I [F] have a weird fetish and it accidentally turned into incest [M].

As disgusting as all of this is, I promise this is true. Please do not spam my DM’s with hate.

So, the heimlich manouver turns me (18F) on. Something about the danger and taboo involved in a guy grinding himself into you while you’re dying is a huge turn on for me. I’ve never told anyone in a non-anonymous setting. For me specifically, I get turned on thinking about how someone could take advantage of me if I was choking and needed the heimlich, but I won’t go into to much detail about that as to not trigger anyone. It also turns me on in terms of breath play. Not being able to breathe, having limited time left, etc.

Here’s where it becomes fucked up. When I was little, I used to pretend to choke and I taught my brother (18M) (side note: we aren’t twins, my mom got pregnant with him pretty much right after I was born AND he was about a month premature so I’m older than him only by about 10 months) how to perform the heimlich. That really doesn’t matter too much to the story. What does matter, however, is that even though I stopped pretending to choke years ago, I might have…. done it again recently. It was in May and I was desperate to say the least. technically I am a virgin but I started masturbating at a young age to say the least, not realizing what it was until about my early teen years. I also have an incest fetish, but only in porn type scenarios. I never once tried to act it out with my brother… also until recently. Look, I know this is fucked up which is why I’m putting in here and also in r/confessions.

Basically, my brother and I were home alone in May during quarantine. My mom was an essential worker and my dad was at a friends house, he had given up on lockdown restrictions. I was horny, like, insanely desperate as one is and nothing I looked at turned me on. I didn’t explain this in my confessions post but I went down to get some Goldfish and decided to bother my brother on the way back up. No ill or sexual intentions, just wanted to be a troll. I ate a cracker and it went down the wrong way but I wasn’t choking at all really, but my brother asked if I was okay and I just… I pretended like I couldn’t breathe and practically pounced on him making sure his junk was aligned with my ass. of course he thought I was actually choking so he started thrusting. The stress of the situation and the fact that we’re both hormonal in quarantine I guess made him hard and he just froze for a second. It took me a second to realize what had happened but when I did I felt like I had hit a goldmine. I looked back at him desperately and just started going the slightest bit limp so he would think I was dying, or passing out at least. Well, that pretty much sent him into overdrive. He freaked the hell out and just started humping the hell out of me, I mean he was thrusting himself into me like a rabid dog. My stomach was being, well, heimliched and it hurt pretty bad but I didn’t care.

Push comes to shove, I let him try to save me for at least 5 minutes. I’m trying to hide my pleasure and even though his erection never went away I assumed it was stress related. Well, until he came that is. All of a sudden he started grunting and he let out this deep, eager moan, and just came in his pants. I had already cum a minute earlier, and I played it off after he came like he had just gotten the food out and I was fine and he scurried back to his room. I think I heard him crying not too long after.

I still think about that encounter all of the time and even though I feel super guilty, it’s insane how much it turns me on. I’ve also started having sex dreams about him too and I’m not sure what to do about that.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/jec7vh/i_f_have_a_weird_fetish_and_it_accidentally