I have gone 40+ years of my life knowing I wasn’t 100% straight. Last night I experimented with a man and it suited me. A lot!
As a kid I experimented with other boys, but left it behind (albeit with some nagging feelings) before puberty. I had plenty of opportunity to explore that side of me living in LA in my 20s, but was too scared and confused. So it wasn’t until my wife and I have recently started going to sex clubs and playing with other couples that the idea of being bi came up. Turns out we both have some curiosity, so after she did some (largely unsuccessful) exploration, it became my turn. So I put an ad into a Reddit R4R sub and found a few guys I clicked with.
The guy I really clicked with couldn’t make that first night, but before I lost my nerve I quickly said yes to another guy who was available. He was really kind and patient and since all I wanted to try was a blowjob and was very nervous about the whole thing, I asked him to walk in strip down and I’d immediately start sucking. This happened pretty much as planned and was over and done with before I’d even figured out how I felt about it. I didn’t like his cock, I was kind of racing through it and in the end was no closer to figuring out my feelings on the matter.
So I went back to the first guy and started to get into deep conversations about bisexuality and relationships. We hit it off and it didn’t take long before we were sharing dick pics (his looked awesome) and flirting. We were a few days away from our scheduled meet up and I was SO horny. We both were hard and super aroused as we sexted for 4 straight days. Before I knew what I was typing I had asked (practically demanding) he hold off from cumming for the 4 remaining days. He liked the idea and wanted me to do the same. When the hour finally arrived we were both ready to explode!
Nerves were there for both of us (he had some bi experience but it had been years) but excitement overcame it.
As the door swung open, my biggest fear (that I wouldn’t find him attractive) was relieved. He was very handsome! Actually kinda hot! We gave a warm embrace (my idea of an ice breaker) and he put his hand immediately down my pants to grab my cock. Now normally i am hard all the time. I’m someone who has little control over his sexual urges, but this time nerves made unusually soft as I walked in. His hand on my cock changed that immediately. I went instantly hard and reached for his cock.
This is where I learned a lot about myself. I learned I’m a greedy little whore. I wanted my lips wrapped around his cock first. He didn’t complain and I went to work emulating the best blowjob and woman has ever given me. Apparently I’m a good learner because for the second time in two cocks I was questioned “are you sure you haven’t done this before”. It apparently felt amazing to them. Me on the other hand was just loving a big, fat, hard cock in my mouth and was shocked by how much I wanted his giant load in my mouth… so I could swallow it down.
At some point during all of this was a pretty big WTF moment. That’s quite a thing to find out about yourself in your 40s! Perhaps, I wondered, i am just torqued up and when the cum arrives I won’t like it. Turns out my answer came pretty fast because so did he. Apparently I’m a rock star at blowjobs… who knew?? I was right… I didn’t like it. I fucking LOVED IT!! He came hard, he came a ton and I didn’t stop until I had milked our every drop. Yup, I love cum. Jesus that’s embarrassing to write, but fuck it, I’ve worked my whole life to be proud of the person I’ve become, I’m not going let this change how I feel about myself. I’m just going to have to be the best cumslut i can be.
Well, if I am a cumslut, I better act like one. So as soon as he was able, I licked and sucked that luscious, thick cock again and had him cum all over my lips and tongue and face… and then swallowed down as much as I could. The only disappointment of the night was that he didn’t have a third load for me! (May have to have 2 guys with me next time). Again… who IS this guy who’s a passionate dick sucker?? And what the fuck is with my bizarre brain? I thought a couple of times about kissing this handsome guy and my brain went “EWW!”… while I had his dick in my mouth. Ok brain… whatever… you fucking weird-o!
So anyway… I don’t think this is going to be a regular occurrence, and I also learned that little else about men is of sexual interest to me. I only like fat, juicy cocks. So when the next time I find myself face to groin with another man, I now know what I want and will waste no time trying to get it!! Because… apparently I’m a total cumslut.
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/fg9cml/last_night_i_learned_im_a_total_cumslut_mm