Apologize for the slightly odd formatting (pulling this from MSN logs means that the name comes after the message for some reason, and I don’t want to bother dicking around with editing the whole damn thing). It raw, so there is more than just pure smut in there. The context here is that she had accused me of only wanting her for sex, and I responded by saying that we wouldn’t talk dirty or cyber or cam or anything for a few days. She apparently took this as a challenge. :P (Names have all been changed, I had to go back to my previous post and remember what the fuck fake names I used. :) )
My sex life with him is not satisfying!
Monica
and I don’t know what to do about it
Monica
I’m not sure what to tell you, really. :/
Brian
I’ve talked to him about it. He’s not willing to do many things.
Monica
example?
Brian
He wouldn’t even really try anal :P He doesn’t want to be rough. He says it’s just not like him!
Monica
He wont!
Monica
He -cant-!
Monica
he’s nervous.
Brian
It’s not a matterer of nervous. He flat out said he doesn’t want to. It’s not in his personality.
Monica
How am I supposed to handle this?
Monica
I’m not sure.
Brian
I mean, its hard for me to understand his perspective, because mine is so different.
Brian
I don’t even think I really turn him on half the time!
Monica
you do.
Brian
I know that for a fact.
Brian
Not always, no.
Monica
The phone thing, for example.
Monica
he’s just not a particularly physical/sensual person.
Brian
But I need that.
Monica
you unfriended me from FB?
Brian
ouch.
Brian
yes. way earlier today. i do not want to see all your comments to other women knowing that you’ll likely be with one of them and not with me. sorry!
Monica
stop changing subject
Monica
I don’t know what to tell you!
Brian
It sucks!
Brian
how can a relationship be successful if i cannot be satisfied that way?
Monica
I’m not sure what advice I can give?
Brian
you said people have to be sexually compatible to be together and be happy
Monica
I said its important.
Brian
And I personally couldn’t handle a long term relationship that was incompatible sexually.
Brian
I can’t picture staying with a guy who is not willing to please me!
Monica
i would do anything he wanted! but he doesnt want me to do anything out of the ordinary!
Monica
I know.
Brian
i want to be dirty!
Monica
and he doesnt give me any chance to be!
Monica
Ok, slight side note. You have no idea how much effort its taking on my part to not say anything filthy to you.
Brian
You’re hot. At least I think so.
Brian
Just want you to know before we continue.
Brian
i wouldnt mind if you did. i have been hoping you would! just being honest.
Monica
Be more direct?
Brian
but anyway
Monica
to Jake.
Brian
he doesnt give me a chance to be dirty
Monica
i HAVE
Monica
it drives me insane
Monica
Like, what do you want him to do?
Brian
i need to be dirty. i need to be treated like i am dirty! he would never do that with me, ever!
Monica
he wont say dirty things to me, he wont even say pussy, he HATES saying it!
Monica
Pussy?
Brian
I mean, I could see why he’d have a problem with “cunt” but pussy?
Brian
i want him to tell him he wants to fuck me, i want him to tell me im his dirty little girl and tell me what he wants to do to me!
Monica
but he doesnt like to!
Monica
yeah, he isnt so much into dirty talk
Monica
…at all
Monica
*nods*
Brian
i want to say such dirty things, dirty filthy things, but i cant without making him uncomfortable
Monica
I know. I’m not sure how you can resolve this.
Brian
If you’re being open and honest, and getting nowhere…. I dunno.
Brian
i cant handle it >< i havent masturbated in forever. i cant talk to him like i want to! i -need- to be dirty!
Monica
That sucks. A lot.
Brian
i am going insane with it!
Monica
Sorry if I’m not being very helpful…. I dunno what to do.
Brian
he would never be rough with me, ive tried to get him to
Monica
Or rather, I dunno what to do within the options that I have.
Brian
the things that turn me on so much, he wont do!!
Monica
i like being treated like im absolutely filthy in the bedroom >.> he wouldnt get anywhere close to that
Monica
I mean, there isn’t anything that is like a foot in the door?
