GF on vacation with crush. She doesn’t know about my cuckold fantasies. [MF]

GF on vacation with crush. She doesn’t know about my cuckold fantasies. [MF]

Background: My GF and I have been dating for 3 years. We are both 26 and have a pretty solid relationship. She is extremely attractive, intelligent, funny, and outgoing. While we are pretty open with each other, she doesn’t know about my cuckold and humiliation desires. She is very submissive and so am I so this has occasionally led to some issues in our relationship and many in the bedroom. I’ve tried to be more dominant and take charge more both in the bedroom and in our relationship but it’s very difficult for me.

While I want her to cuckold me very badly, it’s sometimes difficult for me to fully accept/admit it. Sometimes I get jealous when she is around other guys, but it also turns me on so much to watch them hit on her in front of me, and watch her flirt back. She is very outgoing so it doesn’t really seem like flirting to her, but it definitely is. I feel embarrassed and ashamed. But I want her to see me for the beta male I am.

Current situation: About a year ago she met this guy through a friend from work. This guy and my GF’s friend went to college together. I’ve come to find out that my GF has developed a major crush on this guy. She doesn’t know I know about her crush on him though. Whenever they are around each other, they are constantly flirty. Sometimes, he will even hit on her in front of me. My GF’s friend invited my GF to go away for the week to her parents beach house with a bunch of her friends from college, including this guy. When my GF first told me about this vacation, it led to a fight because I didn’t feel comfortable with her going away without me knowing that this guy would be there. ( I didn’t tell her that was my reason though because I didn’t want her to know that I know she likes this guy). Eventually, I apologized and I’m totally fine with her going and I’m sorry for being jealous and that I just wished I could go with her. She said she completely understood, and that she’s sad I wouldn’t be going with her either. Later that night, I saw a text conversation between her and the guy with them discussing how excited they were for the vacation. They all left on Friday and won’t be returning until next Sunday. I’m so jealous but so turned on. I can’t stop thinking about what might happen between them when they spend the whole week together. I can’t believe I gave into my cuckold desires and encouraged her to go. I feel so weak and pathetic but so turned on.

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Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/cg1dyb/gf_on_vacation_with_crush_she_doesnt_know_about