Right on start I should say that nature did absolutely everything to make me not like a dicks in general. Overall, I have absolutely nothing against it! I like them. I could have billions sex toys but I would still replace them with a dick in a second.
Buuuut I really suck at a blowjob…
Why? There is several reasons.
Firstly, I am demisexual. The random porn and things around it do nothing to me. I could watch people fuck each other and I would just giggle over the silly dialogues. So whenever happened that somebody wanted to impress me (not like I asked) and sent me d-pic. I was just “why”?
Well…to be fair, d-pics actually awoke some reaction in me. And that’s the point number two. I am extremely shy. So whenever I hear or see something naughty I actually panic, get all red and laugh. So if there is some explicit sex scene in the show I am covering my nose and mouth with a blanket, giggle out of panic and at the same time focusing on some pretty detail like lingerie or questioning if such position would be actually comfortable. Honestly I am not even able to have sex conversation in the real life. I can’t even say dick in my own language aloud. There are even words I can’t even write in English how vulgar they sound to me.
And the last issue is… that I have very sensitive mouth I would say, not sure if I call it right. I get easily wierd feelings if food have suddenly different texture, I can literally gag on the tablespoon of water if I have it for too long in my mouth unswallowed. At the morning I am even struggling to brush my teeth because I feel like the toothbrush is too much deep in my mouth.
So as you can see, my destiny is to be bad at blowjob. And on top of it I always was with kind guys. That type who tease you and play with you so long and much (I was told I am especially cute when I am all whimpering and squirming with puppy eyes) until I literally beg them to finally fuck me. So in such scenario I guess they kind of forgot that blowjob would be on the menu as well. So with my shyness and not being encouraged I get off with just kisses and lollipop approach.
But despite of the fact that nobody ever complain about it I felt bad. I felt selfish. But once you get into head that you are too bad and definitely would look ugly during blowjob you eventually don’t even dare to think about it and just accept it as the flaw.
Thankfully, I met very special person on the internet and it changed my world.
We didn’t met as two horny crazies. It was very innocent friendly talk at the start. But he was incredibly laid back guy and I just felt save around him. I told him things I never did before to anybody. I shared my insecurities and fear and he manage to slowly debunk them. He also let me be goof as much as I wanted. Showing him my new clothes which was making me incredibly happy just to wear it and he always let me know that he likes this childish side of me and never complained about anything.
I will not gonna lie, he is incredibly sexy so it wasn’t that hard to open up to him. It was actually very confusing for me that somebod so frickin handsome is even willing to spend time texting with me without getting basically nothing out of it. But eventually he gradually helped me to explore my sexuality. It was so awesome to discuss something, eventually send him something in that manner and then read how I did good. From the sfw picture to the little tease ending up with some really wild stuff. Haha, I am getting red ears just thinking what he saw me to do.
And with a blow jobs it wasn’t any different. We discussed that topic quite a lot. I knew that he likes it really rough. Literally fuck somebody’s head and all that saliva and crying eyes involved. And on the other side me with “it’s not cute, let’s just slightly lick the top of penis.
He could reassure me million times but my brain just couldn’t process that somebody would ever enjoy the blowjob from me, not to even mention seeing me during it. I was so adamant about it that I eventually sent him video (oh boy, I seriously hate that video), where I suck on my cute yellow toy just to show him how bad the situation is.
– I am seriously adorable idiot
Well, the reaction was not what I expected. I was awaiting some constructive criticism or some sort of stuff. But he praised me. Me?! He was telling me how I look great with toy in my mouth, how my lips are something what he definitely would like to see wrapped around his dick. And I was like “no! You get it all wrong, dummy. Just look again! My eyes got all teary and I even gag a little. I was even forced to cut the bigger one out of the video.”
And that’s the moment when he explained to me that that’s the whole point why it is sexy. Because my teary eyes and gags show him that I am trying hard. I was refusing to agree and describe myself like a total mess.
“You are hot and I wouldn’t mind make a sexy mess out of you. If you don’t believe me, do you wanna see how hard I am right now”.
It wasn’t the first time he offered me to show me. He knew about me being shy and quite a cold against these things. At that time I already know how his dick looks like. Well… I saw it few times just in one blink of the eyes before I toss the phone far away and dig my red face into the pillow. Still, it wasn’t something new for me. But! This time I actually wanted to see. I really needed the proof so I agreed.
