[MM] How I got my kinks ?

About a year ago, I started hanging out with the friend of a friend. I’m not gonna use his real name so let’s just call him John.

John was a tall and toned white guy standing at what I’d imagine is 6’2”. I’m not really good at guessing tall people’s heights but that’s like really really tall to me since I’m only about 5’5”. I would basically reach up to his waist. Anyways, one day he invited me over to his house and I agreed to go. I was under the impression our one and only mutual friend would also show up so I was pretty confused to hear that no one else was coming. Being alone with a big person I barely knew was as unsettling as you could imagine.

Now for some reason, everyone sorta just knows I’m a total bottom even though I never even do any gay stuff in public… at least back then. So once we got to his room he told me he was bi and that he knew I was gay. Then he called me cute and said he wanted to do lewd things to me. He was pretty handsome and I kinda just expected making out so it’s not like I was gonna say no. Kissing him felt amazing! I ended up sitting on his lap straddling him with his big hands on my butt. He gave it a couple slaps and squeezes here and there but things really changed when I felt his cock starting to grow against my thigh. That’s when he slipped his hands down my sweatpants.

He pulled them down along with my underwear and my little thing plopped out. Obviously surprised, I peeled myself off of him with my pants around my ankles and my hard on out for the world to see. I was kinda led to believe 5 inches was average so I didn’t really feel too much shame in the dick department at the time. I guess it still is technically average but I mean c’mon… it’s an inch away from tiny. Anyways, he stood up after I did and towered over me. Normally, just having him stand next to me makes me feel really vulnerable so I was downright terrified having him do that while I was half naked. He told me to unbuckle his belt and I did with some really trembly hands.

Now I’m still a virgin but this was my first sexual experience period so it makes sense I was literally shaking. I was even more shook when his cock jumped out of his waistband and slapped me in the face. He laughed at me and told me to stand on a chair so our crotches could be level. He grabbed his huge fucking rod and compared it next to my, by now, throbbing dicklet. I was barely half his size. He said he was 9 inches long and 6.5 inches thick. Compare that giant slab of meat to my 5 inches. I was aroused beyond belief but what really changed me is what he had to say about it all.

He said, “My cock has more girth than yours does length.”

My dick jumped.

He said, “You’re part black aren’t you? I thought that meant you were at least a little big.”

My dick jumped again.

He said, “How does it feel being smaller than a white guy?”

And with that he slapped his cock against mine.

I came on the spot but he just laughed at how small my orgasm was. The most intense orgasm of my life… It came from getting degraded, humiliated, and emasculated by a big hunky white man and he just wouldn’t stop. This is where I got my kinks! My kinks of loving big cocks and wanting to worship them. My kinks of loving big white men and wanting to be degraded by them. This life changing moment led me down a road where I don’t even intend to continue as a man. It’s a dark and girly path but it’s one I want to take!

Anyways, I ended up blowing him as much as I could afterwards. He came a lot! It was my first time tasting sperm but I instantly loved it! He told me that’s how a real man cums and it’s there I knew that I wasn’t a real man! I blew him again and again week after week. We kept it our little secret but I haven’t seen him since he moved away for college. Come back and take my virginity like you were supposed to, coward!

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/dgoey7/mm_how_i_got_my_kinks