Why I loved my ex. [anal, a2m]

What can I say about my ex? She was pretty worthless. Perpetual sub parr student. Always working some shit retail job. A real consistent under achiever. I paid for everything. Sure, she had jobs and made a little money. Minimum wage doesn’t really pay for shit. I tried to push her to try harder, to get a better job. But I never pushed hard. It’s not really until we weren’t a thing anymore that I realized why. After I had enough self reflection.

See, the thing about Kathy, is that she was super insecure. She knew she didn’t have anything to offer. And she could never shake the feeling. That she owed me more. That she couldn’t match what she was given. In every way. She couldn’t treat for dinner. Fuck, she couldn’t even cook dinner. She couldn’t give me more thoughtful gifts than I could give her. Never mind the money even. She was just a shitty gift giver.

I’m sure you see it coming. The sex. She must have been a great lay. But no. Sure, she wasn’t a bad fuck, but far from great. I gave that bitch more orgasms than she’ll ever have in the entire rest of her life. Hell, a good 20 percent of the time she didn’t even get me off.

This is the thing that I loved about Kathy though. It wasn’t what she could give me. Because she had nothing to give. It was what I could take from her. It was her never ending feeling of indebtedness. The first time I felt that feeling, that power imbalance, was in the bedroom. We were having a pretty normal fuck for us. I plowed her from behind for a while. That was the way she liked it most. She liked being fucked. I’d rub her asshole while fucking her from behind. Eventually when we fucked my thumb started making its way inside her ass. It got to the point that if I didn’t have it in there, she’d reach back waving her hand for it until I stuffed it in there. She’d never say it out loud though. She didn’t want to admit it. That she wanted me to stuff my thumb in her asshole. I loved that. After fucking her from behind I had her suck my dick and then she was back on top riding me. This is where I like her most, up until this point in our relationship. Her straddling me, rocking back and forth, grinding her cunt against me. I loved looking up at her and squeezing her tits. She had nice soft nipples I liked to pinch and pull on. I loved making her work it so long that she was a sweaty fucking mess. Moisture beaded up on her skin. I loved the way she clenched up when she would start to cum. She’d try to pull off me just a little. And she’d have to freeze every time she came. The sensitivity was too much for her. And of course, I just kept pounding away at her cunt while she pushed her hands against my chest, silently telling me she can’t take it anymore. I’d reach around her and hook my middle finger into her asshole while she creamed all over my cock. This time, like many other times, I wasn’t done, so asked her, for the first time ever, if I could fuck her in the ass. I’d never done it before, but always wanted to. She sat on top of me, shuddering and breathing heavy. One word, “ok”. The bitch was fucked senseless. I could have asked if I could murder her family and she would have just kept breathing heavily and said ok.

She composed herself and leaned forward. My cock, harder than it had ever been from the thought of fucking her in the ass, slid out of her cunt. She reached behind her, wrapped her hand around me, and leaned back, pushing it up against her asshole. Slowly, she pushed down on me, grunting and grimacing as she tried to take me inside her. I just squeezed her tits and watched her face as she tried to take me inside. I certainly don’t win any awards for longest dick at 7 inches, but it’s not my length that makes her cum over and over again. It’s my girth. And that’s also the same reason I never really thought anal was a thing I could do. And right then, she was feeling my girth more than she ever had before, and I was loving it. I loved that it hurt. I loved that she was taking so long to take my dick in her ass. I loved that her breathing was labored by it. I loved the pain on her face.

Her asshole was so fucking tight. She was pushing down hard before it finally opened and let me in. Barely more than the head of my cock was inside her when, “Baby, it hurts.” I looked up at her, her eyes were closed. “Just keep going. It feels so good.” She kept grunting as her ass slowly stretched open for me. I could feel every millimeter as it went in. And by the look on her face, I knew she did too. She eventually came to a stop, my cock fully inside her, and she caught her breath. “I can’t do this, it hurts too much.” My cock twitched inside her. I wanted to pound that hole so bad. “It’s ok, baby. You don’t have to.” “I’m sorry, baby.” She was apologizing to me for not being able to take the pain of my cock in her ass. My dick swelled at the thought. “It’s alright, don’t worry, baby.” I patted her ass as she slowly began to pull herself off of my dick until finally it fell from her ass.

