The divorce (fm) part 1

I had been in a dead bedroom for four years when I stumbled upon Reddit and the online affair world. I was extremely broken inside. In a world where I felt absolutely repulsive. But I sent him a message, because in his ad he just wanted a friend to talk with him through the day and flirty banter at night. We hit it off. Conversations stretched from day to day. The fantasy’s flowing from us. Then in one weird twist we found out we were just 4 hours away from each other. Do we dare cross the line and meet? The thought definitely crossed both our minds. But he was much more strong and brave than me. He decided to file for divorce. It started out amicably. But then it turned nasty. He sent me a final message. Saying how much he cared for me (never used the love word thank god) and thought of me. Then he deleted everything associated with us and fought for every last thing he wanted from her. I still dreamt of him. Then suddenly after 5 years of not having sex at all, my husband walked out. Just left one day on a business trip and told me he was never coming back. The divorce was probably the easiest thing I could have imagined as he wanted out fast and argued nothing. But by the time the dust settled I’d been six years removed from sex, at only 36 years old, scared of the dating world and how it would receive me. Me, who hasn’t been touched in 6 years, now with a body that had bore children and grey showing in my hair. He came to mind, and in a rogue chance I reached out to his very dormant Reddit account. “Hey, I hope this finds you well, and hopefully in a beautiful new relationship, I wanted to thank you again for your companionship during a very dark time in my life. Also to tell you I too am now divorced from the dead bedroom and free. But oh so scared. If you ever were to come back, I would hope to be able to call one last time.”

To my shock the next morning a message awaited me from the long lost lover. It had an address on it, and a date. I googled the address. It was midway between our towns in a beautiful cabin resort way out in the middle of no where. A solo cabin for the night. Just as we had always fantasized about. I simply wrote back “see you soon.” And quickly arranged my plans.

I was so nervous approaching the cabin. We hadn’t spoken in over a year. We had never physically seen one another. What would it be like? Dressed in comfortable knee length skirt and a v neck shirt that showed my curves I was hoping to find that spark I had missed. I approached the cabin door and rapped with a trembling hand. Closing my eyes. Breathing slowly. He opens the door and stands before me the man I remember so clearly. Tall and completely shaved smooth. His piercing hazel eyes and that smile that lit up his whole face. There was a sharp intake of air, a complete loss for words. “You came” he said smiling at me. I said “of course”. He opened the door wide and reached for my hand. A shock ran through us both. He took the bag from my hand placed it on the floor, closed the door behind me. He grabbed up both my hands in his. Smiled into my eyes. I was being seen for the very first time. My heart racing. My breath out of control. He walked me backwards. My back now against the closed door. He lifted my hands above my head and kissed me. Holding both my hands in his one hand, his fingers oh so gently gliding across my face and behind my ear, kissing me deeper. I couldn’t help it. I moaned into his lips and pressed my body against his. He dropped my hands and pulled my hips into him. I instinctively raised my leg to rest on his hip, my arms locking behind his neck. Drinking in the kiss like I was dying of thirst. I was very very thirsty. His hand went up my skin on my thigh. Touching my bare ass. It was then he pulled away and smiled “nice touch”. I had forgotten I didn’t wear panties for him. Shit, I had forgotten my name. I did regain my composure and giggled, “just wait if you think that’s a surprise.” He let out a satisfied sigh as he pulled my face back to his and kissed me deeper. Pushing me hard against the wall.

Source: reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/v5k1di/the_divorce_fm_part_1