This is a story about an ex girlfriend who was the best sex of my life! So much so… and you may find this ridiculous but I have actually had to to see someone about this, i suppose you can say counciling/ thepy as the relationship with her was so intense it actually has affected other relationships. i found myself comparing her to other girls I dated, and expecting other girls I dated to be like her. She absolutely broke me! I was obsessed about her, constantly reading back our messages and looking at the pictures/videos we made. I was even finding I couldn’t cum with other girls which put a massive strain on those relationships,
I could only cum by wanking to her.. which Your probably thinking is stupid, but if you carry on reading you may or may not understand.
This happened back in 2013, I am now happily married with a kid, all pictures and previous chats have all been deleted.. but I still think about her on a daily basis… and after reading that you may be surprised that I was the one who ended the relationship with her…
We dated for just over a year, back in 2013
I was 24 Jessica was 21, We met on tinder we were both looking for a relationship not just the one night stand/fuck buddies that tinder usually is for!
we went on a couple dates and was getting on really well with each other, then as we got to know to each other better we started talking about sex and the things we like… now I just assumed she was saying these things to me to just get me excited and for me to be more interested in her… but she used to say how much she enjoys giving blowjobs, obviously As a man in his 20’s I was reading this going “great marry me” but I didn’t quite realise how much she did enjoy it!! So here’s a couple examples of how i mean when I say it was so intense.
she still lived with her parents, I had a flat with a mate. We probably stayed round each others 3/4 times a week maybe 5 times on the odd occasions…. I got woken up with a blowjob every morning without fail!!… I would get woken up with a slow sensual blowjob she would then kiss up my body, Kiss me good morning and used to actually ask me how I wanted it… “”do you have you time for a slow blowjob or do you need me go fast hard and super sloppy”” Like it was her job to make me cum every morning!!, So the first couple of weeks when past. I was thinking I don’t even know how long she can keep this up for. I told my close friends about it who didn’t believe me at the time, so a couple months Passed by and I was still getting them(along with lots of sex) so I realised that maybe she wasn’t lying about how much she actually loved giving them!
So you might be thinking “oh it was just some morning blowjob which turned into sex”…. nope it was morning blowjob where I cummed in her mouth every morning and she always swallowed never missed a drop! Afterwards she would come in cuddle then we would occasionally have morning sex, (which was amazing, I’ll get into that more later) anyway this was back in the day when I could go 2x a morning!!
There were times when I was awake in the mornings before her, so obviously I would go down on here to surprise her, but sometimes I would be checking work emails and doing work on my phone, when this happened she was almost disappointed that I was awake before her, she would just say “it’s ok do what you need to do on your phone” while sneaking under the covers to blow me! Usually I would love to watch her as she always gave intense eye contact, So there I am trying to concentrate writing emails, her head bobbing under the covers, this was about 6 weeks in and I was thinking to myself yeah this isn’t normal, but obviously loving it!!
So time went on.. 3-4 months still morning blowjob after blowjob It was getting to the point when I was then starting to think, is she doing this to keep me or because she thinks I like it or is it that she actually just really enjoys giving blowjobs, I was over thinking all of it which sometimes lead to me not being able to cum or losing my hard on, she found this highly offensive… and would get upset with me over it, saying “am I doing something wrong what do I need to do, I’ll change my techniques, what if I talk dirty to you at the same time” then I just had to be honest and ask… “ your blowjobs are insane but I just need to know do you do because you think I expect it or do you do because you generally like doing it” she literally replied “your not the first bf to ask me this, I generally love giving blowjobs it’s all I think about doing, if someone said to me give up sex or blowjobs I would give Up having sex it’s a no brainier, if I don’t make you cum in the mornings like this morning, It will be on my mind all day at work” her saying that got me a little turned on, when she saw me get hard again the look and smile of happiness on her face, and back down she went… swallowed and said “thank you” like wtf that is not normal but I found it such a turn on knowing she absolutely loved it! and I thought just maybe this this girl is one in a trillion!!
