Who am I ?
It’s been a very long time ago, when I could answer that question.
“In order to accomplish this I would be kept isolated and probably subjected to many many kinky things ..
For instance you could tie me up and make sure that I get no stimulation from the outside word for months.
I mean full sensory deprivation. Blindfolding is a given, but it won’t stup there .. I would not be able to sense ANYTHING.. not even a touch a sound a smell a taste.. you could put me in latex and chain down every single muscle .. every single finger, so I can’t move at all .. use tubes to handle my waste .. and only provide me with water and food through a siringe that goes into my bloodstream. I would basically feel nothing .. just left there with 0 input ..
And then after mounts when I finally stop struggling and it seems that I completely lost notion of time or purpose .. maybe forgotten who or what am I ..
You could start showing me porn …
Forcing me to watch it .. but of course after all that nothingness I would watch anything .. I would be crying with joy to see light .. to see something .. to experience something ..
You would start with regular sex and work your way up to the most horrific mind altering porn .. whips and chains and pain and humiliation and slaps and piss… Gangbangs, cum play .. cum swallowing .. being an object …
I would of course be getting turned on by all of this .. whether I want to or not .. But I won’t be able to touch myself .. or to even feel anything down there .. except mind breaking desire .. just dripping wet all day .. I would do ANYTHING to get a single touch on my clit .. a single way to cum ..
Hell .. sometimes maybe I would just cum regardless .. even without a touch .. and it would be the most intense thing in the world ..
So .. this would also go on for months ..
Then .. a dildo would be installed right next to my face .. and my mouth would be uncovered ..
The screen would explain ” Lick it to turn on the screen”
And so .. the dildo would have a motion sensor .. as long as I was sucking on it .. licking it .. anything .. the porn would keep on going .. and I could keep torturing myself watching it .. and cumming every two weeks when I get to the point where even with no touching it happens …
At first I would not do it .. but of course .. after porn being the only thing that’s exciting about my existence.. I would soon start sucking it like a crazy bitch …
You would watch me .. and the better I was at it .. the more perverted the porn would be ..
You would also show me deepthroat and cum on tongue and face videos mostly .. making me learn …
And so .. the correlation within sucking dick and receiving stimulation from porn would be born …
Another few mouths like this would pass.
Afterwards the next step would be removing the visual stimulation .. meaning .. the dildo would stay .. but there would be no porn anymore .. or anything to see ..
At first I wouldn’t know what to do now .. but soon after I would start sucking again .. out of habit .. and it being the only thing I can do .. the only stimulation .. I would learn the enjoy it .. and also picture all the porn I watched up until now .. after three weeks I would finally cum .. without being touched of course .. just by sucking a dildo ..
Another few months pass .. you would finally reap some of the benefits .. and instead of the dildo you would offer me your actual dick ..
I would love it’s texture .. and real feel .. and taste .. since the rubber had no taste ..
Further more .. because your dick would only be present sometimes .. like just when you were horny like a few times a day .. when you offered it to me I would take every beautiful second of sucking it ..
The cum would fill my mouth, and it would be the only food or water that I received in 2 years now .. since I have been living like a bag of meat ..
I would love it .. and would suck dick even more thrilled ..using all the moves I learned watching porn ..
I wouldn’t even think about who’s dick it is .. I wouldn’t think at all .. or remember who I am .. or how I got here .. or what my purpose is ..
All I would know .. is that when the dick comes .. I do everything I can to make it cum in my mouth .. and sucking it would stimulate me .. and I could see the porn in my head .. I could imagine it .. and so every so often .. like once a mouth I would be able to cum .. without touch .. of course.
This would go on for a good while ..
Then it would be time to remove my ear plugs so I can actually hear you.
I would still remember my name and who I was when you ask me .. even tho my speech would be quite rare and clumsy .. since I didn’t say or hear anything in a while.
Although I would remember all this and the life I had before this .. when asked if I am sure that I am that person who I remember I would hesitate to answer.
When asked what my purpose was in life I wouldn’t know what to say.
Then you would slowly start bringing your dick close to my face .. I wouldn’t see it of course, since I have been blindfolded ever since the porn stopped .. but as soon as it touched my lips I would suck on it again just like yesterday and the day before and so on ..
The only thing that could change is that .. now you could give me commands .. such as slower or faster or stick out your tongue or let it drip from your mouth ..
But at first I wouldn’t comply .. I would just do it the way I always did .. just like the instincts that were forced into my brain tell me to.
So you would finally take off the latex from my body .. let my skin breathe ..
