Part1
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She cried many times about how afraid she was of him the only reason she stayed in the job was of the loans she and her husband had and the fact getting a new job was difficult . She would cry in my lap when ever we met in private and talk about all that she wanted to.
I was extremely upset about what I put her through as she was guilty of having sex outside her marriage with me . The interaction later on which both of us had were just professional and talk’s between us was purely related to work later on.
The next time we had sex was probably after 3 months atleast , after the Singapore trip and that was when I was going through a tough phase in my family life which led to messing up my career with multiple mistakes I had made in work because ,I could not focus on work at all and there where people that wanted me out as well. It got to a point where I had thought about leaving everything and vanishing somewhere leaving my family behind.
After the Singapore trip in which we had sex for the first time it took both of us sometime to sink in what we had really done. I never had the courage to ask her for sex because I know for a fact she has a wonderful family, a caring husband and above all that she is happy with her life.
I couldn’t even talk to others and wanted to be alone . Multiple arguements and fights in my family life affected my work life a lot . I was someone who was always approachable in the company compared to other seniors and I still am the same . Most of my colleagues would come to me if their work was not credited or if they were facing any issues in the office whether it’s my division or not did not matter.
I would be the first one they speak to but because of my behavioral change I could sense, good number of people would not speak to me apart from purely work reasons.
The anger issues I had many years ago started coming back again because of the tough times I was going through, . In my college days I was labeled as the most notorious student although my reasons for anger was always for the right reasons which only a few understood back then. I could sense the same anger in me after ages. Majority of them who noticed the difference in my behaviour did not talk much to me apart from Ann she knew something was wrong and that I was messing up my life she stood with me during that phase and she was the only person whom I would confide in and the only person that kept me sane during those crazy times.
Probably its from these times I understood how much emotionally attached I am to her.
I wanted to keep her away from me as I could not hurt her again as I knew she was guilty of what happened between us. I put her in another division purposely so she wouldn’t have to see me much or deal with me much . Knowing about the change that happened she asked why did I do that.. I just said the division was understaffed and you would be a good fit there . She knew that was a lie and asked me if I was ok. I cried and said her she should not talk to me much as it would make me get closer to her each time and I would hurt her again, that was the only solution I could think of .
My intention was to make her safe from me and not to slip in towards her more. But as I moved her to the other division, she got more closer to me and that week with all the sadness I was going through. She took me to her place made food for me as her husband wasn’t there that day and talked to me and told me to relax and not overthink about all the issues I have been facing.
She kissed me and said in the most calming voice that whenever I feel low I must talk to her and she would be there always to hear me out.
She closed all the curtains in the home and I asked her what’s happening she said me come to the bedroom and although I was hesitant , I knew I badly wanted her and all I could think was of having sex with her . In no time we both were naked and started to feel each other and in a few minutes we were fucking. As we were having sex it felt all my problems had vanished .
In those few hours we had sex multiple times and although I wanted her again and and again it had to end as it was getting late. There are times when I feel I should not have met her at all because of what I have put her through. With Ann each time I have sex there is passion in it and definitely lust . With rest of the women it’s just lust with her each time we have sex it always passionate sex.
Each time we had manage to have sex it is special we forget about what we really are and all we could think of is sex.
What makes Ann special compared to the other women or people I have met over my lifetime is . She is the most kind person I have known , her nature of helping others and the selfless women she is has made me attract to her more. Her kindness and selfless nature is why I keep an eye on her so no one takes advantage of her character to benefit them , working in the corporate world kindness has no value .
The bastard that tried to harass her never managed to get a job until today . He came begging to me to forget everything and let him live but I will make sure he suffers although his wife doesn’t have a job it’s tough for them but that won’t let me have sympathy for him. Even if Ann forgives him I will never. He had managed to get job thrice but because of my clients whom I mentioned in my previous post he could never stay in those jobs. .
With rest of the women they wanted me and I took my time to yield in but with Ann I always wanted her . I share a warm bond with her husband now . Especially after he came to know of the harrassment his wife had faced and I was the one that helped her there that has got both our families together. Her husband considers me as an elder brother. Although others don’t know about what we had done it will remain a secret as long as possible. I still talk to her whenever I feel low in my life and her words has the strength to calm me and make me feel there is nothing wrong in my life.
I don’t know if I would continue to have sex or not outside marriage my guilt has definitely increased seeing my wife and I can’t look Into her eyes like before and I am definitely extremely vulnerable around her. I still love her dearly but the lack of sex inspite of me being patient , for a long time talking to her , Doing the things she love , and initiating sex most of the times and still understanding and accepting the fact that sex was still not much between us made me cheat, and after lockdown and work from home during the first month we had sex more like how we used to fuck back when we had a good sex life. I believe we had sex 3-4 times that month which was definitely after ages we had sex twice a month , and it’s normal now once in many months , I started to feel more guilty about what I had done in the last 5 years .
I keep asking myself is sex important to me and each time I say yes to myself . There are days when I lock myself in the bathroom for sometime and cry without making any sound . My sex drive has been the same for many years inspite of me growing old and I know I would still have sex outside marriage if I get a chance .
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/opc6wk/helping_a_woman_from_a_toxic_work_environment