Part 1 [here](https://www.reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/tq4ltb/loveless_mf_ff_emotional_cheating/)
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“You found out today? Like just now, when you kissed me?” Gabi asked, incredulous.
Managing a weak smile, I said, “N-no. It was when I texted you to come over. Travis was going down on me, and it just kind of hit me that I don’t like the feeling of him between my legs. Whenever he kisses me, it doesn’t feel like a kiss from someone that makes me hot and bothered, more like a kiss from a best friend. If that makes sense.”
Gabi quirked her eyebrows. “Are you sure you just don’t love him anymore?”
I shook my head. “No, it’s… I don’t think any guy has ever made feel that way. Like even the guys that people say are the sexiest men alive, I just don’t feel anything.”
Nodding along with what I was saying, Gabi took a long moment to respond. “And are you so sure you like girls instead?”
The question caught me off guard. I did feel something when I kissed her and when she held my hand, but did that mean I liked her that way? Searching around me for some nonexistent answer, I eventually stammered out, “I-I don’t know. I just thought maybe if I didn’t like guys, that I like girls instead.”
Gabi took my hand again and warmth radiated from her touch. “I would say maybe we could find out together, but I’m not going to help you cheat on Travis.”
A confused gurgling built in my stomach, excited, anxious, overjoyed at her possibly willing to help me, but immediate regret and shame not only at the possibility but also that I might end up cheating on Travis. He’s not a bad guy and he doesn’t deserve that, no matter what weird feeling I might have.
My panic and confusion must have been plastered all over my face because Gabi jumped in with, “hey look, maybe you could talk to Travis. See what he thinks. Maybe he’s one of those guys who doesn’t believe a girl doing it with another girl counts as cheating.”
A small glimmer of hope pierced the gloom crowding around me. Maybe he would be okay with it. But what would I say? *Hey Travis, can I have sex with my friend Gabi? I think I might be a lesbian and want to make sure. Don’t worry I still love you I just never want to have sex with you again*
Once again I started spiraling in self loathing and guilt. Wet, hot tears streamed from my eyes, and Gabi pulled me into a tight hug. She smells so good, and I can feel her boobs press into me. They feel so soft.
I wrapped my arms around instinctively, not wanting the hug to ever end. And for for a few minutes it didn’t. But eventually, she pulled away, wiling the remaining tears from my eyes gently. My face burned from embarrassment and the ever present shame.
“What do I do?”
“Well, maybe I could give you a kiss,” she said.
My heart fluttered. “What? I thought you said you wouldn’t help me cheat on Travis?”
“Yah, but one kiss isn’t cheating is it? One little kiss shouldn’t matter. Not like we’re going to have sex.”
I nodded dumbly. “Yah, I guess that makes sense.”
Gabi scooted forward, her hands on mine. She leaned forward, so close I could smell her, breath her in. God she smelled so good. I leaned in a bit, so that we were barely touching.
I hesitated.
“Hey it’s just one kiss, then you could know for sure, right?”
“Yah, just one kiss.”
I crossed that last little bit, pressing my lips to hers, locking my face with hers.
A rush of warmth and relief flooded my body. Every muscle and tendon melted into the kiss, pressing deeper and deeper into her, wishing desperately to become one with her.
Despite having just kissed her moments ago, this felt so visceral, so raw, so real. Like I had just learned how to speak entire poems through just a kiss.
I drank in every last bit of her, her beautiful blue eyes, the cute freckles smattered across her face, her adorable button nose, the stray lock of hair falling across her eye. God she’s so beautiful.
With a resigned exhale, we separated. As with all great things, the kiss came to an end.
Looking at this beautiful girl, dressed in a teddy bear onesie, I now could say with certainty that I like girls.
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Part 3 cumming soon.
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