It wasn’t just the mornings I got blowjobs, I got random spontaneous blowjobs all the time!! driving, cinema, watching films at home, If I was on my desk working… under she goes.
One time when we were at her parents who would be in the kitchen or there snug, and we would be in the lounge watching a film, she would just randomly go down on her knees, i would say “”not here!! You can’t”” she would literally say things She knew I loved hearing “but I need it” as she’s pulling down my joggers… would bite her lip and lick her lips saying “I need to suck on your cock” so there I was getting a blowjob by there only daughter in the room nextdoor knowing they could walk in at anytime, luckily they never did!!
Her parents went away once for a few weeks and FaceTimed her while I was there, so obviously we sat down while both chatting to them, Jessica goes “I just need to nip to the loo” nope she just went under the table! So I was there trying to have a conversation with them while they daughter is blowing me, going at it! Really Wet blowjob , hand twisting action all the stuff she knows makes me cum quickly. I’m trying to hide the noises she’s making asking her parents lots of questions hoping they will keep talking.. anyway I managed to cum without out any face expression just a cough,, She gets up sits back down but doesn’t say anything just smiles while her parents finish telling us there story, couple mins go past, and they ask her a question.. then she takes a big gulping swallow… she basically just kept my cum in her mouth while chatting to her parents!
I was obviously living with my best friend who knew all what was going on.. he could hear everything. He would come home be like why is the mirror in the lounge?
I would have to say, because she knows how much I love her arse, so perched a mirror there bent over and gave me a blowjob, so I could watch her and the tv.. he would shake his head and just “mate who is she, that’s crazy”
I once got a message from her something like this we were like 9 months in
“just saw something online how much do you think you cum 3-4ml is average,I’m sooo bored at work and thought I’d work out how much cum I’ve swallowed, so I say we spend Roughly 5 days a week together, that’s 20 times a month so like 180blowies then the random 2 blowies a week so that’s like so that’s another 70ish then we have sex like 3times a week average, so that’s like 108 so I reckon I’ve swallowed easier say 360 loads. So if you cum like 3-4ml I could have swallowed like between 1-1.4litres of cum, no wonder I’m putting on weight”……. that was just who she was! You also might wonder why Is she counting sex as “swallows” she used to either jump off and take me in her mouth (when she was in control) when I was in control I used to cum inside her… then she when basically eat my cum from her pussy! And literally suck my cock clean! I’ve never ever met anyone like her.
I know I’m mentioning blowjobs a lot but it was a huge part of our relationship, Ive had previous partners who obviously give blowjobs and sometimes you can just tell she’s only doing it as a form of foreplay to lead to sex. Jessica never had any expectations of sex she was doing it because she absolutely loved it. The look in her eyes of just pure pleasure she was getting from giving me a blowjob just was insane, imagine the best blowjob performance on pornhub and times it by ten, I know because I’ve tried to find a video of someone giving a blowjob with the such passion as she did and I can’t!
I got to the stage where I was struggling with work, I was getting constant reminders of sex from her… pictures everything, she was always on my mind. I almost got addicted to her!
So must blokes have the odd wank when in relationships, when I dated her I never had the urge, mainly because I knew I would have blowjobs sex random times, I never had the urge too.
the sex.. was amazing.. we always mixed it up, always made it exciting we did it everywhere, she never said no… parents bed, car, outside on walks, garden, pool, changing rooms, work, everywhere! Amazing positions! Just the best sex! Spontaneous and just really passionate. But like drugs I suppose you always chasing for more, so that’s when we would take more risks, she wanted to be caught!
Changing room sex she would walk out with cum over face.. we were at my friends wedding… off to the bathroom, walk out with cum dripping down her leg. It was just the most filthy sex that you dream of! We spoke about our fantasies and I was lucky enough to do then all..
