Trying to seduce my cousin

Me and my cousin Vanessa have been close for a while and I felt like we always have had sort of a sexual tense in between us ever since we got to high school. We would always cuddle together at family parties and she would always try to be touchy in any way when ever we would sit together. I’ve never really tried to make a move because she is pretty innocent in a way but I would slap her ass when nobody was around, brush up against her, laying on her warm breast when no one was around,and long tight hugs of course but nothing too much that would alarm her that I’m trying to make love to my older cousin.

The closest I have ever gotten to making a move on her was in our senior year of high school both of us 18 her a couple of months older . We had both gotten picked up by my older sister and she dropped us off while she went to work. We were all alone besides my younger brother hanging out in the other room while we watched tv together. I don’t quite remember how but she asked me if I was ticklish I answered no and she tried tickling my stomach and armpits jokingly, I saw this opportunity and began tickling her back she was very ticklish, so much in fact that she fell onto the floor while I was tickling her I was still holding onto her stomach so when she fell she was fell perfectly into place with her ass sticking up towards my hard as a rock cock(doggy style basically) . I couldn’t help my self and I pulled her toward me and the same time I thrusted on top of her but I quickly let go in fear that she would look back at me in disgust. She got up and laughed and we just watched tv until she was picked up

The next time I really decide to try something was when we were at a party with only older cousins so that we could smoke and drink freely. We all had smoked a couple of joints and were sitting down I noticed she had no seat so I told her to sit on my lap, she jumped onto my right leg but was very close to my crotch after 2 mins or so I decided to massage her back since she always does the same to me. When I got to her lower back I started grabbing her stomach like I was holding onto her riding my cock my dick got rock solid but it was going down my left pant leg I was a little upset because I wanted her to feel my long dick sneaking up to her ass as my penis grew longer. unfortunately someone else found an extra seat for her but she still sat next to me and when she sat down she leaned over and told me “is it normal that I am a little wet”. I wanted to grab her and just have her in front of everyone but I couldn’t so I just hugged her tight breast against my chest.

About Nine days later we were at another party together and I began to massage her back and neck again. There was music playing and she heard this song and decided to grind or shake her ass on my crotch while I massage her of course my dick turned to solid and her ass probably bushed upon my cock 5 times. I just wanted to strip her down And fucker her in my arms until she cums but my niece was there so I did nothing but enjoy it. Later on in the party I was sitting down and she came behind me and started playing with my hair she then started to rest my head on her warm breast and I snuggled in a bit but I just wanted to turn around and lick and worship her breasts but I couldn’t do anything again because my nieces were right there.

Btw sorry I’m a little new to Reddit so if my spelling and grammar is bad sry but yeah this This just happened two weeks ago and I am not really sure how I’m going to go about it next all I know is that I need to have her, any advice?

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