Over the past year, I�ve been exploring my sexuality to an unprecedented degree, and in spite of what society warns us, I�ve never been happier. I have wonderful friends, some of whom are even happy to talk about my slutty predilections.
That being said, I feel like I am nearing a precipice. I find myself wanting to push the envelope more and more. For example, now that several of my boyfriend�s friends know about my open mindedness, I find myself fighting the urge to flirt more and fantasizing about being used as a release for their sexual frustrations. I fear that I am reaching the point where any more action on my part may lead to undesirable consequences, especially as these friends have relationships of their own. I try to at least be an ethical slut. Even so, my opportunistic brain can�t help but notice how easy it is to stoke desire at certain moments, and part of me wants so badly to cross the line. In the moment, sometimes I worry I can�t trust myself not to try. Thinking about it is both agonizing and delicious in equal measure.
I know I�m ultimately responsible for my actions, so I try to be sensible, but part of me is afraid that I�ll need increasingly salacious stimuli to satisfy me and that my desire will get the better of my attempts to behave considerately towards people who are in monogamous relationships.
If you guys have had similar inner turmoil about your slutty desires, I�d welcome any thoughts or experiences you�d like to share.
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/ms1sdf/my_addiction_to_being_a_slut_is_reaching_a
It is a tricky balance, seeking new stimuli and not giving into sex addiction. Ive blown up quite a few friendships and other peoples relationships at my worst. But I also think you kind of need to go through that sometimes to shake up your life.
There’s no real solution except finding a means of control.. Find the right friend group to go wild with or the right partner to throttle your desires a bit. Or get a different hobby. Idk.