Stay at my side Ch.6 [M/F] [L-bomb] [cuddling] [Friends] [sharing a bed]

Chapter 6: We always wanted this

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It had turned completely dark outside and Matt’s lights were motion controlled. They went out if nothing moved for around 15 minutes. This lead to us, sitting in the darkness without moving a single muscle. I was cuddled up against his side and enjoyed the warmth.

I yawned. It was already late and I didn’t wanna fall asleep on the sofa when a real bed was an option. “Matt?” He looked at me. “I’m sorry but I think I could fall asleep any time.” He didn’t seem mad. He must have been tired too. “Wanna head to bed?” I nodded. He stood up and went to the bathroom. I followed but stopped at the door. “I’m just brushing my teeth, you can come in.” He handed me a toothbrush because obviously I didn’t have one.

The guest room was right next to his. If I was honest to myself I didn’t wanna sleep alone. I stopped in front of his door. He walked past it. Did he want me to sleep alone? “We still need to get you a pillow and blanket.” I quietly followed him in the guest room and grabbed the pillow. We didn’t even had to talk about it. He just knew that I wanted to sleep in his bed and he maybe even wanted it room. He took the blanket and we went into his room.

I had been in his room many times but it felt different. We would be sharing a bed and I liked the idea more than I wanted to admit. I threw the pillow next to his and laid down on the bed. With the blanket in his hands, he sat down on the side and tucked me in. First my feet. Then my legs and my stomach. He left the area around my chest untouched which I could totally understand. I wouldn’t care if he did but I guessed it would have made him uncomfortable.
He also laid down under his blanket. We laid in our side and looked at each other. This was when I remembered why I even went home with him.  Thanks for distracting me.” He was quiet for a moment. “That’s what friends are for.”

Friends… no one knew what it really meant. I never told him that some of the girls also thought that I liked him but i just loved him. It wasn’t a crush just this deep connection and wanting to see each other smile. I wasn’t mad when someone thought we were a couple. There were enough reasons to think that.

I just started laughing. The whole situation was so ironic. Matt looked confused. I explained: “Sorry, I just… we are trying to convince everyone of how platonic our relationship is but at the same time were cuddling or I’m wearing your hoodie. And now we lay together in one bed with me not wearing any underwear.” I didn’t knew why I laughed that hard. But it felt good to say it out loud. Matt looked a little confused. “You don’t got any underwear?” He turned a little red. “You didn’t notice?” Well with the hoodie it was understandable that he didn’t notice that I wasn’t wearing a bra but it was fairly easy to see that I didn’t got any panties. “How? I could have seen it but I don’t look at your butt and analyze it.” He really didn’t look? “Aww, didn’t knew you were such a gentleman.” We both chuckled a little. I remembered my original sentence. “But you understood what I meant, right?” His expression turned serious. “Yeah, there are more than enough reasons to think were a couple. I don’t even know why no one ever fell for the other. I had enough reasons to let that happen.” What? He could fall for me? Maybe the other way around but this would never gonna happen. “Don’t be silly, you know me better than everyone else. That’s enough not to fall for me.” He sighed and then pulled his hand out from under the covers.

He just put a hair out of my face. But this short touch were enough to make me want this even more. Before he could pull his hand back I grabbed it with my hand. We looked at each other slightly surprised. I realized what I was doing. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hold your hand…” He smiled. Before I could figure out why, he crossed his fingers with mine and now really took my hand. We placed them down between us. I never expected it to feel like this. It wasn’t like the normal cuddling we did. It was a connection between the two of us. I wanted it to stay forever like this.

“I love you.” It was the second time this day I said these words. The words just went out of my mouth. I didn’t knew how he’d react to that. “I love you too.” Was his answer while he shorty pressed my hand. I never felt such warmth in my chest. I wanted to hug him, cuddle him, and give him a kiss again… but this would have crossed the line I guessed.

“There is something you’re thinking about. What is it?” I really couldn’t hide anything from him. “Do you think it’s weird to say that?” He thought for a moment. “No, if you really love someone you should be able to express that.” Well, the ‘I love you’-part was not the real problem. I should just ask him: “Does kissing someone also count as expression of love or is that a relationship-only thing?” He knew why I asked this. “I liked it when you kissed me. It would be weird if it was on the lips but what you did wasn’t a problem.”

I never felt so relieved in my entire life. Maybe even too relieved because I couldn’t hold myself any longer. I scotched over to him and turned myself that I laid with my back to him. We were still holding hands and his arm now laid over me. We were still under ours blankets but I could feel the warmth of his body against my back. Suddenly I noticed how he moved his arm. Was he going to pull it away? No, he did the complete opposite and pulled me closer.

We laid like this for a minute before I found the courage to say something: “That’s a good sleeping position.” Did I really just say that? I sounded even more stupid now that I thought about it. “Yes, I think we both wanted this for a long time.” I nodded. Matt always gave me a feeling of protection but this was way more intense than usual. It was just me and him. We didn’t need anything more.

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