My family moved here (US) a few years ago. I’ve always been very sheltered, I wasn’t even allowed to wear shorts and I’m always asked to cover up so I had a hard time with sexuality. My family is a very religious Hindu family so I grew up thinking that it’s wrong to do anything sexual.
I had a crush on my neighbor but he is not of my race so I felt like he won’t be interested in me because I often only saw him with girls of his own race. Recently we began to talk and he’s single. I thought we are going to be friends and I was satisfied with just that because he’s very sweet but he started giving me compliments, I went to his house and his family wasn’t home. He asked me sexual questions and I told him I hadn’t done anything, so he asked me if he can finger me.
I felt so turned on but I told him it was wrong to do and he said he’ll take care of me so he took off my panties and just rubbed me for a while. I was so embarrassingly wet and apologized to him about it because it felt like his hand was soaked and then he began to finger me.
His finger was too thick for me because I’m small, and he only used one finger because I was honestly crying a bit with how overwhelmed I was. He also told me that I was really tight so he won’t use more fingers for my first time.
He has told me that next time he is going to try with two fingers and I feel so guilty for anticipating that because I’m still sore but I really can’t wait!
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/mqx7b7/i_f_am_a_sheltered_indian_girl_and_i_got_fingered
I grew up in a super religious, conservative small town in the south, and we were taught from an early age how bad sex is. How wrong and dirty it is. My parents never talked to me about it, and I had to stumble through learning on my own. I hate that agenda was pushed on me all my life. I’m in my 40’s now, and only JUST NOW fully embracing my sexuality.
I think there’s nothing wrong with enjoying it. Nothing wrong with anticipating it. I wish you didn’t have to feel that guilt that I felt for so many years, because it’s as natural as breathing.
Good luck!
Sounds like he made you feel safe enough and let you see that it is ok to be sexual. I hope you come out of your shell and find the freedom to be who you are. Whether it is enjoying a lotta sex, or very little, it is ok as long as it is what YOU like (not something forced on you).
I really look forward to your next post! Have fun and enjoy yourself. Do what you’re comfortable with and what your mind and body desire. Don’t let your family restrict you in what you choose to do for yourself.
I’m glad that your first sexual experience was a positive one. It sounds like he is going to continue to be gentle with you and take things at a pace where you’re comfortable.
Please don’t feel embarrassment with how much natural lubrication your body is creating. That is the result of your intense arousal and is nothing to be ashamed of. That is your body preparing for penetrative sex.
Since you are small and you have a very tight vagina, it’s great that he is starting off with just one finger and isn’t trying to force his penis into you, because that would likely result in a lot of pain for you, much more than just one or two days of the nice kind of soreness you’re experiencing now.
There really isn’t any reason at all to think that a person outside of your race wouldn’t find you attractive. I am a Caucasian male and find women from all races to be attractive, and honestly women with darker skin and dark hair are my preference by far.
Go slow, practice safe sex to prevent pregnancy, and enjoy every single moment. You have the opportunity to embrace your sexuality and to let go of the misinformation and fear that your parents have tried to pass down to you that has stunted your sexual maturity up to this point.
Thank you for sharing your experience here.
I’m very happy that you were able to have a pleasurable experience even though you’re were taught not to think of your sexual desires. I would, however, like to caution you to take things slow with this guy and talk a bit more about what he’s expecting out of a friendship or relationship with you. Please make sure you’re on the same page mentally and emotionally before you take things further than foreplay.
In addition, take some time to explore yourself in the shower, or in bed when you’re alone. Learning how to pleasure yourself is a big plus in life.
Happy and safe exploring!
Thank you for sharing your story! I’m gonna be a dork and give you advice because I used to be a very awkward, sexually inexperienced person and I know what it’s like.
1, congrats on getting with your hot neighbor. Don’t be afraid to fool around with him more if you’re having fun.
However, don’t do anything you’re not comfortable with. You can stop at any time. If he can’t take “no,” then he’s a bad person.
> I was so embarrassingly wet and apologized to him about it because it felt like his hand was soaked and then he began to finger me.
2, Don’t be embarrassed about this ?. Not to speak for your neighbor but he probably found it exciting.
Consider this. If someone is sexual with you, they like vaginas. If they like vaginas, feeling their partner get wet from being fingered isn’t gross, it’s hot.
3, I would recommend reading /r/sex, they gave good advice to me when I was a virgin.
OP I came from the same background as you…and I fought against that kind of brain washing my entire life. Sex isn’t bad, what you’re doing is totally healthy. I’d just be careful, use contraception and don’t let your parents find out. That’ll probably just blow up. I assume you’re younger right now. Once you get a job and are able to move out on your own, you can have your own fulfilled sexual life.
Honestly having those urges to explore your sexuality and masturbating is all normal. Research has shown that its good for you to explore all of what you are feeling and its worse for you to not.
Good for you! I was a sheltered Christian who lost my virginity to the man I’m still with 12 years later. I hated myself for wanting more than him in my life. I hated myself for being bi. I hated myself for receiving oral sex the first time. Religion spreads lies about sex, it’s so much more liberating and wonderful to break those shackles and just be a good person who also likes sharing pleasure with other people. Kudos on your gone wild adventure
Have sex and live life a little. Enjoy all the brand new sensations.
Anyone else think the experience level and description here sounds like grooming?
Hope OP stays safe.
I have banged many a indian girl, especially the sheltered shy and tight types. Congrats lady!
Fuck yessss ❤️??
Religion only prevents you from being who you are.
Did you do pooja before starting the new adventure or not ?
How old are you?
RemindMe! 1 month