Brian
no!
Monica
a start?
Brian
no!
Monica
ive tried!
Monica
Tragic.
Brian
gah ><
Monica
I wish I could help!
Brian
>< mrrr
Monica
if it helps any, I’m thinking all kinds of things.
Brian
But I can’t say them.
Brian
he’s perfectly content to not see me do anything dirty, and i hate that! i want him to want that!
Monica
i wish you would ><
Monica
i want him to want that! but he doesnt!
Monica
I want him to want me on my cam, I want him to want me to say dirty things!
Monica
be he doesnt!
Monica
:/
Brian
i need it ><
Monica
*twitch*
Brian
You’re doing this on purpose!
Brian
/bite
Monica
trying to break me!
Brian
no D: it is so frustrating. i havent done anything in forever! im not trying to break you!
Monica
or is that just a side bonus?
Brian
Jake doesnt even WANT to see me on cam! he doesnt care! i want him to care about me sexually! i want him to NEED me
Monica
but he doesnt
Monica
:/
Brian
i have terrible amounts of pent up sexual….whatever! and there is no release in sight from Jake!
Monica
i am going insane!
Monica
I wish I could help. :/
Brian
/bonk!
Monica
what?
Brian
i need him talking dirty to me! i need dirty talk! i need >< BUT HE NEVER WILL
Monica
*nods*
Brian
i need it!
Monica
how bad?
Brian
gah. I shouldn’t have said that.
Brian
very bad >< he would never even call me a dirty girl! he would never even say he wanted to fuck me!
Monica
thats…. really too bad.
Brian
he doesnt want me to be as dirty as i am!
Monica
my head is full of filthy nasty dirty thoughts and he doesnt want to hear them!
Monica
like?
Brian
gah. Again. Not good.
Brian
he is not interested in hearing how badly i need to be pounded!
Monica
*nods*
Brian
and he is not interesting in doing the pounding! he is gentle when i need a guy to be rough!
Monica
i need to be bent over and spanked and treated like a filthy little slut!
Monica
mrrrr.
Brian
i -need- it. i want it. i need to be filled up so badly, so hard, i cant take it! but he isnt interested in giving that to me
Monica
thats downright criminal.
Brian
i know!
Monica
i could beg him to and he still wouldnt!
Monica
if I was in his position, you wouldn’t have to worry.
Brian
youd treat me like a filthy little girl?
Monica
not nice and gentle?!
Monica
What do you think?
Brian
i dont want gentle! i want to be NEEDED so badly that i get fucked so damn hard
Monica
*nods*
Brian
I’m not sure how much longer I can discuss this.
Brian
I cant help but be doing stuff right now >< just the thought drives me insane, i am all pent up!
Monica
gah.
Brian
fuck ><
Monica
i need cock D:
Monica
what?
Brian
I will not talk about what is going on with me right now. We’re talking about your situtation, not mine…..
Brian
i am so ridiculously pent up, it’s driving me crazy, i’m soaking dripping wet, my fingers are just not enough
Monica
gah. Why are you doing this to me? You know what I’m trying to do, but…… dammit…..
Brian
im sorry, i cant help it! i need to be dirty! D: i am so pent up
Monica
i dont get any sort of release!
Monica
this is why I can’t visit and plan on not doing anything!
Brian
because I wouldn’t be able to control myself!
Brian
i cant control myself now, im so fucking wet and i have my fingers buried inside myself. its not enough though ><
Monica
I’m not going to tell you what I’m doing.
Brian
I can’t!
Brian
i just have this image in my mind of being pushed down and forced to suck a nice hard cock, then being pushed on my hands and knees and fucked so brutally hard
Monica
it wont go away
Monica
you’re cruel!
Brian
no, it is cruel that i dont get any sort of release! that these desires build up inside my head!
Monica
Like I said. If I was in Jake’s position, this wouldn’t be a problem.
