Does she want me or is it all my imagination

So, I have been wanting to share this and get an opinion from someone. So it’s about my cousin sister (Around 10 years older than me). All my life she’s been very friendly with me, you know the usual stuff… Kisses, hugs, basically the kind of love a kid gets. She happens to be a teacher (has done bachelor’s and masters and a couple more) so she’s kinda smart and our entire family respects that. So when I reached my 8th grade(The year where you get your first sexual education in Indian education systems) she gave me a very detailed explanation about what my body would go through adolescent age.. And how girls would feel attaracted towards me and vice versa… She also gave an example about a good looking guy getting  harrased by 5 girls because they could not control their hormones (which I believe was a made up scenario but I kinda get the point she was trying to make)… She’s used to be very touchy with me everytime she used to meet me… Shower me with kisses and etc…. Obviously as a kid you would not think much about it… But as you become older you expect it to stop.. But she didn’t….obviously as a kid when someone would treat you so well and someone so smart respected and a very good looking person loved you so much you obviously get a crush on them isn’t it… So she was like my first big crush. Since she was Science teacher (Biology and Chemistry) she would force my mother to send me for coaching classes to her house… She would tell my mother that he needs more guidance now because he’s starting his higher studies… So every week I would go to her house…. Not that I complained of… Although she used take coaching classes for other kids also… She would give holidays on weekends when I used to go… She usually used to be alone (her husband was also a farmer and most of his earnings was based on agriculture… So he would manage his time between his village house and this house.. So whenever I would go to tuitions… Usually on Saturdays.. I would stay the night there… She would always be in nighty (an Indian wear google it) and when she would start teaching she would lift it up till her knees.. Bend as much as possible to expose her cleavage and basically just hold my hand the entire time… (she’s a teacher, I’m pretty sure she would know how to handle herself in front of teenagers). She would sit it such close proximity that I could not have ignored her body or boobs or anything she would be practically half naked everytime in front of me… And throughout the weekend o used to be there she would just hold me and kiss me(on the cheeks) , cuddle me, and force me to sleep me with her in her bedroom.. When I used to insist (or Atleast act)like I would want to sleep in the hall so that I could watch TV… she would sit with on the sofa cuddling me and waiting till I get sleepy and basically sleep with me wherever I felt sleepy… Let me tell you she’s a messy sleeper… When she would get up in the morning one of her boobs would be out, her dress would have rode up… And every time during midnight.. I would basically touch her boobs try to kiss her lips and such, basically exploring my sexuality.. As time went by I got bolder and bolder… And I found her behavior more sexy and sexy… And this used to happen every time I used go to her house… After some time she got pregnant and delivered a baby girl….I was kinda bumbed out because I was not able to see her for a year and such… But after she had the baby she asked me back to come.for tuitions .. And she would be breast feeding her baby in front of me.. Like fully exposing her boobs… To be honest I was kinda grossed out about swollen boobs for some time… Obviously over time I found it sexy and my puberty started hitting it peak stage… My dick started to grow… Everytime I was with..her My entire focus was on hiding my Erection… So It kinda went on like this…. My crush on her intensified… I started feeling attracted to women who were just like her…
So one summer when I was 16… She came to our home for summer vacation… (my mother and I live alone my dad’s in army) In that vacation she started treating me like a man and was very obviously being flirty… So one time she came to with a problem with the laptop and asked me for help. While I was working,, she sat being put her head on my shoulders pressed her boobs onto my back… And placed her hands on my thighs slowly moving it towards my dick… And when she finally felt she didn’t move… She just kept massaging my thighs and occasionaly touching my dick… She kept her entire stuff in my room even my mom asked to her keep it her room.. She would make it point to get bathed whenever I was and around and parade in front half naked… And like drape the saree so seductively in front of me… She would sleep with me in the bed and cuddle with me so tightly… She could totally feel my dick.. She would ask me take her around… And whenever we were out she would act like I was in charge.. Of her..you know how boys want to feel like men…she totally used to do that… She used to be like please hold my hand.. I feel safe when you hold it… She would say that she would have loved to have a husband like me… And shit like that… Obviously this all made my crush or lust on her increase… She would like ask her daughter would she like to marry me (awkward things indians ask kids) and then give a description of how awesome I would.. As as a husband and the babies would look so gorgeous…
She would so much interest in life ask me about girls and ask if I had sex or lost my virginity and shit…
Everyday she messages me gm and GN with a very seductive picture of her…..
Like one of the time she had purchased a gold. Chain or something so she has uploaded it to her WhatsApp status… Which like clearly exposed her breasts and cleavage… I was kinda surprised that she put up a photo like… That… So I decided to view it from my mother’s phone.. But it was not visible.. I wonder if she had put up
Just for me… There so many instances like this… Small small things.. But it happens almost everytime… I have a girl friend who is beautiful for my standards… But I don’t attracted to her… But whenever she kinda dresses up like my cousin or acts like that… I get so turned on…
So finally coming to the point.. She’s supposedly shifting to our house for a year or two… Because she wants to pursue a course and mom said it was okay for her to move in.. And also her husband and in laws moved into thier village due to health reasons… She visits them every week… She pretty much has turned into like my wife and shit… She lives in my room… Cleans up my mess… Asks my opinion for pretty much everything.. Whenever I take her out she hides all her marriage things…
It’s been a month since she has moved in… Things are getting pretty wild… She offered me to bathe the other day cause I was like sick … Man she flirts with me so much… And she gives me those fuck me eyes…
God I would so want to fuck her love her lust her make… So do you guys think I should make a move or is it all my imaginations….because its getting hot in here especially with this quarantine lockdown. And shit..
Please ignore my gramatic mistakes and vocabulary skills
I know I suck… Hope she would soon

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