[MF] My feelings after my first cuckold experience with my girlfriend

So last week , it was my first time watching my gf getting fucked by a bigger and buffer man. Since the start of our relationship, she always hinted at it and kinda had kinks and fantasies of me roleplaying some of her crushes or so ! She tried to push it a few time so we try it but I always refused it .. but last week it was her birthday and she was having a bad week so I kinda brought it up and it got her excited and 2 days later she already had contacted a guy and everything !

And the day came where I watch a strong buff man , handle my girlfriend in front of me , he was so in control of her and very dominant , he even made me help him hold her for him or open it or so on… I watched a man cum twice in then on my gf.. spent like an hour fucking her and foreplay and all, which I never did before with her.. I saw her orgasm harder than ever and she came 4 times during it .. I never saw her cum that much from just fucking and she was having the time of her life … and idk all of that made me jealous and hard at the same time that I ended up cumming like a pathetic boy while he laughed..

Now I just feel so weak and I feel like the dynamic has changed in our relationship.. it feels like she’s more in control and more dominant now and like I feel like maybe she don’t see me as manly as before ..

Even during sex I kinda always remember how he made her feel and I feel that I’m not good enough for her anymore .. I can’t make her cum anymore without eating her .. I feel like she will ask for it again and wants it to be a regular thing but I don’t know I’m jealous but I can’t blame her for wanting something that makes her orgasm better

I’m way weaker than him and worse .. and now I feel that I’m even weaker than her .. specially cause I came so hard watching her getting fucked so hard

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/q7x2y3/mf_my_feelings_after_my_first_cuckold_experience