Sadie’s Sexual Awakening: Part 1

This is my first shot at erotica, written on a dare of all things! Please let me know what you think. Constructive criticism is appreciated! I started out intending to write one short story, but it’s now looking like a potential series if people enjoy it.

Sadie’s Sexual Awakening: Part 1

It’s tough to get married young, and this was something Sadie understood all too well. She was twenty-two and had already been married for over five years as the result of an arranged marriage. She had grown to love her husband, Levi, who was ten years her senior, but the first several years of marriage had felt incredibly lonely. The “courtship” of the two only lasted a few months and involved only brief interactions in person with her family present, as the couple’s parents figured out the practical arrangements necessary for a traditional marriage ceremony. Sadie had enjoyed the company of Levi while “dating” him, but the reality was she barely knew him, which remained true even years into the marriage.

As could probably be expected, both Sadie abs Levi’s parents had raised them with conservative values in many ways. Sex was expected to be learned about after marriage, and even thinking about the topic beforehand was considered inappropriate. As her wedding day approached, Sadie had started to become anxious about what sex might be like with Levi. She felt guilty for even imagining the act, but she felt the need to at least ask someone what to expect. That person was her mother. The answer she gave wasn’t satisfying and made Sadie even more anxious: sex would most likely hurt at first, probably at least on occasion indefinitely, and having sex as a married women was more about fulfilling the marital obligation of gratifying your husband’s needs than it was about personal pleasure.

After her mother’s brief explanation on sexual expectations, Sadie didn’t dare follow up with any questions regarding whether sex had the potential to be enjoyable for the female partner as well. She’d just have to wait and find out. She DID have a suspicion that her body could experience previously unexplored pleasure, if only for the aroused feelings she’d had on a few occasions when she’d accidentally been stimulated. At one point as a young teenager, she realized she had been intentionally wearing tight clothing whenever she could to give herself just a little spark of pleasure whenever she moved around in certain ways. Once she realized her subconscious action, she stopped immediately out of guilt and did her best to forget about it.

Married sex turned out to be boring but not painful. From the beginning, Sadie felt lucky that Levi was a considerate, albeit shy and somewhat aloof, partner. Levi had also not received much sexual education and had no prior experience, but he did at least try to make her as comfortable as possible. The first time they had sex, Sadie recognized the unmistakable arousal she felt while he kissed her and ran his hand over her crotch. She never had an issue self-lubricating. If anything, even slight arousal would unleash a torrent of sexual liquids that at least allowed Levi’s penis to slide in comfortably. Once the actual sex began, Sadie waited for the few minutes it took to be over. Sadie was just relieved that at least she didn’t have to dread her marital due, as her mother had implied might be the case. Sadie considered herself one of the lucky wives in that regard.

Both Sadie and Levi were extremely agreeable and mild mannered, so while the couple rarely fought openly, marriage had certainly filled no emotional voids for them. Both were lonely without ever realizing their partner felt the same way. They mostly both just focused on their own endeavors- Levi spending the majority of his time working on projects in his career as an engineer, and Sadie staying at home to tend to their house, two Labrador dogs, and her large garden. The couple viewed having children as more of a “when” than an “if.” However, despite never using any form of birth control, Sadie had never gotten pregnant. She guiltily kept hoping she never would, as having babies and raising children were an expected part of being a married woman, but never of much interest to her personally.

Both Sadie and Levi had a few friends they’d talk to or invite over on occasion, but these people never really felt closer than good acquaintances. Sadie badly wanted a friend that she could talk to about anything, but with all of her friends feeling similarly awkward about mentioning such “taboo” subjects as sex, she never felt she could open up to them without the potential of humiliating judgement.

Four years into marriage, something happened that would change the trajectory of Sadie’s marriage. One Saturday morning while her husband was still sleeping, she went outside to attend to her garden as was her daily routine. She had unfortunately overdressed for the temperature outside, and soon after the heat and dehydration from sweating so much made her feel nauseous. She walked back inside, and was surprised to find her husband not in bed, but in his private office with the door closed. He very rarely used the office on weekends to her knowledge, and curiosity got the best of her. Hoping Levi hadn’t heard her come inside, she quietly tip toed over to the door, and opened it suddenly before he had time to react.

Levi whipped his head around and quickly slammed the screen down of the laptop he was using, but it was too late. Sadie had seen everything. What was everything? A video of two men roughly having sex with a woman from behind, one in her vagina and the other in her anus. Levi also had a blanket on his lap, but Sadie could clearly see he was naked as his defined erection lifted the fabric. Sadie didn’t know what to say; what could she say in this situation? She was both viscerally disgusted and very intrigued. She was angry about whatever her husband had been watching, but would be lying to herself if she didn’t also acknowledge her own immediate arousal upon seeing the brief glimpse of footage. With no idea what to actually say or do, she closed the door and started working on some household chores, trying not to let her mind go into a total tailspin. Levi came out a few minutes later, and the event was not talked about until several weeks later.

During this time when neither wanted to address the elephant in the room, Sadie was undergoing a host of confusing emotions. She didn’t choose to marry Levi, and it certainly wasn’t a marriage filled with love, but she felt it was his obligation to be faithful to her as his wife, just as it was her marital duty to provide him with sexual satisfaction. And she HAD been providing it, nearly every time he wanted it. Why did he need to see other naked women to get off? Wasn’t she good enough? Did he actually wish to participate in the activities he was seeing? Did she secretly crave to participate in something like that too? Why was she unable to recall what she had seen without that familiar wetness starting to form between her legs?

She knew she couldn’t begin to answer these questions without first talking to him. He hadn’t asked for sex at all since she had walked in on him, which was a highly unusual length of time for him to go without sex. In fact, he appeared to be avoiding her as much as possible. She was terrified to talk to him about what she had seen, but she knew it had to be done so they could at least resume regular marital relations. She decided to wait until another day when he was off of work, when he was in a relaxed state.

