Part 2 [here]([https://www.reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/trzsmg/loveless_pt_2_ff_emotional_cheating/](https://www.reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/trzsmg/loveless_pt_2_ff_emotional_cheating/))
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My head swam on the drive home. I had actually kissed her. Full on, lip to lip, kissed her, just like I did to Travis when we first started dating. It felt so good. It felt so warm. It felt so… wrong.
I shouldn’t have kissed her. Even if it wasn’t really cheating, it felt like cheating and that’s basically the same thing. What was I going to tell Travis?
*Oh fuck, what was I going to tell Travis?* I couldn’t tell him, even if said yes to letting me sleep with Gabi. He’d never trust me again. And how do I ask him? What if he freaks out and calls me a tramp and throws me out? More dumb tears.
No, he wouldn’t just throw me out over this. I know he loves me and I just have to trust him.
Pulling up to our house, I just turn off the car and sit there. The quiet night drifts around me and I can’t help but think about that kiss. It was so soft, so delicate, so… safe. I don’t know, there was something so right about it, like I had just been practicing on mannequins before and I finally actually kissed a real human being. Touching my lips, I imagine the taste of her chap stick, some berry mix that just got lost in the heat of the moment. Looking down, I realized I was fondling a breast, my body just instinctively reacting to the memory. That’s when I realized my panties were soaked. Fuck, had that kiss really gotten me so worked up? I did leave pretty soon after, but I thought I had plenty of time to cool down.
Without thinking, I slipped a hand down into my shorts, rubbing myself ever so slowly. Closing my eyes, I replayed the kiss in my mind, remembering the sweet shampoo in her hair, the lingering berries on her lips, the cute freckles dotted across her face. Then I started seeing more.
My memory slowly blurred into what if’s and could be’s. Bit by bit, memory Gabi lost some clothes, revealing more and more skin and- *No I can’t do that. Not to her, not to Travis*
I pull my hand out of my pants, leaving my poor yearning bud to wallow in its own self pity and juices.
It’d be best if I just got inside and went to sleep. This can wait until the morning. It’s… oh fuck it’s 1am!
Rushing inside, I tried my best to keep the noise down, trying not to wake Travis.
Tossing clothes aside, I slip into bed next to him, naked like he left me the previous night.
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Morning came and my head throbbed. I hate staying up late, it always ends with me in a miserable mood. Luckily, Travis had already left for work, leaving me by myself.
How do I ask Travis? There’s no way he’d be okay with me trying to bed someone else, let alone another girl. He’d… he’d… what would he do? Would he really be that mad? In all the time I’ve known him, he never really cared about gay people. I don’t know if he’d hate me for being a lesbian. But would he hate me for cheating on him or sleeping with another person?
I curled up in a ball on our bed, holding my knees to my chest. God, why was it so hard to talk to him about it? What was wrong with me? My breath caught in my throat, refusing to obey. I could feel the tears coming.
No. No more crying. You just have to talk to him. He loves you, and wants the best for you. He’ll understand. Promise.
With all those reassurances, I push myself out of bed and pull on a relatively clean t-shirt and some shorts. Maybe some food will clear my mind.
A few minutes later, I have a plate of eggs and toast at the dining room table. It might be best if I find out for sure if I actually want to do this. Like perhaps it was all a fluke in the moment and- the memory of that kiss came crashing into my mind like the raging bull it was.
No, no, it definitely was no fluke. I definitely liked that.
Should I find out what it’s like being with a girl? The thought made my cheeks burn. Oh God was I really going to look that up? But before I could refuse myself, my shorts grew wet. I’m okay with Travis watching it, why can’t I?
I grab my phone, laying back on the bed.
*girls kissing*
My cheeks flushed in embarrassment. I feel like a young boy who just noticed girls for the first time.
*girls…* *girls having sex*
A fair number of results, but not what I’m looking for.
*lesbians sex*
It’s like a floodgate opened, flushing thumbnail after thumbnail of girls in the throes of passion. This was it.
I picked the first one. As the video started, I pulled my shorts off, my hand finding its way between my legs.
The two girls are talking about something or other, though I skip past a lot of the boring stuff. Eventually I find the start of the kissing and fondling. Fuck, is that what it looked like when I kissed Gabi? Kisses and exploration soon led to shed clothes and making out. Oh god that’s hot.
I nearly cum then and there from nearly a year of pent up frustration. Slow down, I tell myself. They haven’t even got very far.
Soon, bras and shorts and panties go flying, and I’m confronted by some of the perkiest boobs I’d ever seen (though to be fair I haven’t seen very many). I imagine resting my face between them, their soft warm cradling my head. Again, nearly cum. Goddamn, I need this.
Both girls’ ladybits are shaved, which does look good on them though I can’t imagine the effort to maintain it. Maybe I should try it?
Eventually, one of the girls starts licking the other’s hoohah. The moans coming from her are delicious notes of music played on the sexiest instrument.
My hand goes to work, acting with a mind of its own. More and more sounds of ecstasy sound from her until finally, with an almighty roar of orgasm, she cums. And I’m right there with her.
The flood of climax wracks my body in pleasure, and I’m left momentarily blind. Fuck, I really needed that.
I sit there for a long while, sounds of more orgasms greeting my ensorcelled ears.
Travis has to let me do this. This may have been my first experience with lesbian sex, but I have to try it. Anything to feel the thrill of lovemaking.
I need to fuck Gabi.
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Part 4 cumming soon
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