I would of course still be tied up really carefully .. the effects of this imprisonment would show on me .. my skin would be white as a wall, and my muscles would have weakened, and I would be really skinny.
In the next mouths you would let the sun touch my skin, regularly bathe me, take care of me .. you would even wash my breasts and pussy .. and at first the feeling would be so intense after all the isolation that two soapy rubs on my clit would make me cum imediately .. I wouldn’t see you but I would be overwhelmed by all of these feelings on my skin after all this time .. I would be really happy.
In the mean time I would keep sucking your dick of course .. but now I would be conditioned to comply with you ..
Every time I refused to do as you say .. you would punish me …
Having access to my skin would make that easy ..
Every time I didn’t do as I was told I would get a slap .. on my face .. on my tits .. on my clit .. but even those would be positively thrilling after all this deprivation.
You would of course feed me real food and water now .. and put a bucket under me .. I would slowly be reconditioned to eat .. it would also be a nice reward for me after sucking your dick.
I would also cum quite often now .. with all this stimulation. Expecially the pussy slaps.
Hell .. I would start dissobaying just to get pussy slapped so I can cum ..
When you would notice you would be very angry with me .. and so you would give me my first real experience of pain…
Whipping my butt and back with your belt .. until it was almost bleeding.
This would actually hurt really much and I would be really sorry for what I did.
The pussy slaps would also stop ..
I would be very sad about that.
Soon I would start learning how to cum by just nipple slaps .. and I would take a whipping again for it.
In the end you make sure I have no choice but to torture myself with unsatisfaction and keep me horny for weeks while you order me around to suck your dick just the way you like .. ocasionally slapping me on the face, but while that turns me on too, it won’t let me cum.
After I start eating well and looking better, and I become submissive and follow all your orders, it’s time to finally let me see the word so I can become more efficient at my tasks, and also let me off my chains and restrains that completely kept me from moving.
At first I am so weak that I can’t even stand up, but as I start crawling in my cage for food, I regain some muscle movement .. also .. of course you put a chastity belt on me that prevents me from pleasuring my clit .. and also tie my hands behind my back to make sure ..
Soon I learn to crawl to the edge of the cage to suck your dick really eagerly whenever you come by. After a while you stop offering it to me tho .. and just as you hoped I start begging for it after a few weeks, since it’s my only stimulation .. whenever I suck it .. all the instincts forced on me, all the memories of being in the dark for years and having porn save me and stimulate me pop in my head, and I suck it with the deepest desire to escape those memories .. I have a subsconscious need to feel dick in my mouth and the warmth of your cum .. and if I can’t have it I have anxiety attacks.
So just like that my reconditioning is coming into completion.
After that, I finally claim my collar, and freedom of movement .. I am allowed to do anything I want .. in my little room of course .. while wearing my leash because that marks me as your slut.
My daily routine consists of waking up, cooking for myself, from the ingredients in the fridge .. cooking for you too after a while ..
Finally I get real bathroom acces, and I can bathe myself.
I also have equipment that I use to work out and keep a perfect shape, running lifting, squats, everything I need to attain the needed measurements you gave me ..
They state the size of my arms, waist, thighs, and breast size .. I will of course measure myself every single day .. to make sure I fit into the required sizes, and if not I have to change my workout accordingly.
Of course the biggest rule is .. that by no means I am to EVER touch myself .. my clit or my boobs .. I don’t wear a chastity, I could do it .. but if I do .. right back in the darkness I go ..
THE ENTIRE 3 YEARS BEGINS AGAIN.
If I ever touch myself outside the bathroom, or if I dare cum while I touch those spots because of cleaning.
Finally I can serve master the way he intended it.
Every morning I cook, I bathe, I work out, I wait for him on my knees head down. I pleasure him with all my being whenever he wants me, and when he’s not around I spend my time writing ..
I am to channel my thoughts, my dirtiest thoughts into sexual fantasies, stories ..
Filthy erotic stuff .. that I can occupy myself with.
He said one of these days he might post them on the internet, so I can tell the world about it all.
In the mean time, I wait for him ..
Never to loose my focus, that is the dick that saved me from the darkness, and never to cum, unless it is without touch while I please him.
He says he has bigger plans for me in the future.
I really am excited about that.
So who am I ?
I am a cock sucking cum slut, and I can’t change that now, he made me this way, but after all these years, all the darkness is starting to feel like my home, and pleasure and pain all mix together.
The discipline keeps me a good cock sucker, it keeps me focused, horny, it keeps my mind occupied, it keeps me obedient, and wanting.
I finally wrote this story down, in this little book you gave me a those years ago Sir.
Thank you for making me your slut.”
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