stand up shower, so it’s a little small, but he sits in the corner, and I stand over him. He touches my pussy a little, and I start to pee. He was moaning so loudly, it was kinda hard to get it out, because I was so turned on. He was jerking off in my piss. My pussy was inches from his face, so he got the best view possible. He licks my pussy when I’m done peeing. We rinse off a bit in the shower, leave the bathroom, and have the hottest sex we’ve ever had on the couch. He tells me that he thinks that he now has a fetish for peeing… specifically for ME peeing. I’m fucking loving it, and wishing I would’ve told him years ago. I’m living my best sexual life right now with my husband.

Now every time we have sex, which is daily, (before this, we were only having sex 1 – 5 times per month) I let him watch me pee before and after. Sometimes he plays with my pussy during, sometimes I piss on his dick while I jerk him off. I love trying to pee while he is inside of me. We both love this fetish so much, and it’s so hot doing it together. This has also spiraled into exhibitionism, which is another of my less intense fetishes. When we go outside to smoke a joint together, sometimes I’ll jerk him or give him a little head, and he returns the favor to me. I’ve also started selling videos on many vids, and everytime I get a sale, I tell my husband, and he gets sooo turned on by hearing that. He loves that other people are getting off to my pussy as well. We have never done anything like this until just this last month. I feel sexually liberated, like I don’t have to hide myself from my own husband anymore. And the way he looks at me now. Ooof. I’m his little freak, and only we know it.

TLDR: I kept a fetish from my husband for 9 years, and now we’re living our best life.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/w0m0xj/i_came_out_of_the_fetish_closet_fm