How I [TF] broke the girl [F]

A little before the pandemic made the world go to shit, I met up with this girl and had the wildest sexual experience of my life. We met on a certain kink website. She’s cute, mid-20s, Asian, ear length cut, about average height and weight, same as I am, though a softer body type to my, I don’t know, kinda of fit look? I wanted to try domming, she wanted to try subbing. Neither of us had any real experience in either, so we were gonna just go with the flow and see what felt right. But up until we met, all our conversation was very casual, matter-of-fact. Our discussions about sexual histories, desires, boundaries, etc. were like a business meeting. I’m over 5 years post-transition at that point in time, and while I’m mostly comfortable with myself, my body and my own sexuality, I never really know about other people’s perceptions of trans people, so I tend to play it very cautious. But every other time I’ve met up with someone, there was at least a lead-up of naughty texts and pics before we did the dirty. None of that here.

She lives two hours away, and we agree to meet up on a Saturday around noon, and she’ll head back the next day. I’m kind of expecting to hang out, feel each other out a bit (figuratively) and see how it goes from there. But late Friday night she suddenly texts me,

“…So what if I come a little bit earlier than expected?”

I tell her I’d definitely prefer around the time we originally planned so I could get some proper rest, but sure, that’s okay.

“…What if I come right now?”

Next thing I know, she texts me that she’s on the way, and she’s speeding her way here, including getting stopped by the police lol. Like, this girl is in sixth gear and my brain is still pulling out of the parking lot.

So she shows up, and we just chill on the couch and bullshit a bit. She talks about how shitty her night went and how she wanted to end it on a better note, and we jump through a few different topics. But after 20 minutes or so, she’s eager to cut the chit-chat and makes the first move. Suddenly we’re making out, and then the clothes are off, and she’s straddling me, hovering over me, about to insert myself into her, all within five minutes. 0-100.

I pause for a minute and ask her if she’s really okay with doing it raw. I brought condoms of course, being the responsible and principled woman that I am. I always told my friends that I would never do anything as irresponsible as having unprotected sex with a stranger… I’m basically sterile from the hormones, or at the very least extremely low fertility (according to a home fertility test I took out of curiosity), and she later told me she’s on birth control, so that’s not an issue… I know I’m clean and she says she’s clean and tested, and I do believe her, but is it really worth the risk?

…Yes? No? Maybe?

Regardless, as soon as she (who apparently had no intentions of using a condom in the first place) gave the okay, all willpower is gone and she lowers herself onto me and holy shit is this why guys never want to use condoms, cause fuuuuuuck. Nothing compares to those first few moments of penetration. She’s warm and she’s wet and she’s tight and it feels like home. And we’re up close and personal and it’s everything I was missing from the last time I had sex with a woman, which felt so distant and emotionally void I started to dissociate (and as a trans woman, feeling like nothing but a penis attached to a body is nooot the best feeling).

We eventually move to the bedroom and that’s when the kinky shit really begins. We got so fucking nasty. I vibe more with a gentle side of domming (or so I thought) so we start with a mommy dom type thing. We try it for a bit, but she’s not feeling it, so switch to a classic mistress and good girl slut. And holy shit… this girl, she’s amazing. I’m eating her out, I’m finger fucking her with one finger, then two, then more than she’s comfortable with. I’m diving into her ass with my tongue (a first time for me), just cause it happens to be there. I’m fucking her from above, below, behind, the side. I’m gently fucking her face. I’m whispering into her ear how she’s a good girl for taking it all. I’m taking out all my sexual frustrations from two years of celibacy and an even longer period of shitty sex. Spanking, slapping, squeezing. And she takes it all. She starts to realize how much she enjoys to be used, and I starts to realize how much I enjoy using her.

As long as have the physical energy to keep going I have no off switch when it comes to sex. It’s difficult for me to come with a partner, so after some 30+ minutes of fucking she’s starting to get worn out. I keep telling her I’m gonna give her a break, but each time after maybe a minute of rest I’m sliding back into her. Nothing aggressive, just slow and long strokes, but inside her nonetheless. She’s a drug and I can stop abusing her. It’s certainly not all pleasure for her but she’s loves it. She’s slowly pulling out this sadist that I didn’t even know I had in me.

I’m really into spanking, especially by hand, so when I eventually put her over my knee, I’m playing minigames with her buttcheeks. I start with some firm spanks, following by constant rubbing to soothe the pain. All the while I’m talking into her ear, using it both to let her know what’s to come and to throw her off and catch her by surprise. Once I introduce pump faking the game is really on. There’s a smile on my face each time she tenses up after I lift my hand off her ass in anticipation of the next smack, but nothing comes. And when her guard is down I slap her ass with as much force as I can muster. Her ass is my favorite pair of bongos. I’m enjoying this too much.

(Sometimes when I’m naked after a shower, I’ll smack my own ass with moderate force, realize how much it stings, then remember what I what I did to that poor girl’s cheeks. I’m a monster. 😈)

We do eventually stop for real to get some rest, it’s still morning. After such a wild start I makes sure to take care of her and also check in and talk about how things are going so far. The communication that was sorely missing from my previous experiences. We hop in the shower, clean up and hop back into bed and cuddle up for some sleep.

