I did a vipassana silent meditation course in Indonesia a while back. Its basically 10 days of intense meditation with very strict rules. Getting up at 4am every morning, not eating any food after 11am, meditating for up to 12 hours a day, no speaking or even making eye contact with anyone, no distractions such as phones, music, reading etc allowed. And… no sexual activity including self pleasure!
Well, I took the course very seriously, I figured that if I was doing it, I wanted to give it my all. I managed to stick to all the rules. Well, nearly all of them…
I was staying in a little hut type thing with one other woman. Super basic, just a small room with two single beds in it (and they didn’t even have proper mattresses, which is apparently also part of the rules. You’re not meant to have too much physical comfort.) And a small shared bathroom off the hut. Of course me and the woman I was sharing with weren’t allowed to talk or interact with each other at all. From what I could see she was a westerner like me, and a little bit older than I am, maybe in her early 30s.
For the first few days of the course, I stuck to the rules religiously. Rising straight away every morning at 4am when I heard the wake up bell ringing outside my hut (literally someone who walks around ringing a bell to get everyone up) and going and sitting dutifully in the great hall, cross legged on the floor for hours at a time, doing my best to focus on my breathing. I coped fine with not eating anything all day after 11am – the rule that I had been most concerned about going in! And I never had the urge to break the rule of silence and try and talk to anyone, I felt quite content to sit with myself all day, in my own world, with no interactions with others.
However, after a bit of time passed, there was one rule I really began to struggle with. I’ve always had an especially high sex drive. I actually had my first orgasam when I was really young, before I even knew what it was. I just discovered that if I squeezed my legs together in a certain way I would get this pleasurable feeling. And now, as an adult, I masturbate regularly, normally a couple of times a day. And so going for several days without touching myself really began to nag at me.
My sexual tension began mounting up to almost unbearable levels. Especially without any other distractions, my mind just kept coming back to the desire to slip my hand down in to my panties and begin massaging my clit. My pussy was begging me for attention and there was only so long I could ignore her. On the 5th day I caved. I slipped back in to my hut during one of the breaks and lying on my little hard bed I slid my fingers down until they felt the wetness of my pussy. They quickly moved over my clit and slid inside me. It only took a couple of quick minutes and I was gasping and moaning as my body shuddered in to a long anticipated orgasam.
Good job I had been quick, as moments later my room mate entered. I lay in the bed eyes closed and pretended I was having a nap. I could still feel my pussy pulsing and throbbing, and a dribble of my juices running down from my pussy and inbetween my ass cheeks.
That night I went for it again. I waited till the steady rhythm of my roommate told me she was sleeping and then slowly worked my way due to my wet mound. I wanted to make sure I didn’t wake her and alert her to what I was doing, so I had to move slowly and muffle my moans. Every time I would come close to cumming I would begin to move faster and my hips would start bucking and rolling. I would have to control myself and pull my hand away to calm down and make sure I didn’t make any noise. This way, I kept myself edging for ages, until finally, hot waves of pleasure began to spread out from my pussy to the rest of my body, my legs started twitching and I came to an incredibly intense orgasm.
After that I managed to hold off touching myself for the rest of the course. Meaning I stuck to the rules almost perfectly. Just that one secret lapse right in the middle!
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/m16ybh/i_f24_did_an_intense_10_day_silent_meditation
Your stories are always so hot ? love the idea of needing do badly to cum that you break the rules of a vipassana retreat haha.
Side note but I hope you were in Bali. And if you were I hope you did the sunrise hike up the volcano ?