I [M] 32 Spanked and Fucked my nanny [F] 25 after I found out my wife cheated on me. [MF]

I’m drunk as I write this so bear with me. I don’t know who to talk to and I still feel guilty af.

Quick backstory:
My wife (33) and I have been married since our early twenties and things were going great until I found out she was cheating on me for quite a while with a male friend of hers. We are still together as I write this story and the nanny still works for us and my wife has no idea what has happened between us. Our nanny has been living with us for about three years and is married but separated from her husband (they’re Catholic so she won’t get a divorce). When our nanny arrived at our doorstep on the very first day we were very formal with each other and continued to be so for quite some time. Most of the communication happend between my wife and her while I was in the background. Our nanny is Filipino and very petite. She’s young and pretty but doesn’t realise how pretty she is. She barely weighs 50 kilos, has B cups, and a tight little ass. Over time the two of us became very close in a platonic way and I would give her advice on how to deal with her personal issues and when she was down I would give her a great big hug and tell her everything would be OK. We had our inside jokes, and high fived all the time and went out together to get coffee sometimes as well. My wife knew about it and was okay with it because she was a mainly unempathetic person and wasn’t a great listener but wanted to know our nanny was doing ok so it wouldn’t affect her work.Things used to be great in our household and everyone got along and she was great with our kids. All was good.

One thing I should mention: The nanny once came across our sex toy closet (we’re into bdsm) and nonchalantly mentioned to me that she had always wanted to try BDSM.

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One day my wife left an open messenger conversation next to me while she was drunk and I saw a naked photo of her with another man and it broke me. I confronted her immediately and she broke down crying and making excuses while my heart shattered. I decided to forgive and forget and I won’t bore you with the details of all the things I found out about her affair. I pushed it deep down but the person closest to me realized something was wrong with me.. the nanny. She pestered me for weeks; Asking what was wrong, if I was OK, could she do something?!! One day while driving to the supermarket I broke and told her all that happened and she just held me to her chest while I cried. Over the next few weeks she would come up to me and hug me when she saw that I was down and eventually I started going to her for hugs when I felt I needed one. I never told anyone from my family or friends what happened because we were “the couple” and they all adored her and I didn’t want to break their hearts alongside mine, so the nanny was my only solace. She also came from a marrige broken by cheating so she felt what I was going through.

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One night I was up late drinking (a habit I picked up after the incident) and depressed and I decided to go to the kitchen to grab some food. I found the nanny there in a tank top (no bra) and loose shorts sitting on her phone nursing a beer. I was wearing boxers and a cotton shirt. She could see the sadness in my face so she sat me down forcefully and went to set up some food for me. I’d never looked at her sexually before but I couldn’t stop myself from looking at her protruding nipples peaking through her white top and her shorts wedged in between her cheeks as she pranced back and forth between the fridge and the microwave. She sat next to me and stroked my back as I ate my food then we both went for a smoke outside in silence. We came back into the house and I bid her farewell as she turned off the last light in the hall. Just as I put my foot on the first step to go upstairs I stopped and turned to her asking if I could get a hug before sleep. I couldn’t really see, but I felt her tiny body attach to me with her arms around my neck and her head against my chest. I let myself go and hugged her tight with my face resting against the top of her head and we held each other in the darkness for a few minutes in silence. I couldn’t help myself, in my head I remembered what she was wearing and what I was wearing.. there were only flimsy pieces of cloth between us and my dick began to get hard. I knew she felt it but she didn’t pull back. She then suddenly pulled away, turned around, and brought my hands to her breasts while she pushed her ass against my dick and let out a moan. I didn’t think, I just took in her scent and brought my hand around to her pussy and started to rub it while kissing on her neck. We stayed like that for a while humping and moaning in the darkness while I rubbed her clitorice through her cotton shorts (I realized then that she wasn’t wearing any panties) and she grinded her ass into me. She turned around and started to kiss me, and then suddenly we both realised what we were doing so she jumped away and just said “No, No, No..” and we just turned around and walked away like nothing had happened. I crashed hard in bed next to my wife with my mind just revolving around what happened a few minutes earlier as I fell asleep.

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The next morning I woke up hungover asking myself “WTF did I just do???” All my life I thought of myself as the person who never cheats, but I just did.. with my married nanny nonetheless. My wife decided to go visit her mother that morning and took the kids with her, so the only people left in the house were me and the nanny. For a couple of hours we awkwardly avoided each other but ended up having lunch in the dining room. Afterwards we went out to our very private garden for a smoke and I finally gathered the courage to bring up the night before. She said she felt guilty for doing it especially since she liked and respected my wife (even though she knew what my wife had done) and we shouldn’t do it again. After she finished her smoke she stood up to walk away and I looked at her tight ass moving and just said “Since you feel naughty, don’t you think you deserve a spanking?” She stopped in her tracks and took a deep breath and nodded her head while facing away from me. I just let me desires take control and I grabbed her and pulled her over my lap and began to adminster a spanking to her lower butt cheeks. A few smacks in I decided to just go for it and I pulled her pants and underwear down baring her pale Asian ass to the fresh air and kept on spanking, she didn’t struggle. Her ass started to turn pink and red and she moaned heavily while grinding her hips into my legs. I picked her tiny body up again and sat her down on me while using my own legs to spread hers and I brought my fingers to her pussy.. It was soaking (I say soaking ) wet and my fingers began to massage her clit and enter here easily. I kept on fingering her with my middle finger while my thumb rubbed against her clit and lifting up her shirt and bra and squeezing her breasts and nipples and biting on her neck (I pride myself on multitasking.. lol). It took about 4 minutes until she started orgasming hard, she even whispered “I’m cumming” to me. After she orgasmed she looked like she was about to faint so I held her up againts my chest letting her take a breath and we stayed like that for a while with her breathing hard. Eventually she got off of me, pulled up her pants, and staggered away. I stayed there for a bit contemplating what I had done and I realized that I actually didn’t feel guilty.. I felt Alive!

