I[F] fucked with a guy[M] a day after I broke up with my now ex[M]

This is my first time posting into this subreddit(or any NSFW subreddit in general)so this might go bad but I’ll try my best:) enjoy the read!
P.S. sorry for any grammar/spelling mistakes

I’m 19, female with short bleached blond hair, I’m 5’6” with pretty big boobs and a nice ass(pretty thic)

I have been in a relationship for the past six months but things have been kind of rough lately. I felt like we weren’t looking for the same things in a relationship, it more so felt like we were best friends who also had sex, so I decided to end things this Monday. It’s hard but i also felt a big relief.
A few months before i started dating my ex I met this guy on tinder and we went out a couple of times and actually almost fucked in a gallery but ended up doing it in a public restroom but that’s a story for another time. We kinda lost contact after he cancelled one or two times due to mental health issues, but he recently reached out to me, saying he’d be willing to take some portrait photos. I posted on Instagram if anyone wanted to do a little photoshoot that’s why. We actually met two times to take pics but both times nothing happened(i was also still in a relationship at that time).
Last week i asked him if he’d like to grab a coffee(we talk about photography a lot) and so we planed out to meet this Tuesday, which was yesterday at the time I’m writing this. So we met up a day after i broke up with my ex and I really wasn’t thinking anything was going to happen, it didn’t even cross my mind. We met up after I finished school and then we just walked around for a bit, talking and he took some pictures. At first we wanted to grab coffee but we decided we’d stop by a store and get some drinks and then walk to a nearby park.
We sat on a bench and we began to get really flirtatious. I told him I didn’t think he still liked me like that and he replied by saying he never stopped liking me like that and actually recently jerked off to some old nudes of mine he still had. He also said he thinks I’m really pretty and I thought that was really cute. At that point i was starting to blush and i just thought to myself what the fuck are you doing lol.
It escalated quickly from there because the next second we were full on making out on that bench getting quite touchy. We were both obviously very horny so naturally he said if we should go somewhere. He also said he doesn’t want to pressure me because he gets i just got out of a relationship. I thought about it for a sec and then just said fuck it. We walked to his place and we first smoked a cigarette. We then went back inside and before we entered his bedroom he sneaked up behind me and i could feel his hard cock poking my ass. We started making out on his bed and grinding against each other. He started to unzip his pants and i knew what he wanted. When he pulled of his pants I realized I forgot how fucking massive his dick is. It’s quite a work of art i must say and i don’t think I’ve ever fucked anyone bigger than him. I can usually deep throat almost the entire length of a dick and when I started sucking on him at first i could only fit the head in my mouth. His head literally filled my entire mouth so if I tried deep throating it wouldn’t even fit into my throat hah. I was looking him straight in the eyes while giving my best to suck his dick good and I’m sure he enjoyed it because he started moaning so sexy I literally couldn’t think of anything else but his dick inside me. He grabbed my head and started face fucking me which almost made him cum so he stopped and said I’m amazing at giving head^^ we made out some more and began to undress each other. He put on a condom and i climbed on top of him. I guided his dick into my pussy and damn I really forgot how big he is. I just grind up and down his tip for a bit before fully sitting on his fat cock. It felt so good and it filled me up completely. We changed positions pretty soon because cowgirl doesn’t really do it for me. We switched to the jockey position which is probably my favorite. He didn’t even start slow he just started fucking me like there was no tomorrow and i loved it. He was breathing really heavily which turned me on even more and i felt I’d come really soon. He laid on me so we were skin to skin and he hugged me while continuing fucking me. I was screaming “give me all of you cock daddy” and “yes daddy, i want every drop of your cum” and i think he couldn’t take it anymore because he ripped of the condom and came all over my back. I swear I haven’t seen that much cum in a while and it made me happy he was so pleased. I was also very satisfied i came all over his dick seconds before he finished so we almost came simultaneously. We cleaned ourselves in the bathroom and than just laid down and cuddled for a while. It was really nice. Shortly after I decided it was time for me to go home so he walked me to my car and we said we’d see each other next week.
On the drive home I started to feel really bad about what had just happened so I actually called my ex and told him what happened. He wasn’t mad he was glad i told him and that really shows how we’re better of as friends than anything else. I didn’t go into details i just said we kissed me and it just kinda happened so I’m not sure he knows we fucked. I feel really bad about it but i think it’s better this way. He did sound kinda surprised tho and one of the main reasons why we broke up was because I didn’t really feel special, like he didn’t give me the type of attention I wanted and he knows that, we’ve talked about it but i think he was kinda disappointed with himself for not being able to give me that and now this random dude is giving me all the attention i wanted.
I’d love to hear what you think about this story and maybe what you think of the situation?

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/f6ef1j/if_fucked_with_a_guym_a_day_after_i_broke_up_with