…Only I sleep like total shit. I love the idea of cuddling, but the reality is it totally ruins my sleep. Combined with a cat that harasses me for feeding when he knows I’m awake, and I barely manage an hour of sleep.

We don’t just fuck all day (there’s a little bit of me fucking her awake, but that’s neither here nor there). In her rush to get here so didn’t bring a change of clothes, so I give her a t-shirt and pair of my boyshorts (which she found so comfy she keep them). We chill, take a walk. Later in the evening head to a (casual) meet-up of the local BDSM group and the lounge after that includes some live demos of flogging, fire play, electro play, etc. She even get the courage to volunteer for one of them, it’s physically intense and a bit emotionally overwhelming, but she enjoys it.

When we head back, she’s riled and ready to get back to the dirty, and this is when I break out a few of the toys I have: a small butt plug (cleaned and sanitized of course) and my cordless Magic Wand. When she’s presenting her ass to me on the couch for the plug, the developing bruises from the aggressive spanking earlier in the day are shining purple and red. I lube her up, then the toy, and carefully ease it inside her ass. I personally don’t care for plugs much (doesn’t giving the right filling sensation that I enjoy with anal play), but she seems into it, so thumbs up.

After that we try out the wand. I don’t think she’s ever used a vibrator of any sort before, so it’s a totally new sensation for her. I start her out on speed 2 of 4 (cause the first one on this thing is wildly inconsistent depending on charge level) and I tease her with it a bit, and the feeling of it on her clit. Rave reviews. I get ready to fuck her while keeping the wand on her clit.

But I’m so. Damn. Tired. The mental arousal is there, but I’m running on fumes from lack of sleep, so the physical side ain’t. I can be a little slow to get erect cause of the hormones, but I’ve never had any issues while with a partner, so the situation is a little off-putting. We try a few things and it’s not working out. She could barely keep up with me earlier in the day but now it’s me that can’t keep up.

I’m about ready to call it quits, but it doesn’t register in my brain that just because I’m ready to give up, doesn’t mean she’s done. Duh. So we go with just the wand. With me slowly rubbing it on her clit area, it doesn’t take to her long to reach first orgasm, but I start to get cruel with it. I’m really into overstimulation, so even as she starts to get sensitive from coming I keep the wand in place on her clit. I tease her about the speed setting this thing has, which she was totally unaware of, and ramp it up to the third. She’s in a swirl of pleasure and pain as the orgasms come one after other, but the sadist in me comes out and I pull back her skin around her hood so the vibe is directly on her clit. Her eyes are starting to roll back in her head, and then I ramp it up to the highest speed and hold her down so she can’t escape. It’s way too much for her but she doesn’t tap out. The clit torture overwhelms her, she loses control and starts peeing herself, on the couch and the carpet. Even then I still don’t pull the wand away, and it becomes so much that she very briefly passes out.

It’s in this moment that start to understand the beauty and fragility of the dom/sub relationship. The feeling of having complete control of another person is fucking amazing, and it’s absolutely terrifying. She’s so eager to please that’s she’s not gonna use the safe word. She’s entirely in my hands, but that’s exactly it, she’s entirely in my hands, and I’m breaking this girl.

I finally turn off the wand and check on her. She’s okay, just embarrassed about the peeing, afraid that I’d be disgusted. I tell her not to be, because this was the absolute hottest experience of my fucking life. If I was turned off, I wouldn’t have kept going.

I get her some water, carefully remove the plug from her ass, get her cleaned up and make sure she feels taken care of (is it weird that aftercare is my favorite part of the whole thing?). I later go back clean the couch (thankfully non-absorbent) and kind of laugh at the irony of using pet stain remover to clean human urine out of the carpet. We chill, talk about the experience, discuss safe word usage, among other things. Eventually go to bed, and I sleep like shit, again, but it was all worth it. There probably was some more fucking at some point, as somewhere in there was some nipple play, cause I remember going to town on them. Like I was playing a game of thumps on her nipples lol. I’m a little hazy on the sequence of events, but I’ve gone on long enough I think.

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After that kind of experience you can’t help but feel some sort of an emotional connection. We had some established boundaries but things definitely got a bit blurry after that. I later found out this was her first time having sex with a woman, and while I imagine the baseline I set is a little different compared to sex with someone with a vagina, I guess the experience (along with some feelings she was developing for another girl she knew) made her realize that she’s bi. So I guess I kinda turned her gay, yay?

We met up a few times after that. I bought some new toys to use on her, we tried some more things with anal, I finally came with a partner for the first time (yeah I didn’t come at all the first time we fucked lol, but it didn’t bother me really) and we did have fun, but that first time was an experience of its own. We weren’t dating or anything, but she wanted to focus her attention on this girl she had feelings for, so things ended up cooling off just as quickly as they heated up. We kind of drifted apart after that (she’s way cooler than I am anyway), haven’t talked in a long time. But goddamn that experience is hard to shake. I just hope she’s doing okay.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/ukh58x/how_i_tf_broke_the_girl_f