(This is the first time I’ve ever written down anything like this, so obviously I don’t expect to win, but I do want to share. I hope you enjoy, feel free to critique!)
I’ve always been a switch; always wanted a significant other that I could alternately dominate and be dominated by, on our mutual whim. Never have found one, but eh, that’s life.
But I’d never given a lot of attention to the half of myself that wanted to be ordered around. The half that didn’t care if it was a stranger or a lover, man or woman; just please god enjoy me.
I finally did, but that’s a story for another time. I’ll sum up by saying that I discovered a lot about myself, and what I enjoy. So now my ritual that used to consist of just nutting into a napkin and carrying on with my day has gotten a lot more complicated. And a lot more public.
I lie down, lube up the vibrator and carefully insert it. Takes a bit, as nothing besides a small toy or two and an inquisitive finger has ever been there. I’m still anxious and perhaps over-cautious while doing this, but making a mistake would be a pain in the ass…
By the time I have it in, I’ve already got a glistening drop of precum dangling from my swelling glans. I haven’t even started yet, and I’m already imagining strangers watching me.
I feel like I’m close to cumming already, but I can’t let my release be *that* quick.
I clean myself up and put my clothes back on while leaving the vibrator snugly in place. My cock is getting painfully swollen now, and it takes some rearranging to get it back in my pants.
The vibe has two motors; one vibrates, and the other wiggles back and forth in a come-hither motion. I turn both on full and shudder as it suddenly hammers my p-spot, dick straining at the confines of my clothes. I throw my head back involuntarily, struggling to maintain composure.
I do love living alone.
I wander around my house, taking care of odd chores, get a drink, put away some of my quarantine supplies, etc all while that little prostate toy hums away. I quiver occasionally, the prominent tent in my shorts twitching slightly, as the rising urge to just grab it and finish the task right here and now becomes harder to ignore.
Aside from an occasional few strokes, even the most brief of which leave my cock twitching and my breathing shallow and panting, I’m going to keep ignoring it for a while.
I set up the tripod for my phone, and check the framing. I don’t dare show my face; I can’t risk anyone recognizing me. Not that it makes it any less fun; I almost prefer to be an all-but nameless piece of meat, used for nothing but lust and self-gratification by thousands of strangers of all kinds.
And then I get to work. I’ve drawn it out as much as I can, but my willpower only holds out so long. I break, and my mind goes blank as I erupt, just present enough to hang on and enjoy the rush.
A p-spot orgasm is something quite different, and more akin to how I imagine women experience an orgasm. My whole core is contracting, every muscle between my thighs and my chest squeezing in unison. I almost want to scream in pleasure, but be it from my vocal structure or the fact that my whole body is being wracked by violent convulsions, usually all that comes out is a strangled, whimpering groan.
Even after I’ve expelled everything my body has to offer, the rhythmic convulsions keep going. Feels like ages, but I know it’s maybe only a minute at most.
My usual dignified, reserved, and almost authoritative visage is broken down completely, and a shuddering, whimpering heap of a man, mind broken by raw lust, panting for someone, anyone to hold him as the throes of ecstasy wane.
Oh fuck, I need to turn off the camera and clean myself up. I’m covered in cum and sweat, and I struggle to get upright as the last few shockwaves pass.
Back to being my normal self. Nobody need be the wiser, except the many strangers online that only know me by a username and a chest-down body. It’s a secret identity, like I’m some sort of nut-busting superhero. And I enjoy every minute of it!
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/gxel7j/mmasturbationexhibitionkink_my_habits_during