He send me video.
He was laying on the bed, still in the boxers but I could already see that big pretty bulk. He gently rub his dick over the boxers few times. For the first time I just couldn’t stop watching. I didn’t even notice at first how much I was pressing thighs against each other out of excitement. Then he slowly pull the boxers. I could see the head then whole length and it was gorgeous to see. I never thought I will use gorgeous in the same sentence as dick but here I am melting over the most prettiest one on the planet. Eventually he pulled the boxers even out of his balls and the penis immediately jump to stand still and erect in all his glory. It was beautiful hard dick. And I squeaked out of excitement. After that he manage few gently strokes and that was the end of the video. After that I rolled on my back totally bamboozled and little bit heavy breathing because I probably forgot to breath in the half of that video.
“That was so frickin sexy. He is hard right now, just because of me. I really wanna suck that dick so much!”.
Unfortunately for you guy, this is not story about how I eventually end up with this godly like human and he fuck me into mouth how he likes. No, no, no. This is not a fairy tale. We are not planning to interfere into our “out of virtual reality” lives.
But! It’s not the end of the story yet!
Since that day, I started to be much more open to the idea doing a blowjob. I was able to accept that sex has the animalistic part as well. That it’s not that important to look good the whole time. The only important stuff is having the fun.
I end up breaking the ice when I was visiting my dad with my partner. It was situation when I was totally sure there will be no sex involved since we are in someone else house and I was “out of service” as well. Thankfully it didn’t stop my partner to wake me up in the middle of the night with cuddles. I reminded him that there is no way we can do something more but he didn’t look like he mind that at all. And all that hugging and kissing and playing with my breasts put me into the mood. Spontaneously I grab his shoulder and pulled he on his back. I gave him couple of kisses and then whispered “stay still and maybe you will like it”. -haha, I am romantic soul indeed
I pulled away the blanket and his shorts. He was already pretty hard so it needed just couple of strokes to feel him throbbing. I took position. On my knees on the side of his hips sticking the butt high to the sky. I made my traditional licking just of the top of the dick with gently strokes. I was making circles with my tongue and gently sucking on it. Then I did another few strokes with my hand and take a small pause. I am pretty sure that my partner thought that that’s all because when I finally pull the whole dick into my mouth he little flinched. I did all that nice stuff. Moving up and down slowly with small pauses to tease his top. It was fun. I was enjoying it and my partner as well. He actually was so excited that I needed to place a hand on his mouth so my dad couldn’t hear him. I was determined to finish this job. So I moved my hair properly on the side and get into much quicker tempo. I could taste little bit of pre cum and my partner starting to frickin out that he is going to finish. It was obvious that he is trying to warn me that I should run away but I decided to keep going. Right at the end he gently placed his hands on my head. Something what I was scared of but it didn’t stopped me neither. Thankfully he didn’t forced me into different tempo or something. He was kind or maybe emphatic so he was just simply holding me and I let him. And then it happened. He froze in the middle of my another move and I could feel like his cum is hitting my upper pallet and filling my cheeks. I freak out little bit because it was definitely more of it than I expected. I gagged a little. Not because of the taste. Just from that amount and the idea there is cum in my mouth. But! Despite all of that I swallowed it all! You should saw us. Me, sitting on my legs with mix of shy but proud smile and my partner trying to calm down his breathing but also trying to process what just happened. He sit up, placed my head into his big palms and gave me big kiss on my lips.
It took me another three hours to actually fall asleep how happy, and proud and excited I was.
I don’t need even mention that since that night I am doing blowjobs quite often. It’s really nice to know that our foreplay is not anymore just about warming me up but I can give him little tease before he bang me into heavens as well. I literally sometimes need to forcing him to stop fingering me as I am really hungry to get that pretty thing into my mouth. It’s really nice to know that I have option to please him even if I can’t play as well.
It’s not like I am blowjob machine now. I still prefer to be in charge. But I am not scared of the hands on my head anymore and I allow my partner to thrust his hips against me a little. I am letting his dick get deeper into my mouth and even play with his balls.
After all, I am pretty cute when I am slobbering on that dick.
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/i0i4f3/i_will_never_forget_how_my_text_buddy_taught_me
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