My 2 favourites
I was telling her that would do anything to watch her with another girl, we were sat watching some tv as we were talking about it, she was asking what I would you want to see her do, I was explaining it all I detail I was getting hard, so she started wanking me and asking me more and more, then she climbs on riding me while saying all the things I would have them do, I cum so much she was “fuck this needs to happen” so got her phone downloaded tinder, and was just searching for women, right infront of me, we were swiping together, I said you sure you want to do this, she said yeah why wouldn’t I, It got you so turned on” she was a stunner so got like 300 marches in less then a week, she had a message which she copied and pasted to everyone saying smithing like
“Im going to be honest and straight to the point I’m in a relationship with a guy, his fantasy is to watch me with another girl, I’ve never been with A girl before but Uber excited, one condition, it’s one time only and he will be in the room watching/directing us if this isn’t your thing I completely understand and unmatch me, if not say hi”
That went from 300 to about 15.
Chatted to one for a few weeks and she was gorgeous! She was gay not interested in me which I was fine about. So the night come when she came over and wow she looked incredible, so off to the bedroom wewent, both got in sexy black lingerie, started kissing and I was just instantly hard! Started going down on each other, toying each other, I was Jessica to bend this girl over so she was looking at me while Jessica rimmed her!! While both looking at me.. For the first time in my life i cum in my pants without touching myself!
They sat on each other’s faces… 69… everything possible, it went on for what seemed like 2hours, they chilled for a bit and she left.. when she left Jessica come over to me on the bed of just used toys, kissed me and I could taste this other girl on her lips and remember saying “fuck I can taste her on you” so she gave me her fingers to suck… yeah tasted incredible!
I had to laugh and say I actually cum in my pants, she laughed and pulled my boxers down laughter and licked licked my legs and sucked my cock we had amazing sex, she was on top of me, and she grab the toys and started sucking all this random girls juices it was like nothing I’ve ever seen before! I felt like I could die happy!
The next fantasy we tried was a MFF threesome! I wanted to basically see Jessica eat my cum from another girls pussy, she was a little unsure because she wasn’t sure how she would feel watching me fuvk another girl, but was still excited. Same again on tinder, same sort of message.. and we found this 20yr called poppy, really petite very tanned brunette, god knows how it was possible but had 36dd so firm, I can remember taking her bra off and they didn’t even drop.. that sort of firm!! Even Jess was In ore of them.
So we went for a couple drinks with her, she was very confident for a 20yr, and got on really well, so back to hotel where the best night of my life happened, all had some drinks so where a little tipsy, I can remember everything minute by minute… I won’t bore you with all the details, I’m not sure if Reddit has a word count. Anyway, I had double blowjobs, I was having poppy sitting on my face while Jessica blew me… I had them both bent over and I was eating there arses…I dipping my cock between both of them, and I getting Jessica to suck Poppy’s Juices off my cock.. I was getting getting then in 69… fucking and dipping between mouth and pussy, so the time come when I was close to cumming, poppy at this stage was so red cheeked and properly fucked, so bent her over Jessica was underneath her, i was really pounding her, Jess was sucking her clit and all of a sudden she squirted, and just fell on Jessica, I was shocked, Jess was soaked and in shock, poppy was embarrassed and I can remember just all laughing and just getting back on with it,, I cum in poppy, real big load I grunted which I’ve never done before, I remember my cock pulsating in her, so I slowly pulled out and Jess was there straight away, lips of sucking cum out,, then licking it all up!! Wet hair amazing! We then all showered together, and said to poppy it’s ok if you want to stay the night, which she did, so I was the middle with this random girl who had the best tits I’ve seen pressed against me. Jessica wasn’t really a cuddly in bed But poppy was so I had my arm over her m and I was cupping her boobs, because I’d never seen boos like that before, Jessica wasn’t properly awake at this time, I could feel Poppy’s hand going down, already hard and she started wanking me, she whispered in my ear, would Jessica care if I fucked you,.. I just said absolutely not, so she got on top which startled Jess who turned round to poppy on top Leaning back just slowly grinding on me, she had this most sexy rhythm to her, I looked at Jess who was a little shocked but at the same time was slightly turned on watching her, she laid next to me with her hand on my chest, She didn’t say anything, or got involved at all, poppy then leaned forward, hand on the head board and her boobs in my face which I couldn’t not suck on, she looked at Jess and said can he cum in me, like it wasn’t down to me, it took a while for Jess to say anything, she just said sure, in a sleepy state, which I thought was odd, but I didn’t care with her on top of me. So I grabbed her arse and as I cum I’m her, she gently rode me and got got off me abs let the cum leak over my cock,, I looked at Jess thinking will see do her usually thing and clean me up, but she didn’t, it was the first time I had seen her like that, so I knew something was right, poppy went off for a shower got ready and left, never say her again, although I did try when we broke up.