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The day passed and the next day came around and she kept on avoiding me again. That night all of us adults were watching a movie together and my wife said she was going to crash right after the movie. As the nanny and I started picking up the dishes she whispered in my ears that she was going to go have a drink in the garden. She didn’t invite me but I could hear it in her tone. I told my wife I was going to stay up for a bit longer and she headed off to bed not really caring. I grabbed a whiskey and headed out. I found the nanny sitting out there in a long pajama top (again no bra) nursing a gin and tonic. We chatted for a little while with me avoiding the topic, but then she brought it up herself. She admitted to me that the orgasm she had with me was the first time a man had managed to give her an one, and that she was still turned on by it. She’d had two boyfriends before her husband but all three of them were very vanilla and outright refused to do more than missionary or light doggystyle. None of them had even ever gone down on her either (crazy I know). She outright told me that she knew what we were doing was wrong but every time she thought about what had happened she wanted more. I didn’t reply.. i just told her to get on the chair with her ass facing me and she did with a hazy look on her face. I flipped up her pajamas and found out she wasn’t wearing any panties.. Her tight virgin asshole and pink pussy were right in front of me.. I began to smack her cheeks while she moaned and then brought my hand down to her pussy. Wet again!
I went down on my knees and staryed to lick her pussy and asshole. Every minute or so I would pull back and rub her clit while I bit her ass cheeks and tell her how much of a slut she was and then go back in again. She orgasmed soon enough and again staggered off to her bedroom. As she walked away I asked her if she would come back, she just nodded.

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About 15 minutes later she came out again in the same pajama top but this time with underwear on. We discussed what had happened and she admitted she loved it but didn’t know how we could keep on doing it. I told her I’d be happy to keep on spanking and helping her out but I couldn’t fuck her. She actually looked offended when I said that.. When we finished our drinks we began to gather our things and then she asked me if she could see it (my dick). I didn’t really hesitate and I pulled it out. She got down on her knees and asked if she could kiss it, I nodded yes and she just went straight in to blowing me. I didn’t stop her. I was already horny as fuck (I have an issue though with orgasming, I can keep it hard for ages but rarely cum without a ton of stimulation. Drunk, no fucking way). She kept trying to make me cum but struggled so she stood up, turned around leaning on the garden table, lifted her pajama top, pulled down her white panties and led my dick up to her wet pussy. She just rubbed it against her lips and asked me “Are you sure you don’t want to fuck me?” I went crazy and pushed it in in one go without a thought in my head. Her moan made my mind bend and I started to fuck her hard while holding onto her throat, biting and kissing her. I kept fucking her until she came once.. twice.. and a third time. She even began crying but telling me not to stop. My god I wanted to cum so hard but it never came.. I hate myself for that..
She reached a point where she realised I wasn’t going to and pulled up her panties and ran into the house while not looking at me. When I reached her room she’d locked her door. I asked her through the door if she was okay and she shouted at me that she was ugly and that’s why I hadn’t cum. I started explaining through the door and then suddenly it opened and she was butt naked in front of me. She just said “Show me that I’m beautiful”. I picked her up and took her to her bed where I pushed her down onto her stomach and procedeed to fuck her hard. I still couldn’t make it, so she whispered “Fuck my ass” I pulled out and started to push against her asshole but it was incredibly tight so I pulled her on top of me and kept fucking her pussy while smacking her ass and fingering it with my pinky. She bit down on my shoulder (hard) and I could finally feel it happening. I pulled out and started to spurt all over her ass and back while she bit harder and the bit my lips. We lay there naked for several minutes panting. I pulled her over my lap again and spanked her until she cried for biting me and leaving a mark. I then stood up, we kissed, and I went back to my wife.
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The next day the nanny couldn’t make eye contact with my wife and would avoid being around her and the wife began to get suspicious (she had bruises around her throat). I went to my nanny and told her that she had to act normal but she said she felt too guilty. At that moment i decided that this was all too dangerous and that she would probably break as would I. I ended it.. My nanny didn’t take it too well and hasn’t spoken to me in several days. My wife meanwhile keeps trying to have sex with me but I keep turning her down because all I can think about is my nanny’s turned on moans and her tight little ass. God I want to go down to her room right now and fuck her lights out. I know though that this won’t end well.

Thank you for reading

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/i36csw/i_m_32_spanked_and_fucked_my_nanny_f_25_after_i