[F] I use my body to gain benefits

I did it back in college, where I let a teacher fuck me just to pass the class and I didn’t enjoy it… yes maybe I got wet or so because it was still a dick fucking me but I hated the man and I was so un attracted to him but back then it felt like my only chance to pass..

But doing it, and using my body to gain benefits kinda started a trend in my life that I don’t really enjoy … like whenever I had issues with someone or needed to gain something I would think back at how easy it was when I let him use me … and I would give in a take the easy route of letting someone use me for benefits …

I did it with few teachers , I tried it in a lot of job opportunities or any promotion or in cases where It could help me escape trouble or so…

Whenever I felt like the man in front of me can be persuaded by me letting him use me .. that I can gain something or it can be alot easier if I let him… I just do it

Of course it didn’t always work.. I would get ignored or sometimes they wouldn’t catch the hints… or even sometimes they use and still not follow up on their promises because they are pricks..

I just end up letting those men that I dislike or find unattractive or just find weird , I let them use my body in order to gain benefits… and I feel disgusting after , I lose self respect and I don’t think any of them have respect for me either …

But i can’t stop myself from taking the easy route after already doing … it’s like what’s the harm of doing it once more

Ive been doing it for 5 years now, finding my self in someone’s office or car or under his table, servicing them so I can end up gaining something while they can just enjoy my body..

I felt like sharing it here cause I’m bored and I’m not looking for sympathy or anything because I made those choices and take full responsibility, and I keep making them , I just felt bored and thought people would wanna ask questions or chat on it here !

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/q9jnl9/f_i_use_my_body_to_gain_benefits

6 comments

  1. Can you talk more about how you feel about yourself and if there are ways in which you feel lacking or unsupported? I know someone who’s had a similar experience as you and I’ve never been able to really understand how I can be supportive. I don’t think there’s anything particularly wrong about using one’s body to gain something, except for the feeling disgusted with yourself part. How does one solve that?

  2. Your not alone in doing that. Right after high school my wife went for an interview for a waitress job at a small family owned local diner. She let the much older married owner fuck her bareback on his couch in his tiny back room office to get the job. She only kept the job for about 6 months, but she was on her back in that little room at least once a week or more if that’s what he wanted.

    In 1974 minimum wage was $2.00 an hour, and because of tips, waitresses got even less than that. So for about $1.50 an hour, my wife was getting pumped on a regular bases.

    Not surprisingly, I love that she fucked just to get a job…… very very hot.

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