Brian
if you were in Jakes position, youd be the most well pleased man ever! id make sure of that! i am driven crazy with the desire to please sexually somehow right now ><
Monica
You are cruel!
Brian
no! i am craving the chance to please! i love seeing cum all over me knowing i made someone do that!
Monica
yes, but I’m trying to accomplish something worthy and whatnot to show how much I care about you!
Brian
Jake is just not into blowjobs either ><
Monica
but my mind keeps wandering!
Brian
how do i practice when i dont even get a chance to!? i know i have little experience but i want more! i like sucking cock even if im not so good at it yet!
Monica
i want to be pro!
Monica
i love doing it!
Monica
mrrrarw.
Brian
not fair.
Brian
it feels so deliciously dirty to be on your knees and have a nice hard cock in your hands to lick and suck and make cum all over
Monica
gah, i love it!
Monica
but i likely wont ever get to do that with him! ever!
Monica
he doesnt even find the idea of cumming all over me interesting!
Monica
i want to be covered in cum!
Monica
*bites hand*
Brian
i want to be able to suck a guy’s cock til he can’t take it anymore! til he cums all over my lips and my face and everywhere!
Monica
Trying to keep my mind on proper things!
Brian
but he wont let me do that!
Monica
criminal!
Brian
i want to be a filthy little slut in the bedroom! but im required to nearly be a good girl
Monica
i want to please a guy in any way i can! i want to be crazy with it! i want to be able to make a guy cum for me over and over and still want more!
Monica
well, you have that effect on me. As you’ve seen.
Brian
Gah.
Brian
Shouldn’t have said that.
Brian
i need that! i need someone who wants me to be fun and crazy and sexy
Monica
i need someone who wants to treat me like im fucking dirty
Monica
i am not looking for gentle respect when it comes to sex!
Monica
i am looking to be taken roughly, penetrated deeply, fucked like an animal!
Monica
he WONT do that, omfg, i need it ><
Monica
why are you doing this to me?
Brian
gah!
Brian
im not trying to! i just need it so fucking badly and i cant get it and omfg i NEED it
Monica
i need to be filled up!
Monica
gah.
Brian
i need it so badly i dont fucking know what to do
Monica
I can control my thoughts!
Brian
it is driving me fucking insane
Monica
i want to be bent over a desk and fucked like there’s no tomorrow, i want my pussy to ache later! i want to barely be able to walk!
Monica
sounds familiar.
Brian
*slaps self*
Brian
i need it!
Monica
god i need it so fucking badly
Monica
I’m afraid to type anything, because I had to delete this line several times to avoid saything anything filthy.
Brian
i need it so bad >< i cant help it. i am a type of person who requires this! i need to be treated like im fucking filthy!
Monica
not like im some good little girl
Monica
why?
Brian
I’m no good little girl. Maybe on the outside so nice and innocent, but get me alone and I want to be crazy.
Monica
It turns me on so much
Monica
It makes me cum so easily, over and over
Monica
gah
Brian
It brings so me ridiculous amounts of pleasure, it’s mind-blowing for me
Monica
It makes me in turn want to go crazy pleasing whoever I am with!
Monica
all I can say is…. if you ever doubt you’re gorgeous and hot…… I might have to slap you.
Brian
it makes me want to find an empty parking lot and be fucked over the hood of my car!
Monica
i need it so bad and he wont give it to me…ever….i cant take that…i NEED to be treated like a dirty little slut sometimes, i fucking NEED it
Monica
because in the bedroom i AM one
Monica
i am dirty and filthy and i will do anything!
Monica
i will beg for a nice hard cock in me!
Monica
I remember.
Brian
the most amazing feeling in the world is feeling that penetration for the first time, nice and deep, filling me up completely
Monica
so filled up, gah
Monica
you’re cruel!
Brian
I … gah.
Brian
I want you to stop. But I also don’t want you to.
Brian
You’re cruel!
Brian
and i have only ever felt that filled up that time and never any other time and i want it again so bad ><
Monica
what time?
