18[F] My Awakening (Last Update)- Suppressed Sexuality of a Homeschooled Christian Girl

This is the last update from my family Mexico trip!

Background: If you already read the previous updates you may know that before November 2020 I was completely shut off from my own sexuality and desires. I was raised in a strict Christian (evangelical) household, and also homeschooled; so my family had complete control of all my social interactions and the content I consumed. In November, we took a family trip to Mexico, where I was left to my own devices at the resort for hours on end for the first time, and I discovered a side of myself that I had no idea existed. After a revelatory experience orgasming for the first time after discovering the pool water jets, I was overcome with feelings and desires I did not know how to control. So I ended up going a little crazy giving 2 handjobs to strangers…

The guy I followed back to his room to give a handjob to ended up being married…a reality that I quickly had to confront the next day, when I was sun tanning on the side of the same pool he pulled me away from. He showed up around the same time I met him there the day before, but this time not alone. He had the nerve to show up with his wife.

I distinctly remember being so shaken up and upset by their sudden appearance that I was just about to go over and slap him. However, I managed to refrain myself knowing fully well that if I was to act upon it, my parents, who were laying down right beside me, would start asking a lot of questions. I would have gotten my own whooping if they found out what I had done…and probably more

Instead, I laid down and watched them through my sunglasses… At his direction, they set up camp right across the pool from us, in the shade…some 30 feet away. He even had the nerve to wave to us as they were settling down. They seemed very happy and cheery. His wife was extremely beautiful, with a gorgeous body who by all accounts rivalled mine. I am not sure if the guy had a type…but his wife and I looked more alike than I do with my own sister.

For the next 10 minutes I was just obligated to watch them apply sunscreen on each other. He may have been just a stranger I gave a handjob to, but he was one of only 2 guys I had touched… and the only one I had actually seen…and I somehow felt connected to him. I spent the 10 minutes feeling sick to my stomach, not being able to decide whether I was feeling awful and ashamed for the day before, jealous and upset, afraid that my parents would find out..or maybe all those things at once.

Once they were done applying sunscreen, his wife leaves to disappear into one of the washrooms, and I see him looking over from the lawn chair directly across. Without even thinking about it, I reach down between my legs and pull my bathing suit to the side- letting him have a view of my pussy. Maybe he couldn’t see much from that distance…or maybe he just wanted a better view…because he gets up, jumps in the pool, and quickly swims over to our side without hesitation.

“Hi. Do you folks happen to have the time?” My heart stopped. He spoke directly to my dad. His voice immediately made me wet. While mom started looking for her phone in her bag to tell him the time, I got up myself and went into the pool to get as far as possible from my family…and hopefully make him follow me.

I did not stop swimming until I made it to the far end of the long curving pool. As I look back, I see him already swimming towards me. My pussy was skipping beats at the thought of what he would be willing to do given how daring he had been to that point. As he reaches the end of the pool where I am, he stops. We are standing side by side, with our backs against the pool wall.

“Hey cutie. What are you trying to do to me?” he says smiling, his right hand reaching out to my ass underwater. He squeezes me and I freeze…again. Too worried to say or do anything with my family just 120 feet away. He seems to not care or waste any time however, as his left hand was already trying to pull down his swim trunks.

All of the sudden he stops. Slowly moves away from me, putting some space between us. I look over and follow his eyes…they were locked onto his wife walking back to their spot. He fixes his trunks swiftly …and swims away in a hurry.

I was left there …with my pussy throbbing and pulsing, aching for more. I had no choice but to turn around and let the water jets work their magic on my body once again, careful to not let myself give away what I was doing.

After another mind blowing but frustrating orgasm, I swam over to my family, picked up my stuff and excused myself back to the room on the pretext I was not feeling well. Another shameful walk alone to the room. That was the last time I saw the guy, but the events that day opened me to a different side of these newly found sexual desires, realizing my own vulnerability and how easy I could get hurt by the very game I had created.

The rest of the trip was relatively mild as I processed everything I had done, how I was feeling, and what I wanted for myself going forward.

It has been 7 months since, and I have come a long way…with a lot of self development, exploration, and growth since. Unfortunately, at home I am under the careful watch of my family so I am very much still a virgin…but I have recently learned just how much I enjoy getting guys to cum for me. To get you off is honestly my biggest turn on, and I love doing it by letting my exhibitionistic side shine through. There are even more updates if you are interested and made it through this block of text haha…

Xoxo,
Adeline ?

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