I [F] am crushing hard on my boyfriend’s friend [M] and dreaming of a hatefuck

So there is this man, a friend of my boyfriend, who I have a bit of a schoolgirl crush on. Someone who’s older, taller, cooler, and who I thought hated me. It felt like he avoided me as dropped out of a rpg campaign I’m also part of, and hasn’t visited my boyfriend in a long time (though they had a weekend together last month).

But now, he has said yes to the whiskey tasting, and I’m so happy to see him! I know he has some issues, like a general dislike for women after being left behind with a child and is very introverted. Even if the world has been unkind to him, I really want him to be happy and able to participate in events he’s interested in. As the other organizer of the whiskey tasting, I had a talk with my BF about how to make the event less exhausting for the friend (they’ve been friends for over 20 years, so they should know each other well). I mentioned that I believe he hates me, that I might be annoying to him, and my BF looked confused. “No, he has just had his own issues to deal with. More like he’s just a bit confused seeing you, a submissive girl who’s cute and kind, or he is jealous,” he said with a shit-eating grin, “but he definitely doesn’t hate you, never said anything to that extent, just surprised by how young you actually are and how nice you try to be everytime.”

Now I’m confused. I had this fantasy of him hatefucking me after whiskey tasting, a violent consensual non-consent scenario where he finally snaps, spanks me over his knee, fucks me while pinning me down to a sofa, maybe preferring to fuck my ass so he doesn’t have to look at my face. Maybe he could get all his emotions out through me, maybe he could sort his feelings for me out through a good fuck. My boyfriend likes to ask me to please his friends, or more like order, I’m his pet and sub. I wouldn’t put it past him to order me to please him, to submit to his friend. We’re in an open relationship, and I’m a huge flirt, especially when drunk, so I’m trying to figure stuff out before the event. I may just ask him if he wants me to keep my distance, or see if he wants to push me down and deepthroat me. An actual, better friendship would be nice, but we’ll see.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/ppnskx/i_f_am_crushing_hard_on_my_boyfriends_friend_m