[F]. My mixed feelings about my 1st submissive night

This started when I went to a chalet weekend with colleagues from work. I ended up sharing a room with a nice guy I liked but he was married. Aside from some flirting at work, our relation was pretty normal.

We ended up having sex that weekend, but nothing too special. Sex was really good, he was beyond horny. Trouble with his wife and ask, and they weren’t having much sex.

I wasn’t exactly happy about having him cheat, but honest I didn’t really feel bad either. Fast forward 2 months and by that point we’ve slept with each other a bunch of other times, several of which were at work. (bathroom, empty rooms, parking lot)

As we got more comfortable with each other, he kept expressing how much he loved being in control, fully dominating a girl. I’ve done plenty of kinky sex before and most times I just go along with what the guy wants and meeting takes the lead, but I’ve never been submissive to the point that he wanted.

We end up coming a hotel for the weekend, and he pretends that be had a conference for work. After working out some basics points, and a safe word. Hard limits for me were mostly about pain. ( No whipping, no chocking, slapping… )

We forgo any foreplay, not that we were much into that. From the start he is much rougher, and has me almost fully naked except for my undies. He had me on my knees and making me give him a bj. He’s about 6in, and he kept pulling his dick out of my mouth and smacking it on my face. And he kept pushing his dick almost fully in my mouth. Notv face fucking b me, Just shoving it all in and pulling it back. This kept making me gag, not something I really enjoy but given my role for the evening I just went along.

After some time, he cummed mostly on my face, then tried to scoop the cum and feed it to me. That part I really enjoyed, I like the taste of cum and never had a problem swallowing it.

This followed by a lot of fingering, some spankings, a lot of rough sex, all of which I really enjoyed. I got to orgasm twice from all that.

The issues started when he wanted Anal. He had me bent over the bed and fucking from behind. I really like Anal and I can easily cum from it. It was one of the most intense ass fucking I ever got. It didn’t quiet hurt, but i felt more on edge than normal.

This lasted a couple of minutes before he cummed directly in my ass and instantly pulling out and forcing his dick in my mouth. I didn’t even have time to protest and his dick was already fully in my mouth. This caused me to instantaneously have a huge gag reflex.

I was already having a sufficient a difficult time before and the sudden way that he pushed in my mouth, plus the idea that he just pulled out of my ass was too much for me. I tried another 2 times but I kept gagging way too much, almost wanting to throw up. So I called our safe word, and apologized to him. I honestly thought I could handle it.

He wasn’t really upset or anything. We talked it over, and it was more a mix of things for me. Mostly just having just sick deep in my mouth. This quickly led to him asking about rimming. Sometimes I also never tried.

Given my reaction minutes ago, I wasn’t fully thrilled about the idea but I told him that I would try. I am trying my best to be as submissive as possible. He got on his hands and knees, and I got behind him this time. After a lot of hesitation, I started to lick his ass, super slow at first, then I started to get faster and deeper. Surprisingly, it wasn’t really bad. I didn’t gag at all and didn’t find it difficult. I was even getting turned on thinking how dirty this is and about what I was doing.

The amount of moaning he was doing was insane. He was certainly enjoying it. I tried jerking him off a bit at the same time but couldn’t quiet reach. He then asked me to switch positions and asked me to lay down on the bed while he squatted over me.

It didn’t take much of this to start making me gag and I found it much more difficult than before. Something about having something pushed on or in my face I couldn’t handle. I used our safe word again to make him stop because he kept pushing his ass on my face while I gagged. ( I am not very good at this submissive stuff)

He was still hard and still horny. This resulted in another BJ, this time more if a face fucking than anything. I handled it a lot better this time, I gagged a few times but nothing major. He got to cum on my face a serving a second time.

The last of the night, he asked me to join him in the bathroom. He wanted to try golden shower play. I had tried it once a while back, and it wasn’t really the best but I agreed again.

He actually wanted to start by me peeing in him. That part I never did before. He had me sit down on a sort of bench in the shower while he rubbed and licked my pussy. I was beyond horny by this point, but it was not easy to pee. It took a couple of minutes, a mixture between enjoying him licking me and relaxing enough to pee. He licked me while I peed on him and honestly it was very kinky and enjoyable but I didn’t get to orgasm.

Now for the harder part. He had me go down on the floor on my knee and he was standing in front of me. He was semi hard which made things a bit harder and it took him some time as well before he started. As he was getting ready, I was fingering me pussy as I was still super horny.

As he started to piss on my, it was a whirlwind of emotions. A bit grossed out as he was pissing on my face (my previous time was only on my boobs) and also turned on by what I was doing. I actually orgasmed mid way thru it. He kept asking me to open my mouth, but I didn’t quiet manage to.

Overall, I really liked the experience. Mixed feelings on a lot of the things but positive overall. I would repeat. Maybe I’ll learn to be better at this but for now this is by far one of my kinkiest nights.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/b6nwvv/f_my_mixed_feelings_about_my_1st_submissive_night