I would never ask a girl about anal as I would never want to make someone, who like her never says no, do something they might not want to do, anyway we were probably few months in, she had a key to my flat, I come home not expecting her to be there, as I thought she was going out with her friends, I walk into my room, she’s in this most sexy black lingerie (size 8 Uk 34c tonned) stockings and holds up with no knickers on , bent over on my bed, wiggling her little bum at me with this butt plug in!! I literally just dropped my jaw and everything, in my hands. I will never ever forgot that.
She looked back at me and did her classic little cheeky look along the sexy lip bite,, I was hard in seconds, so I went over to her, hands on her perfect little peachy arse, which was all shiny and lubed up, she was seriously tight, and she absolutely loving it… I was taking it slow as it was her first time but I could tell she wanted me to go deeper and harder, she was almost backing on to me, all of a sudden she had the most intense orgasm where her whole body just trembled and her legs gave way and fell flat on her stomach, which I had never seen before and she had never experienced either, I didn’t really know what to do… she rolled over and I will never forget the look on her face, she literally got over to me, started sucking my cock (which all blokes know ass to mouth is pornstar thing) she was sucking me while trying to get her breath back while also saying you need to fuck my arse!! She lays me down puts more lube and she turns around as she know I love her arse, and literally just squat fucks the life out of me! Seeing the little arsehole I’m dreamed out fucking just talking my cock… It was the most intense cumshot of my life… and like always, she takes my cock out, let’s my cum drip out… then turns around licks and sucks me clean… absolute filth!!
So you may be thinking what happened and why didn’t I marry her! So I’m just mentioning all of the most amazing times of my life with her there was also a lot of hard times to specially later in the relationship.
Being 24 I would be out with my mates and occasionally have to cancel seeing her as my mates had decided to go out. This didn’t go well she didn’t take news like that very well at all, I would get call after call, loads of messages, then the next day she would do something incredible to say sorry, like dress up in most sexy lingerie, do a striptease or just a massage with a happy endings…
Sometimes I just wasn’t in the mood.. and couldn’t necessarily stay hard or I couldn’t cum, this also didn’t go down very well and would cause arguments.. “am I not doing it right” “why can’t you cum” and me not cumming really offended her, which made so much pressure for me,
I can remember one time We were having anal sex which was my absolute favourite thing ever, but I went soft, the look on her face completely changed, she just went into a different person, instead of saying, look it’s ok she literally she tried everything.
to get me hard again, I just had to say I couldn’t I’m sorry, but she just ignored me.. she start talking dirty, saying all the things she wanted to do which usually works, whispering in my ear, “cum in my arse” which usually just makes me cum, but I just wasn’t in the mood… She got up slammed the door, stormed into the bathroom slamming that door, my flat mate gets woken up, comes out and asked “what’s the matter” .. I had look in him in the face without laughing and say “she given me 3 blowjobs today and now I can’t cum in her arse”, he laughed shock his head and went back to bed..
I got her out the bathroom and asked what was all that about… she thought I was cheating on her.. and I didn’t find her sexy enough to cum,I was just in shock that she could even think that, we spent so much time together having sex it was near impossible to have thoughts about anyone else, I wasn’t even wanking!!
I said how I was struggling to keep up with it all and how I found it to intense, we had a good chat, and I managed to calm her down,we chatted till about 4-5 in the morning.
None of my friends or my sisters got on with Jessica, so it made social life really difficult. My friends girlfriends would all meet up but never invite her, all these things are a strain on relationship.
so I had the dreaded chat with her, still unsure about if I was doing the right thing or not. I had to just keep reminding myself of just the bad things. She didn’t take it well at all.