She laid down against my chest and began to apologize profusely. “You didn’t even get to cum.” “Don’t worry, it’s fine.” She rolled off me and laid down next to me on her back. I was still breathing kind of heavy. “I feel bad. Do you want me to blow you?” “Are you sure you want to?” I said, knowing damn well I wanted it. I couldn’t fucking believe it. Sure, it was a pretty big fail as far as anal fucking her, but now she was gonna suck me off after having my cock up her ass. Fuck yes, I wanted her to blow me. She didn’t answer me. She just turned onto her side, bent down and put her mouth around my cock. I was expecting her to do the thing where they squeeze your dick and try to wipe it clean first, but she did exactly what I wanted. She opened her mouth and started to suck my filthy dick like a fucking whore. That’s right sweetheart, this is what every guy that looks in your direction really wants, you doing a fucking disgusting act for their pleasure alone.

Normally I like to grab the back of your head and make you gag on my cock or force it into your throat. I didn’t do it this time. The thought of her tongue licking up the filth from her asshole off of my dick was making my eyes roll into the back of my head. She was sucking and slurping that cock like it was any other day of the week. This is what she was good for. Tasting her ass on my cock. And I couldn’t be happier. It was hardly any time before I was getting ready to blow. “Get on top of me. I want to cum inside your pussy.” She did as she was told. She was jerking me off just until she started to slide onto me. I was barely inside when I started to cum, essentially pushing all my cum inside her as she came down on it. “Oh god, yes. That’s my girl. Take that cum.” She rocked back and forth on my cock, milking it all out. She kept going until I was empty. Then she climbed off and gave me a few more flaccid sucks.

The next night I was horny as fuck, having thought about the previous night all day long. I wanted more. Laying in bed I started to make out with her. She could feel my cock pressing into her hip. She reached down and started to stroke me. “Baby.” She whispered. “I really want to feel your cum in my ass.” This was the best moment in our relationship. It’s not that she was going to let me fuck her in the ass. It’s that I knew she didn’t actually want that. But there she was, jerking me off, and telling me that what she wants is what I want. Me fucking her up the ass until fill it with cum. My cock was hard as a rock. I pulled her shirt off over her head. She reached behind her back to undo her bra, and I put my mouth around her nipple while squeezing her tits as if I could make them burst into my mouth. I turned her around like usual and I bent her over. I grabbed my cock and slid it up and down, through her pussy lips. I started to shake it, pressed up against her clit until she started to moan and then I shoved it inside her. I grabbed both hips and began to pound her pussy hard. I stuck my thumb inside my mouth and lubed it up with my spit and began to rub her asshole with it. She started to moan immediately. “You want this cock in your ass so bad, don’t you?” I pushed my thumb inside. Her breath hitched and she gulped… “yes.” She whined it like a little brat. And then she started to cum. “You’re such a filthy whore. But you’re my filthy whore.” I twisted and shoved my thumb in deeper and she moaned. “Suck that fat cock, you fucking whore.”

She pulled herself from me and turned around. She started to suck my dick and I couldn’t take it any more. I peeled her off of me and turned her around again. I pushed her down on all fours and slid my cock between her ass cheeks, right up against her asshole. I wanted this. I wanted it bad. And I was gonna have it. I slowly eased my dick inside her. It was fucking incredible. The way her ring squeezed my cock. I slowly worked it. In a little, out a little, in a little bit more. I kept going until my balls were pressed against her cunt. Fucking ass is like having the entirety of your cock lovingly hugged tight while you’re fucking. I listened to her painful moans and I started fucking her. She buried her face into her pillow and I could hear her sobbing as I pumped away at her asshole. I can’t tell you just how hard my dick was. It felt like it was going to burst. “Are you ok, baby?” She pulled her head out of her pillow. “Yes, baby. I’m ok. It feels so good.” The sound of her voice said anything but that. “It hurts. Please finish.” That’s what her voice said. I know I should have stopped. It’s not that it felt too good to stop. It does. It feels amazing. But It was that I know she didn’t like it. I know it hurt. But I didn’t care. No, it’s not that I didn’t care. I liked it. I loved it. I loved making her hurt with my cock, and I loved that she wouldn’t stop me. I loved that I was stuffing my cock into her asshole and that she was muffling her sobs for me and crying into her pillow.

Half an hour later, I finally came. I came hard. She got her wish. I flooded her ass with cum. I slid my slimy cock out of her. She just stayed there hugging her pillow. I went to the bathroom to shower and clean her off of me. I’d never felt that good ever before. All I could think about was her there in bed. Her ass still sticking up in the air. Her asshole aching. Not able to tell me she didn’t like it. And let me tell you the best part. She will always remembered that night for the rest of her life. The night I split her ass open and she asked me to do it to her. The night she cried to herself while I was in the shower. Whenever any guy asks her to fuck her in the ass, she’ll think of me and that night.

I’ll be with her forever.

Source: reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/nv76kz/why_i_loved_my_ex_anal_a2m