“I’m afraid to talk to you about something”, said Sadie. After a brief pause she continued, “I think we both know what that is.”

Her husband, who had been sitting on the couch reading a book, looked away from the book and down at the ground.

Dead silence.

“Look, under no circumstances was I thinking about trying to leave our marriage. We both know that would create more problems than it’s worth with our families”, Sadie said, “but if we don’t talk about this, I fear we will never go back to our normal.”

Finally, Levi spoke up. “We have never been normal!”, he exclaimed. Sadie was taken aback by what seemed like anger in his voice. “What do you mean?”, she replied softly and close to tears.

“I mean, normal couples actually like to have sex with each other. I don’t think you’ve ever liked having sex with me. Every time we do it you lay there and wait for me to be finished.” Sadie was again taken aback. She had no idea he wasn’t satisfied with their sex life, and was even more surprised that the reason revolved around her lack of enjoyment.

“It’s just..I mean…I don’t know…I never knew anything about how to get enjoyment from sex. I’d be willing to try anything you want me to, but I don’t know where to begin”, she stammered.

This conversation was the beginning of Sadie’s real sexual awakening. The couple talked for hours, and opened up like they never had before. They talked about what little they were told about sex growing up, their shared secret desire for sexual gratification, and the reasons Levi had decided to seek out porn for satisfaction. He had started out by sneaking dirty magazines into his room as a teenager, and when he gained the ability to use the internet in private, immediate sought out erotic material to feed his desire. He continued to masturbate to porn frequently after marriage, but it was never about not finding Sadie attractive. Much to the opposite, he found her stunning in her own way, and was saddened that she just didn’t seem interested in sex. She never initiated, and while she’d go along with anything he requested, never played the role of an active participant. Sadie confessed that she was interested in sex and finding sexual pleasure for herself, but never dared try to go beyond her role as a submissive wife. She even admitted her long-held memory of deliberately stimulating herself via tight clothes. Levi began to understand that Sadie had been trained since childhood they men have the monopoly on sexual release, and women are merely the recipients of such desires.

The couple’s relationship developed quickly after this conversation. Now, with no topics off limits to discuss, they found they became closer in other ways too. They no longer focused so much on their assigned “role” in the relationship, and instead focused on relating to and understanding each other. They began to enjoy activities together rather than just alone, with plenty of silly banter and laughing along the way. They started to slow down while having sex, and focused on learning each other’s bodies. As Sadie got even more comfortable, she started initiating and suggesting positions where she could experiment with the rhythm by being in control more. Eventually, she started watching porn with Levi and learned far more about sex in her first hour of watching than she had learned in her entire life previously. The door was now wide open to explore everything to their heart’s desire.

Sadie was so grateful to be able to discreetly order sex toys online. She was on a mission to experience the female orgasm she had seen many times while watching porn. She could tell by now that much of what she saw in porn was just acting, but she knew women could orgasm and she wanted to experience it! The first toy she ordered was a small clitoral stimulator that could easily slip between her legs during sex.

The first time she tried her new treasure, she was blown away by the sensation. Every nerve was activated and she found herself moaning uncontrollably as her husband plowed her from behind. She didn’t orgasm, but she could feel the waves of pleasure washing through her with every thrust. She found herself begging Levi to push himself into her harder, faster, and deeper. After about a year of mind blowing sessions like this, but still no resulting orgasm, she asked Levi’s permission to start exploring her body by herself. Levi assured her that she didn’t need his permission to touch her own body.

The magical day finally came one day while Sadie was taking a bath. In retrospect, she was glad she had purchased a toy that was advertised as waterproof. She actually thought at the time of ordering it that her own wetness might break a toy if she wasn’t careful. That idea seemed silly to her now, but using the toy while taking a warm bath did not.

She lit some candles around the bathroom and drew the bath to her preferred temperature, very warm but not hot. It was mid-day on a Monday and her husband was at work. She had deliberately watched lesbian porn all morning to work herself up. She was surprised and curious when she realized that lesbian porn aroused her more than any other type she had seen. Without overthinking it, she knew that’s what she needed to watch on this particular day. After hours of watching women give each other endless orgasms, her own wetness had seeped through her only attire – her plain cotton underwear -and was now beginning to leak down the inside of her legs. She was SO ready for this.

She slipped into the bath with her little friend in hand. She didn’t waste any time getting down to business. With the help of the vibrator, she was able to use one hand to keep it steadily in place on her clit while using her other hand to lightly penetrate her pussy. She was immediately relieved to experience some direct stimulation after teasing herself all morning and denying her pussy any contact whatsoever. She had instead only allowed herself to touch her nipples all day, which drove her absolutely crazy with desire.

The waves of pleasure kept getting stronger, and Sadie for the first time felt a build up like never before. In the past, sometimes she’d start to feel the build up but would lose it and at times became oversensitive and had to stop. This time it was different. The pressure and pleasure kept rising, which compelled her to push her fingers into her pussy with more force. The vibrations moved through her and she could feel them ripple into every pleasurable nerve. She thrashed erratically in the bath, splashing water all over the floor. She was totally lost in the pleasure and allowed her body to direct what movements it needed. Finally, the wave hit her.

“Oh my god! Ohhhhhhh!!!!”, she screamed like never before. When the orgasm hit, she was overwhelmed in almost an impossibly wonderful way. Several waves of euphoria were followed by her pussy throbbing in pleasant contractions. She sat in afterglow for quite some time, unable to move or think of anything else other than what she had just experienced.

She had finally had her first orgasm, at the age of 22. She didn’t know it yet, but this was only the beginning of her sexual journey.

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