I [M] use my money to pay girls on here to help me cum, it helps me not to spend it on alcohol or drugs, last weekend i got a blowjob from an teen [F] to help her buy alcohol.

Hi, sorry for this random confession.
I used to be an alcoholic and in my darkest days an drugg addict.
I use my money from my company to pay girls on here that need money to help me cum.
Firstly it just started irl a couple of years ago when i helped a friend of my with her rent, she gave me a blowjob as thanks for the help.
After that i used to be on the site ([omegle.com](https://omegle.com/)) and found a girl on there that helped me cum after i helped her with bills.
And now, the last weekend i found a girl on tinder that said she was 19, we talked a bit, but she said she wasnt interested in someone as old as me (im not even old wtf) but she asked if i could buy her alcohol for a party, and i asked whats in it for me, and she replied “Nothing” and that was that i thought. The next day (friday) she typed to me in panic asking if i could buy alcohol for her, pretty please. I said why should i? And one thing led to another, at a carpark i got a blowjob from her in exchange for the alcohol.
If its not irl, i just look around reddit for girls that’s in need of help, and help them if they help me cum.. I also use my money on this, rather than to fall back to alcohol and drugs. Is this pathethic?

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/fslpv2/i_m_use_my_money_to_pay_girls_on_here_to_help_me