So I’ve been struggling with sexuality and shame for like, a week at least now? Like, the type of “literally cannot sleep” shame. Over femdom/pegging kink.
Anyway, she’s a pretty bossy person, right. At this point, I don’t even know if this is a good thing or not. I “hate” it, but deep down, I guess I could be secretly turned on by it?
So, she doesn’t like it when I haven’t shaved in a while right, as it itches and irritates her when it rubs against her when cuddling or whatever (don’t blame her tbh, beard on skin generally doesn’t feel nice if it’s pretty short which mine usually is). So, I go in for a cuddle with her, and she forcefully says “NO! You’ve got to shave first!”. Then, I don’t even know how to explain it, there’s this gaze we have (my head is just coincidentally below hers, I’m like looking up at her which I find hot as part of femdom) and I’m like holy shit I feel like her pet right now. That only lasts like 1-2 seconds, but honestly it feels like minutes, before I realise I actually have to do what she says to get my reward. So I jump out of bed and shave ASAP.
Also there’s other things she wants me to do, that normally she should be doing, since she just came home from a long shift. Normally I’d be really annoyed by this but holy shit now I feel like her slave so I do them.
Later, she’s like “Why did you shave so fast?” (Cause I don’t really like shaving and find it annoying). And in my head I’m like because you ordered me mistress ;)
Keep in mind, she’s an extremely vanilla person in terms of sex (so far anyway). So none of this was planned out in her head or anything, probably just pissed off at my beard. But I found it fucking hot as shit.
I do actually have to bring up my kink to her soon. I tried once but the shame just overtook me and I couldn’t explain it properly. I was actually going to do it yesterday since I was drunk, but then I’m like “no this is not a good idea to explain when drunk”. Maybe this could be a starting point as an example and explanation? Idk.
Anyway sorry for the rambly post, I’ll delete if stupid which it probably is.
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/oylth5/my_girlfriend_did_something_small_and_non_sexual
How long have you been dating? I don’t think you have to spill how much you like it all at once. Just start responding positively when she tells you to do things.
Btw, someone else commented here, but it’s not showing up. Either shadow banned or spam prevention (maybe new account flagged for manual review). Message me what you were going to say if you want