18[F] My awakening (Update 2.0) – suppressed sexuality of a homeschooled Christian girl

Let me start with a heartfelt “thank you” to the community here and everywhere else I’ve posted ❤️. I received an outpouring of support from people who have gone through similar situations, as well as tons of messages requesting updates from my journey. Through this experience I’ve been able to find myself a little more, connect with some really fun people, and learned just how much I enjoy getting you guys all amped up over my personal stories and photos of my body. I love it all xxoxox

UPDATE: As of my initial post, you’ll maybe remember that just back in November, as a fresh 18yro, I was out on a trip with family in Mexico on a resort. There, I experienced my first sexual awakening and realization of the pleasures of orgasms when I happened upon a very nice pool jet while being quite turned on having watched a good looking couple make out. Upon this discovery of my own sexuality I made a promise to keep exploring, wanting more of what I had missed out on.

Some of you may already know what I look like, and while I am self conscious about my looks because I’ve never really gotten much attention (never had a chance to…); back in Mexico on the resort I couldn’t help but notice all the guys staring at me when I was alone. So the very day after that initial experience with the water jets, I made a point of going off on my own to different areas than the rest of my family. I was on a mission to play up my sex appeal and see what guys will do. Since I was not allowed any provocative or sexy bathing suits, I improvised… I spent some time in front of the mirror adjusting my swimsuit bottoms, bunching them up between my cheeks to reduce the amount of cover. I also wetted them at the front and did something similar to let my camel toe shine through…just in case someone was daring enough to look. I even adjusted and tightened up my top to perky up my breast (even more than they are) in hopes of garnering increased attention.

Armed with a hypersexualized and confident look about me (contrasted by fear and nervousness on the inside that I was trying to hide), I set off on a walk around the resort. Slowing myself just enough to smile and give sexy eyes to any cute guys who couldn’t help but stare at my assets as I strut by. I was pretty impressed and happy with the reaction. From guys my age, to older guys my dad’s age and with their wives right beside me…most of them ensured they took a at least a quick glance at my body, some making more obvious, while some even catcalled me. It felt amazing knowing I could have that kind of effect on them.

However, shamefully enough, none of them manned up enough to stop me in my tracks and strike up a conversation. The upsetting part was that I had already decided that if any of them did, I would play along and propose to go back to their room. After the day before, I was horny and wanting to give someone…anyone…a handjob. I wanted to have a cock in my hand and learn what it feels like. I was also quite mesmerized with the idea of a guy cumming, and wanted to be the one to give that to someone. But that never happened…

After hours of strutting myself around like a little slut showcasing my body the best I could, I realized no man was going to make a move for whatever reason. So I went back to my original spot in the pool with the water jets. I was so horny by the point that it didn’t even matter that there were some people around. I figured I would do my best to hide it…and if any guys saw…maybe I’d actually get to accomplish my other mission for the day.

In the end, all I got was another mind blowing orgasm from the water jet after basically getting myself all amped up over acting like a little slut all day. I blushed like a tomato when I was done…and did my best to walk back to my room in shame to get ready for dinner with family.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/mh8z4e/18f_my_awakening_update_20_suppressed_sexuality