So I’ll be honest I’m quite a weak man and I couldn’t stop seeing here! she used to message me some amazing things Which No man could say no too.. pictures of her with a butt plug in, the most sexy lingerie sets, videos.
She obviously got another key cut, and sneaked in about 4 in the morning one night and just got into bed which absolutely freaked me out, but just went under the covers.. Going from a blowjob ever day to nothing, I felt like I had built up an addiction And I couldn’t stop her.. I was in trouble!
So decided to throw myself in the deep end and thought maybe if I dated someone else it would take my mind off things.. nope it definitely didn’t, Jessica some how found out and messaged me saying “”does she do the things you like”” with a long list of the most filthy things, Which obviously she didn’t!
So that’s when it started that I couldn’t cum with this new girl, that relationship didn’t last long… back to Jessica for the reminder of what I was missing… going from her pussy to arse.. arse to mouth… back to arse,, back to l seeing her sucking my cum covered cock clean… just things that normal girls don’t do!! But with that came more drama and my friends started to noticed that I was struggling..
my friends had a “intervention” we deleted all my social media’s, they blocked her, deleted all the pictures videos.. everything from her, changed the locks! My number, And went away on a lads holiday, I was still struggling and still couldn’t cum.. I was getting more and more frustrated and was really struggling, that’s when my friend suggested seeing someone to talk about it.
It took me about 5-6months to get slightly back to normal. I find that sex isn’t the same now, I don’t wank, I can’t watch porn.
I dated a few girls who were lovely but I found I was turning into a complete arsehole! My therapist advised me that I should date for a few weeks before sex, which worked well As I was finding I was excited to have sex with her which is what I needed, but eveyone knows sex with a new person can sometimes take a couple times to get good,
one girl was promising.. good blowjobs, high sex drive, one time I pulled out to cum in her mouth and was like “absolutely not” I was in shock and was like why not “she just said I don’t swallow cum” I got dressed and walked out.
Another girl was absolutely useless at blowjobs, I left her..
One girl who amazing, my parents loved her, so did my friends and sisters, the sex was good, she had no trouble just giving me a blowjob and swallowing! Was a bit shy, didn’t really like me going down on her which was annoying, she felt self conscious which gave me warning signs, she was cheeky tho with texts so thought she just needs to come out her shelf a bit, I got some sexy lingerie, she wouldn’t wear it, felt uncomfortable which annoyed me I was close to ended it with her but thought well if she does anal I’m willing to sacrifice over stuff, she had this perfect smooth little arsehole, she was bent over and I pulled out as I had to rim her.. I literally got my tongue on her arsehole for a second and she when “no no no! Wow thanks for ruining that for me, and just got her knickers back on, I was fuming! I said “what your not even willing to try it? Would you even do anal? She said absolutely not and rolled over So I regret saying what I did but I needed to say it to realise I still needed help.
I said “ your a fucking bore! My ex did everything! I was fuvking her arse, she was sucking me off after, I watched her eat my cum out of another girl, I got blowjobs every day! She couldn’t get enough of my cum and you can’t even do anything” I walked out abs never saw her again.
Had some more counselling and she suggested why don’t you talk to your next partner about Jessica and see if that helps, so this is when I met my wife. Sex was great! Great blowjobs, loved being eaten out, swallowed, did anal! Obviously not the volume of stuff that Jessica did but we had a much better connection, I decided to tell her all about the above. She replied with “wow I wish I could had joined in and laughed she said I consider myself to have a high sex drive, I can’t do all the things she did but now I know I can be as open as possible with you.” I knew I had to marry her, she asked one thing tho, “do you ever think about her when your with me” I obviously had to say no, when the truth is I close my eyes and imagine it’s Jessica all the time!
We have a beautiful son who I love more than anything in the world, but As I said before I don’t feel like I’m a strong willed man, And I’m absolutely petrified that I’m going to see her randomly again, my best friend who I lived with at the time and was my bestman at my wedding also god father to my son, asked me if I saw her again or she messaged me and wanted to meet up would you, I had to say absolutely not, but I’m ashamed to say I would..
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