I’ve been trying to lower my horny levels a bit since my last FWB relationship. I genuinely want to have a good, loving relationship with someone and then let them fuck the life out of me… But unfortunately I’ve got a lot of trust issues since all my relationships tend to end with either betrayal or a fight. The last good relationship I had ended with both, and I haven’t been the same since.
Since then, I’ve tried dating people and they’ve mostly been very interested in sex. Since my sex drive is through the roof, I’m more than happy to oblige. However, when the relationship ends, and my partner still wants to continue sending nudes and such, I get kinda pissy. I don’t like being used as a sex object, especially if I’m being pressured into it.
The first time this happened, I was a sub and was able to shut it down. And most recently, the last FWB relationship I’ve had, I was a dom, and had to shut it down too. I get too emotionally attached, unfortunately, and I know that won’t work out with them.
The reason I bring this up is because an old friend of mine contacted me again, and whenever he contacts me, I know he wants to dom me. Unfortunately for me, when I get horny, I become a “stupid little submissive or dominant idiot” as I described to him.
We talked, I told him I shouldn’t, I told him I will get attached, I’ll get needy, I’ll fuck with my emotions. I was proud of myself for preventing it.
Then he apologized, and mentioned how when I accidentally brought up that I have an oral kink, it got him all hot.
And then I floundered. God, I wanted that thick cock of his.
So we did our little dance. He showed me his dick, that thick juicy thing he’s got down there… And I told him everything I wanted him to do to me, how I wanted him to tie me up and fill all my holes with his cock and his cum. How I wanted him to treat me like the stupid little slut that I am. How I wanted him to tie me to the bed for days and treat me like a sex toy and make me cum over and over on his dick. How I wanted his cum to drip out of my pussy and ass after he was done, and how I wanted him to plug me up with a dildo to keep it nice and deep in me.
Needless to say we texted, sent pictures and got off on eachother for a few hours.
But the unfortunate part now, is that I want more, I want more of his attention. I want him to cum to the thought of me fingering myself, to the thought of fucking my tight pussy.
I’m back to being addicted to the feeling of being worshipped and fucked. Of being the object of one’s lust/affection as they cum. I love it, I always have since it happened the first time. Even now, I want to get my dildo out and fuck myself and send him a video of it. I love the attention, regardless of if I’m domming or subbing; whether I’m imagining myself taking dick or fingers, or if I’m the one fucking, licking and fingering with reckless abandon.
So basically, what I’m saying is that I’m happy to be anyone’s nightly slut/mistress for a bit. If you’re looking for it, I’d be happy to oblige. And you can thank my friend for reverting me to my desperate state. My pussy has been soaked for days now.
Source: reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/udjwha/f19_convinced_to_be_a_little_slut_again
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