Brian
you! you filled me up like no one else could! it was near divine!
Monica
gah
Brian
no one else has done that for me! no one else has been able to!
Monica
it was fucking mind blowing
Monica
i wanted more!
Monica
well, by the end, I was barely able to walk.
Brian
me too! i loved it!
Monica
gah. Bad.
Brian
i have never felt so filled up before, i didnt know it was possible to feel that good
Monica
why are you being so cruel!
Brian
im not! it’s so fucking cruel to me! i have never been pleased like that before and i didnt even know before that that it was even possible to feel that good!
Monica
gah
Brian
you’re doing this on purpose!
Brian
im not! this is so fucking cruel to me! i have never been pleased like that before, ever
Monica
making me want to type such dirty things!
Brian
please do….
Monica
gah >< i need it so bad
Monica
I promised you that I wouldn’t. I also promised to myself!
Brian
i need it! i need to be treated like im a dirty little girl! i am!
Monica
You’re so much more to me than just sex, and I want to try to show that!
Brian
I know that, but right now I am so pent up, I need it so badly!
Monica
I don’t want to break!
Brian
I just need it so badly….my fingers are buried so deep in myself but I just cant cum!
Monica
gah…..
Brian
it is so cruel to leave me in this position ><
Monica
you make me so fucking hard, even when I’m trying not to!
Brian
my pussy is practically fucking ACHING, i need to cum so badly, i need it so fucking bad!
Monica
what would you want to do if I was standing in your room right now?
Brian
gah, shouldn’t have said that!
Brian
id be on my knees, taking that fucking big cock out of your pants, and not wasting any time before sliding it into my mouth. god i love licking it…sucking it…getting it nice and wet to slide right into my pussy
Monica
oh, god.
Brian
so you can get me on my hands and knees, grab this perfect little ass in your hands, and tease the hell out of me, make me beg for it
Monica
you know ill beg for it, you tease me and tease me and when you do finally slam that cock into me so brutally hard, you know ill cum so fast, god it’s incredible
Monica
so dirty….
Brian
you know that first moment of completely penetrating me, pushing yourself as far as possible into me, balls deep in this tight little cunt…it’s fucking awesome
Monica
this perfect round little ass, in your hands, maybe grabbing my hair and pulling it back, you want to hear me moan, dont you?
Monica
how did you get so dirty?
Brian
you! you fucking did this to me! you brought out the dirty in me!
Monica
so you’re saying before me, you were perfectly innocent?
Brian
you want to hear me moan, you want to see my muscles get tense, aching for that nice big cock
Monica
i was never like this! i never knew how much i loved being so dirty
Monica
were you this dirty a year ago?
Brian
No!
Monica
You turned a shy and innocent girl into someone who realizes how much she loves being penetrated, being fucked so roughly, being teased and being deliciously dirty.
Monica
how did this happen?
Brian
I dont know, but I love it! I love to please, to get that awesome reward of cum all over me!
Monica
you’d like nothing more than for me to snap right now, and let out this tide of filthy ideas that are building up in my brain.
Brian
i want you to let yourself go and fuck me like the dirty filthy girl i am!
Monica
you know i want to please you! you know i want to make you cum like crazy!
Monica
I feel like i’m going to explode.
Brian
Let this dirty little girl take a nice long lick of that cock….let me suck on it….let me play with it, grasp it in my hands, slide it into my mouth, hear me moan!
Monica
I want something, but I shouldn’t ask for it!
Brian
You want to see me play with this tight little cunt, dont you?
Monica
You want to hear me moan…you want to hear me beg for that cock….
Monica
maybe.
Brian
I shouldn’t!
Brian
but you want to
Monica
so badly
Monica
I shouldn’t!
Brian
gah.
Brian
but you want to!
Monica
you’re cruel!
Brian
EDIT: Formatting. Hopefully fixed it.
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/e83lbv/my_msn_log_of_my_college_fuckbuddy