Having trouble processing. I have feelings and there’s no real place for them.
So some back story. It’s been a while since I’ve had sex. Even longer since I’ve had good sex, or sex with someone new. Finally an opportunity comes along. One that I’m excited about. It’s a tinder, he’s moving to California in two days, let’s hook up.
He arrives and is as attractive as his picture, phew. We sit outside and chat, the chemistry is great, there’s so much to talk about. We go inside. More chatting, I check in. We both want it. We start to make out, it’s getting passionate and he’s starting to touch my body. Is it too much? No, give it to me rough, I like it rough. And he’s a natural. He shows no mercy on my clit. His fingers go inside of me and make me scream in pleasure. He slaps my tit. I want to fuck. He rips open a condom and within seconds is balls deep inside of me. He chokes me as he fucks me hard over and over again. Flips me over, slaps my ass and he’s back inside of me balls deep.
This carries on for a while. He asks if I want to do anal, and that’s a yes so needless to say there was some squirting involved, because anal gets me OFF. We move it to the bathroom as things have gotten *dirty* and while we’re waiting for the shower to heat up, he comes all over my face. We shower together, and continue our shenanigans, the chemistry just getting stronger and stronger. We lay on the bed and talk some more, things to discuss just don’t seem to run out with him. We chat about our sexual history, mortality and everything you can tell a stranger who you’re sharing just a moment in time with.
I start stroking his sexy body, my fingers skimming over his abs making their way down to his cock. After a few minutes, he’s hard again and we both just want to fuck some more. I get on him and ride for a few minutes before he takes over, putting me on my back and lifting my legs so he can get in deep. His stamina was amazing and he fucked me GOOD. It was exactly what I needed. By the time he came in my pussy we were both spent.
It was well into the night and I was quite surprised by just how much time had passed. It was so enjoyable, a night well spent. But alas he moves away today and I may never see him again. I’m grateful for the experience, it gave me a glimmer of hope in a world that can seem so hopeless. Firstly in a sexual way. I’ve had mostly mediocre sex, but I was reminded there’s good, sorry great sex out there. And also that positive human connection is possible, and feelings, they are real and I could find someone to BE with.
But I’m also in tandem filled with despair. I feel feelings that I haven’t felt in quite some time, and it feels good but also obsessive. And there’s nothing I can do with them because he’s gone. Most of the sex I’ve had has been causual. I had no idea I was setting myself up for failure. I figured it would just be another body to add to the count. Why can’t I have anything nice?
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/vhjpug/tinder_hookup_left_me_feeling_a_way_mf
Are you able to contact him???
Sometimes life it this. Finding someone who seems great but they are moving away or vice versa. It happens. And it’s disappointing. Something similar occurred to me.
Good news here is you had a great experience and know this is what you want. You could consider maintaining a relationship albeit long distance for a while and see if he wants the same. Maybe then move to him or get him to move back. Just thoughts. Be even if that’s not an option, you know to keep looking.
If you found it once, you can find it again. Take this as a sign that it’s worth looking, that there’s something out there *worth* looking for.
Let yourself feel obsessed for a bit, be nice to yourself. And then get out there, and find Yours.
It’s only good because he’s moving.