I love when it hurts (Ftm) (Master/free use kink mentioned)

Edit: My relationship is gay, so if that turns you off you should skip this particular post.

This is my first time making a genuine post here, and I’m nervous so please be kind… I am in a happy relationship, and don’t want dms. Thanks. Enjoy.

I am a trans man. I’ve been on T for half a year now. In my relationship, I tend to bottom, and sex is honestly kind of painful for me. (For those who are wondering, I do use the “front hole” for sex. Anal is just uncomfortable and painful in a bad way for me. As long as I don’t watch what’s happening and my fiance is mindful of his terminology and the way he’s doing things (which he always is, the angel) it doesn’t cause me too much dysphoria.)

As I mentioned, sex tends to be painful for me. Not usually to an insane degree, but every time my fiance thrusts into me, it hurts my insides. It makes me groan and cry out. It’s painful enough that we have a safeword set up just in case it becomes too much. Thing is, the pain feels good. I like when he strikes me deeply and it feels like a punch to my organs.

And he likes doing it to me. One of the reasons we have a safeword set up is because he likes hearing me cry out, and just saying “it hurts” turns us both on more. If we had the stamina, I’d let him fuck me like that for hours until I couldn’t take it anymore. He already has free reign of my body (I let him touch, tease, and use me whenever he likes).

We prefer doggy style because he can get deeper into me that way (and I don’t have to watch what’s happening or look at my own body, so better for my dysphoria).

I just love feeling him thrust into me and hearing him groan, and knowing that he knows he’s hurting me and he’s getting off on it. Feeling like I belong to him and only him. He’s completely in charge of our sex life, and I love it that way. I guess it’s a power thing just as much as a pain thing. After all, he is my master.

Source: reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/fw4ehs/i_love_when_it_hurts_ftm_masterfree_use_kink