Sorry for the length in advance. I just don’t know what to do. I feel so conflicted.
TLDR: GF cheats on me and begs me to take her back. I do, but then breaks up with me a couple months later. Our lease doesn’t end for another 3 months, and decide that I should move into the guest bedroom for the remainder of our lease. She starts dating another guy while we are still living together. Find out it’s the guy she cheated on me with. Feel so conflicted.
My ex GF and I met our senior year of college, and dated for 5 years. I had always had cuckold and humiliation fantasies, but I never told her about them because I knew she would be turned off by them. We moved in together about 2 years ago, and things were going great (or so I thought). We were talking about getting engaged within the next 12 months.
This past February, I came home to find her in bed with another guy. I felt so betrayed and devastated , but also so turned on as my cuckold fantasies started taking over. She was crying hysterically and begging me not to break up with her. She said she was so sorry, how she made a mistake, and how she had no idea what had gotten into her. I said I needed some time to think. I moved into the extra bedroom for a week, and she was constantly apologizing and saying how she’s so scared she ruined the best thing that ever happened to her and how it would never happen again. I believed her, and decided to give her a second chance.
At first, things started to go back to normal, and she was more loving and caring than she had been in a while. Then in April, she started becoming way more bitchy and annoyed with me. It was like everything I did was wrong. She started denying me sex, and would get mad anytime I asked. Then in May, she said that she wanted to take a break because she wasn’t sure how she felt anymore. She said that while she still loved me, she didn’t know if she was still in love with me. I begged her to stay and work it out. I said I would do whatever it takes, and that I wanted to spend my life with her. She said that she knows that, but she’s just not sure anymore if I’m the one for her. She said that she thought it was best if I moved into the guest bedroom until she had some time to think.
In the middle of June, she said she thought it was best if we broke up. She said that she loves me and that I might be the one for her, but isn’t 100% sure and she needs to see what else is out there. I was devastated, and begged her to not give up and to work it out. She said that she’s really sorry, but that she’s just trying to do what she thinks is best for her. Our lease wasn’t up until the end of September so we agreed that I would live in the guest bedroom until our lease was up, and then we would go our separate ways.
It was really hard living in the same apartment as her, and having to be around her constantly. She started going out more, and coming home very late. I would hear her come home drunk and wonder what she had been doing. I was so upset and sad, but so turned on as my cuckold fantasies began taking over. I couldn’t stop thinking about who she was going out with and if she was hooking up with guys. It dominated my thoughts. Then towards the end of July, she would go out, but not come home at night. I would hear the door open early in the morning. That’s when I knew she had met someone, and was dating another guy. I was heartbroken at how fast she was moving on, but also so turned on and so horny all the time. I jerked off to the thought of her in another mans arms constantly. I wanted to know who it was so badly, and I tried to figure it out.
I’ll never forget the night I found out who it was. It was Friday September 13th. I had gone out for the first time in a while with a couple of my friends, and got home around 11pm. When I got home, I saw a pair of men’s shoes at the door, and heard her talking to someone in her bedroom. I couldn’t believe this was happening. My ex GF had brought her new guy to our apartment, and didn’t even think about me or how I would feel. I was so humiliated and embarrassed, but so turned on. I went into my bedroom, and listened to them laughing and talking. I knew where this was headed and was so ashamed that I was so turned on by the fact that I was going to get to listen to my ex get fucked. It was like my secret cuckold desires were coming true. After a while, I finally heard her say his name, and that’s when I lost it. It was the guy she had cheated on me with. For the next 45 mins, I listened to the most aggressive and passionate sex in my life. I came multiple times as I listened to her get fucked and moan louder than I ever had before.
The next morning, I was in the living room when they came out of the bedroom. She was shocked to see me, and he just laughed. She asked him to wait in the hall for a second, and that she would be right out. She asked me if I had slept there last night, and I said yes where else would I sleep? And she said she thought I was away for the weekend with a bunch of my friends (my friends took a weekend vacation but I wasn’t able to go because of work). She said she was really sorry and that she never meant for that to happen. I said is that who you’ve been seeing? And she was hesitant, but she said yes. I was so embarrassed but so turned on I nearly came on my pants. This happened a couple more times before our lease ended, and they would hang out more at our apartment. I guess she thought that she didn’t have to hide it anymore? After our lease ended, I saw her post a photo with him on Instagram with the caption” best BF ever”. I cannot believe they are dating.
Its one of the hottest and most humiliating things of my life. I can’t stop thinking about them together. I’m so sad and miss her so much, but also so incredibly turned on by the whole thing. I guess that this is what it means to be a cuckold? I feel so inferior to him and so embarrassed. I feel so conflicted. What do I do? Do I just need to accept my place as a cuckold? I miss her and I also miss seeing and hearing them together.
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/dqr9mw/mfm_gf_cheats_and_begs_me_to_take_her_backshe
I’m not a cuckold, but I think the difference between you and a cuckold is consent.